I swear if i hear one more person tell me im young and too naive to truly grasp what life is really about im going to go on a killing spree (not really, but im definitely going to scream at the top of my lungs) i have honestly had more life experience than most of the “adults” i know. ive had to deal with things most people could never even imagine, most things people would NEVER even want to imagine. Ive had to be strong in situations ive seen “adults” just crumble to pieces in. Who do you think takes care of the “adults”? we […]
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I want to commit suicide as a project, but I don’t want nobody to know… how do I do that????
there are pros ans cons ok.
-I have money to finance anything!
-I don’t have friends, don’t have girlfriend, never had.. plus have been traveling for the past 11 years ALL ALONE around the world
-My family:we are 3 guys and 1 girl, mom and dad, my dad has another family, he got remarried, he recently had a child, 2 of my brothers are married one just recently had a child, my sister is getting married next year. we never had a healthy relation in our family, my mom […]
Is it suicide if I eat junk food until I have a heart attack? Since I can’t actually kill myself.. I felt like this would be an easier way. Would take longer but at least I can eat yummy food.. which would eventually lead to my wanted death. It’s kind of like when you die while or after having sex.. you died, but at least you died happy.
I can’t take it anymore. I feel like dying. School is just so much pressure, and I’m so clumsy, that I lose things. My parents yell at me for losing things that cost money. I feel like they care about money more than me. I’ve been suicidal since I was eight. Eight! I felt too much pressure and stess too often. None of my friends and family know about this at all. The only reason I don’t suicide is because it hurts. I don’t want to feel the pain. I’m thinking, “If I have lots of pain, why add more?”
I know I’m young, and I […]
I have a friend at my school. I’ve knew her since sometime in elementary schools, but we’ve only become rather good friends only this year. i feel comfortale telling her thoughts about my life since she also has a lot going on with her family and has counseled many people before me. once in math class many months ago, as i was thinking about life and such, i told her i thought that i was suicidal, though not as seriously suicidal as i am now. since she did not respond, i assumed she didn’t hear me. then, after school, she asked me if i really felt […]
I’m thirteen. I’ve been a cutter since I was eleven. Today, I was going to commit suicide because I was tired of the constant pain and the drama with my family and friends and everything else. Only five people know I cut. My ex  and four of my friends. I told one of them this morning that it may be the last time they talk to me and that if there was anything they wanted me to know, to tell me now. They replied back with a three page text about what their life would be like without me. It got me really thinking. I paid […]
“There is but one truly serious philosophical problem and that is suicide.”
Albert Camus
Hey guys,
The last time i post on this site was thursday i think. I was trying to make a fresh start but things kinda changed the next day when a girl from my school died from a burst appendix. Today i was at her funeral and it was very sad. She did’nt have many friends sadly and was an only child i could hardly keep my tears away today at the funeral. Why was’nt it me? since i want to die.
I did’nt even know her well but i was still depressed as it should’ve been me and she did’nt deserve to die […]
Round 2
Hello again. Once again I am Katie and I am a junior in high school and I am doing a Real Change project on Suicide. The name of the project is “You Don’t Know Me” because, you don’t know me, and I don’t know you. But I want to get to know you. I want to know you well enough so you can know yourself. I am making a video for people who need reasurance of the beauties of the world. A reassurance to live. My basis of the project is on these three principles:
1)Someone to love
2) Something to do
3) Something to look forward […]
She ran from the school, crying, but racing so that know one could see her tears.
She felt alone, suffered alone, in a roaring silence.
what had M called it?
the Black Velvet Curtain
The place deep inside where she hid, somehow knowing no one would even be looking for her.
It all started when HE asked her best friend out instead. “He only used me to get to my friend”
And when she heard the hateful things he called her behind her back it got worse.
Fatty, *****, ho.
She knew what she needed to do, she had a shrt piece of razor hidin in […]
my name is matt, I live in new jersey. i started off with depression when i was 3. at that time my father began beating me i would estimate once a week, as well as my father having somewhat severe fights with my mother which often hurt me because she would be emotionally unavailable and I obviously was very distant from my father which made me feel alone. this feeling of being alone has always embodied me. i now am 19. i started off in middle school acting out and made a lot of “friends” but got myself in a lot of trouble just because […]
That moment when someone tells you something that makes you feel worthless, stupid, unwanted..when all you can do is sit there and cry and cry until you cannot cry anymore, wondering why this happened to you, why people are so hurtful and careless, why the world is so cruel. That moment when you feel so alone, that everyone around you is elated, while you sit there, contemplating whether or not you should commit suicide, because you realize(or assume) that no one cares and no one will notice when you are gone, until it is too late. It is the most painful feeling in the world, […]
Today was one of the weirdest days of my life. I have been depressed since I was 10 years old. I’m 14 right now. I have attempted suicide 4 times. I have tried to drown myself, I have thrown myself down stairs trying to break my neck, I have tried strangling myself, and I have taken 15 pills. Today, I was bickering with my boyfriend John all day. We argued over him eating, me eating, and me cutting myself. First time we argued it wasn’t that bad. Then I told him that I was craving blood. He didn’t quite understand. So then I went upstairs to […]
I hate myself. I am stupid. I am ugly. I am fat . I am died inside. I am alone. I am fat. I am selfish. I am annoying . I am a person who wants help but can tell anyone in fear of them judgeing me. I am finished.
I have to go, yet I don’t feel like going. I feel like if I kill myself, I will go to hell, because of all of the crap I’ve done in my life. With the lesbianism and the lesbian sex, and even just the reguar sex, will all probably land me in hell. The worst pat about all of this is that I’m not even 16 yet and my life is already hard. I thought it would be hard when I grow up and marry, but it’s so hard now that I don’t even want to make it there. I have attempted at cutting,but i […]
I have never been pyciscal abuse by anybody but I have been verabley abuse by many people everyone things I am happy and fine but I am NOT . I am not happy. I am not fine. I don’t want to tell anyone the way I feel because I am afraid they will judge me … I am stupid . I am worthless . And I want to die, not really I think it would be better if I moved/ ran away from my current liveI HATE MYSELF MORE THAN SOMEONE COULD EVER HAD ME
Tonight I die. This is my 3rd attempt, and I think I finally got my suicide figured out. I am not mentally ill or depressed, right now I am actually quite calm. My story is simple, I had a good life but threw it away because I am a compulsive gambler. My friends and family bailed me out countless times and yet I don’t learn from my mistakes and dig myself back into the same hole again and again. I am a sinner and don’t deserve better. I just wish that before I go… I can give back all the money that I owe to […]
Hi all,
I read now some stories of the suicide project and I know that some of you have to deal far bigger problems then I have to, but I just can’t help myself. Your posts always encouraged me not to give up on anything and I will not commit suicide by now and I think I won’t ever do so. I know some of you by now really well. Â alina_01 I have read a lot of your stories. All tough we don’t have the same situation. I feel with you. I hope someday you will find your peace and get a good live again. I […]
Hello im elena. Im 17 years of age and i am suicidal. There is not one day that goes by that i don’t think of suicide. I am going through severe depression. I feel like everyone in the world is fake to me i hate myself, i really do. I look at myself in the mirror and think to myself i am so ugly,fat,useless,worthless. No boy really likes me for me? They just wan’t me for other things not to really love me. I cry myself to sleep everyday because of how much i really hate what i have become. Why is that i feel […]
At The end of the world, Or the last thing I see, You are, Never coming home, Never coming home….
by Nat....
written by Nat....
Damn. That song brings back so many memories. Happy-ish Memories from happier times.
Basically, I’m thinking of doing ‘it’. I don’t want to be around anymore… I’m sick of life and all it has to throw at me. It’s not going to get better like everyone keeps telling me. I want it to stop. I think… My mental health is also getting worse… I don’t want to be the crazy one. I did want to stick around for my nephews, watch them grow up… be happy with them. Looks like that isn’t going to happen. They will be ok without me. I know it. And sure, […]