Honestly, I don’t know what to do anymore. My best friend committed suicide a few months ago and I’m just dead on the inside. I’m numb to everything and pain doesn’t phase me. My life gets tougher and tougher everyday, even when I think its getting better..its not… I need to do something .instead of just wishing I was gone.
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Suicide
how can i love you,
why do i care,
how was i not aware,
you were going to leave me at my worst,
to turn my life into death,
leave me screaming in despair,
i trusted you to always be here,
through thick and thin,
you put my life in the wrong spin,
when you left i picked up my knife,
i thought i was an ex cutter,
but i guess i was wrong,
i must have been fooled […]
I want you to think of something, but not just anything. About you. About you life. Ever wondered how many people around you actually care and how many are just people waiting for gossip. Or if the people you loved so very much would care if you just one day disappeared. See I recently discovered just how many people “care”. We try to hide the things we love the most, and that’s exactly what I did. For many years I had a best friend. Someone who knew everything about me and the one person I thought really cared. I chose not to see who she […]
Suicide can never be accepted in society, at least not the way I see it right now. Of course I’m talking about the American society, I’m sure other country’s could care less if their people commit suicide.
I want cannabis to be legal world wide, that would be a great day to see. I’d be growing as much I could. But for now, society won’t fully accept cannabis for what it is.
How come when we can’t accept something as a society, we try to change it to be more acceptable for everyone?
Lets say “Johnny” wants to kill himself. He’s got no family or […]
What or who do you think is torturing us? And why? Is it a god that’s torturing us for some reason? Is it some evil powers like demons? Or is it just “nature”?
I see a picture of horses grazing in a field and, my god, it’s so beautiful, it’s so peaceful, none of them are bleeding, or in any pain, all of them are beautiful happy and content. That’s how life should be.
Instead we have chaos everywhere police syrens, blood, screams, filth, crying, humiliation, emptiness, suicide, hopeless, traumatized….
Everything is wrong. I want to know why.
My kind of suicide isn’t suicide at all, as funny as that may sound.
The way I see it is that I don’t have to take my own life, life will take it for me. All I have to do is live. I mean, even if I get stricken with cancer I can be thankful I won’t live to an old age where I’m helpless, just get it over with. That’s worth the pain I think. I’ve seen an old friend die of cancer, in comparison to other ways one can go out, it didn’t seem that bad the way it hit him quick. And […]
I don’t know if anyone remembers my last post, titled numb. Basically i explained what happens when i go numb. I cut off all feeling, i am in a haze, it takes so much energy to pull out for 30 min. so i can act okay. But i sink deeper and deeper until i cut, and then i’m fine again. i haven’t cut since March, and I’ve been okay. Until now. I’m starting to fall again, and i don’t know why. The only person i can talk to is my friend Skye, because she the only person i know and trust at my new school. […]
Hello, new people of the SuicideProject.
My name is Ryan, but you can just call me RealTalk30, or RealTalk, or RT3, or just RT. I am 31 years old and I live in California USA. I’ve been frequenting this web site for about 4 months now, and I’ve become a regular here. I’ve met some really amazing people here, and it’s unfortunate that such amazing people can be so alone, scared and angry. We all have our reasons for being here. My reason for being here is that there is no other place for my selective opinions, not too many places like this one where I […]
Ever felt so broken that nothing can fix you? So shattered that you couldn’t put Humpty Dumpty back together again, even if you wanted to?
Have you ever had anyone fix you? Someone who ran around for weeks and months trying to pick up the pieces of your tattered soul? I did. I felt destroyed before her. Like there was nothing on the inside. She’s gone now, and her leaving made me realise that there really was nothing on the inside. I actually thought she’d fixed me. Not the half assed job that any dipshit in a suit with a PHD was capable of. No, really […]
Im so done with life and all the nothingness shit it has to offer.So im out on thursday.I dont really agree or disagree with suicide.Im a little scared but i figure fear is a natural part of death.If i wasnt scared i wouldnt be human.
I got test results for my heart that landed me in the er weekend of my birthday.Guess what they found?Nothing! normally i wouldnt be bothered by this but im in pain a lot and im a bit tired of this.doctors trying to make me out to be some type of liar or crazy ass *****.fuck them all.ill self medicate and […]
I have lost my lust for life many years ago. At first I thought it was a phase that I would grow out of but I realize that the older I get, the more I lose the desire to live. I don’t have any glaring problems with my life. I have a decent job and I don’t have any pressures, but I find the only pleasure I get out of life is from sleeping. I sleep with a tank of helium (and tubing, gas mask, etc) under my bed because it gives me comfort to know I have the option available […]
Whenever we’re little, why is it that we wish we were older? Much older? Why didn’t anyone warn us of this? The adult life is so sugar-coated and isn’t as glamorous as it’s made to be.We wasted out childhoods on wishing we were done with it, when in all actuality, we would give up anything just to go back.
I first tried to kill myself when I was fourteen, after 3 years of cutting. My parents split up, I lost my 8 day old nephew, my sisters moved out, I lost my friends, and I had nothing holding me back from suicide. I was put on […]
YOU’RE a QUEER, a SISSY, GAY, a FAGOT; little words that do enormous damage to any person, but especially children, may be long forgotten by those who say them, but never erased from the memory of those who endure.
Unless he was in front of an audience, Jimbeau Hinson, Jimbeauhinson.com writer of Setting Fancy Free (The Oak Ridge Boys) Tonight I’m Looking for a Party Crowd, (David Lee Murphy) and other hits, was always a shy, quiet child.
“I always felt different from everyone else at the time, but I’ve come to realize I was […]
I am a 20 year old female attending university within my home town. I honestly feel lost within my own life. I am a waste of space. I do not know how to cook, terrible at cleaning, and struggle to manage a workload in school that others would find easy. I was diagnosed with major depressive disorder and anxiety disorder. I was never social as a child; I can’t go up to someone and start a conversation. I had a happy childhood, up to a point. Our home has come under disrepair within the past decade or so. I love my parents, at least I […]
I was diagnosed with depression and anxiety issues, as well as PTSD a few months ago now. I’ve had a doctor, a counsellor, a psychologist and a psychiatrist all working really hard with me to try and straighten some stuff out, and we were doing really well for a while there. I took all the meds, I answered all the questions, I attended every appointment, I talked, I listened, I did everything they all said. But I am so tired and so worn down, that I think I’ve finally had enough.
I cancelled my psychologist appointment this week. She is an incredibly talented woman, so good […]
“Better an end with terror, than a terror without end.”
“Should I kill myself, or have a cup of coffee?”
“A lot of you cared, just not enough.”
“But in the end, one needs more courage to live than to kill himself.”
Lots and lots of insightful and witty statements and quotes about shuffling off this mortal coil at http://www.goodreads.com/quotes/tag/suicide?page=1
Not all of us will escape suicide.
It doesn’t always get better.
There isn’t always a light at the end of the tunnel.
Life isn’t always worth fighting for.
Some of us are mistakes.
Some of us are, in fact, better off dead.
Not all of us matter.
3000 people will commit suicide in the world today.
I will be one of them.
If a tree falls in the forest and nobody hears it, it does make a sound. But no one cares.
September 10, 2013
As this may be the last year of my life, I am posting this confession, if you will, to explain why I might commit suicide sometime between June-November of 2014. It’s way out there in mid to late 2014 and not now because I’m giving myself a last chance to succeed. I’m old now, I’ve had 3 health crises in the last 3 years, and my finances, while sufficient for the next 2 years, are not enough to carry me through a long retirement. At this point, given my health, depressed mental condition, and the odds of achieving a major financial reversal […]
This is a very strange discovery. Anyone hear about Martin Manley? Wasn’t too well-known, sportscaster writer guy. Well he created this huge website about his life and why he eventually chose suicide that became active the day he died. It’s so interesting and a little eerie. If you’re interested…
http:// martinmanley.org /january_1_20 12.html   (n o  s p a c e s)