Pretty much what the title says. A few months ago, I started thinking about suicide, and now it’s to the point I have a death note prepared, just in case the day comes I’m ready to say goodbye. I made many decisions in my life that hindered my options for the future, and now making only enough money to “survive” is looking inevitable. I don’t have a sob story…no chronic pain, or constant depression (I know, I know….then why kill myself?). I just really don’t want to live my entire life being broke….my pride won’t allow it. Just looking for 100% honesty through […]
Seems like i’m going to walk a little longer.
how long? no one knows, but after not having the balls to try and overdose myself it anti-depressants and pain killers for the third time i got caught by my Mother and she is not letting me out her sight and have locked every place with locks.
isnt it shameful, 20year old shut-in freak who cant even kill himself is now living a lie inside hes room and being watched all the time except when others sleep. the society doesnt even realise its destroying lives of hundreds and after that tells us its our fault and that it […]
*This isn’t a step by step tutorial or anything it’s just statistics and scientific things you may want to know before you end it all.
Lethality: How likely is the method to cause death (where 0% is no chance, and 100% is absolute certainty)
Time: An opinion on the length of time the method will require to produce death
Agony: The amount of physical pain and discomfort you would expect from the use of the particular method (ranked on scale of 0 to 100 where 0 is no pain/discomfort and 100 is the most pain/discomfort possible)
Rank Method Name Lethality (%) Time (min) Agony
1 Shotgun to head 99.0% 1.7 […]
The Internet.
What a strange place.
What a dangerous place.
You can find literally anything on the internet and I mean anything. All it takes is a simple google search and *poof* over thousands of pages pop up on your computer. I’ve been suicidal for quite some time now and have done hours and hours of research on what’s the best way to kill myself, and it’s amazing that it was so simple for me to find not only methods but how, when, even where to do it. Hell, I’m pretty sure I could google “Where to hide a dead body” and I would get at least a few […]
Hello, Ladies and Gentlemen.
How do you do? I’ve read many suicide notes and just registered an account to publish my own suicide note. Where do I start from? I guess from the beginning, eh. Well, I turned 22 this year on the November the 6th. Been severely depressed since 2. I had severe trauma and most likely resulted in brain damage which my parents aren’t telling me about. I have an intermediate stutter and I noticed I have a learning disability and throughout colleges and schools. I’ve been severely bullied on and off basis to the point I had to use deadly force and also been […]
i wish harry potter was real really exist , i wish fantastic beasts were real really exist , i wish magic was real really exist , i wish magic really exist , i wish wizards were real really exist
because reality is boring , mundane , and limiting limited
because real world is boring , mundane , and limited limiting
because real life is boring , mundane , & limited limiting !
reality is all about MONEY !
real-life is all about Money !
real-world is all about Money !
Life is boring , mundane ,
movies is better than reality real life real world !
novels is […]
What’s the point living if you cannot achieve anything you have been wanting to do forever?
i have been failing my whole life and i have never been able to achieve anything, i’m always at best mediocre cant never feel like i have accomplished anything.
i got sick of the feeling i have been feeling for 10 years now, and talked with psychologist and i got told that after my birth i had blood clot in my main blood vessel that comes straight from heart to brain and my brain didnt get nearly any blood before that surgery, and that has made my life this way. a […]
I am emotionally drained. All the skills have used to distract myself has lost its spark. I just can’t find anything that will cope with it except self-harm.
Boredom, sadness, pain.
I’ve never done it before, but I feel as though I don’t have a choice.
… I will tell you guys a story…
a story of a 12 years old girl, after falling her last suicide attempt, say to herself:
“i cant do this… hurt them all like this, but… i NEED to end … all this.. ” and after thinking on all her plans, she notice a problem on them. She wasnt old enough to buy the pills, or to walk by herself without being missed or noticed. She couldnt find a place for herself.
Then she said:
“I will give myself some years, to my plan some time… i need to make it work, i need to make […]
Tomorrow night is the night.
So I have heard of people writing in journals and doing art. Although I just made a private facebook page to submit all of my feelings about the subject in order not to say it publicly. I’m afraid my friends would stop talking to me if they knew how much on the verge I am.
What techniques do you use?
I find it interesting that I am on here, because I am not currently suicidal. Whenever I have explained to a therapist how I feel about suicide, they have termed how I feel as “suicidal ideation” where I think that suicide sounds great, but I’m not actively trying to figure it out.
Which is exactly the problem. I didn’t even know what my feelings were about suicide, so I wasn’t able to articulate them well. I’ve called several crisis hotlines in my life. Some seemed like they were useful, others, after I spoke to them, I hung up feeling even more depressed than when I picked […]
I’m just going to put this here for me to re-read when I’m at a low point. Kind of as a public time-capsule. Bear with me as it’s going to be a lot about I-Me-My.
I was born to a single mom with a lot of personal issues. She was a pretty promiscuous party girl during my early childhood. She dated, and we lived with a few
different drug dealers before I was even 3, not that I minded at that age. I temporarily lived with my grandma for a year from 3 to 4. I don’t have any memory of
this but apparently, according to […]
I’m 17. I can hear too many things going on in my head but at the same time I feel blank. I love life but I hate life. Everything is so confusing and I feel a lump in my throat when I try to explain what I really want, so I thought I’d type it.
I don’t want the life that everyone is told to follow. Working behind a desk, getting large sums of money for rotting away in a grey, dull workplace and consistently working for a force that marginalises freedom. I want freedom. I just wish I could run through endless green fields that […]
I hate reality ! reality is boring !
Doctor Strange is better than reality !
Marvel MCU (Marvel Cinematic Universe) is better than reality !
Avengers is better than real world !
Sword Art Online is better than real life !
Virtual Reality is better than boring reality !
video games is better than reality real life real world !
movies is better than real-world real-life reality !
novels is better than real-life real-world reality !
anime manga is better than boring real life real world reality !
comics is better than boring real world real life reality !
Why Human’s Imagination is much better than […]
Letter to my mom.
Dear Mother,
I try to defend you to EVERYONE who said you were a terrible person.
I defended you even after you beat me and forced me to walk across town
to my grandparents neighborhood at 10 at night
i was in shorts and it was snowing out.
I am choosing to go get help for myself
and you tell me im “running from my problems”
I tell you that you can just lose me for 6 months to a year
or you can lose me for the rest of your life
and you call me a ***** and say
“suicide is stupid.”
i fucking hate you so much.
I will never defend you […]
I’ve been waiting on doing this for quite a while now. For some reason, whenever I’ve been swimming around in my fantasies of (emotional) suicide, I’ve always managed to stumble upon this site. It never helped, but then again, it isn’t supposed to.
Have you ever reached a point where you’re mind and body are just tired of functioning? You don’t have any desire to do anything, and you’re just tired of existing.
I presume at least a few have felt this way. I suppose I must be in a really dark place which i am. I just don’t care about anything anymore. I’ve tried antidepressants, nutrition and nothing helps really. I just put it down to the way I am wired/made. Its been unbearable and unbeatable. Been like this most of my life. At 31 its just getting deeper and worse.
I’m ready to just lie on a table […]
I go to high school like any other kid smiling and hoping to hide it all. Health class is the worst. My teacher speaks so biased on psychiatric hospitals and mental illnesses. It’s so hard to sit there and listen to her talk about something that is defining my life so much and speak so demeaning of it. I truly think there is no hope