I have found that I worked all my life for Woman who did not love me. I am the youngest of my family and not very good with the other sex. I fear being alone all my life It is a very painful life I have no one and wish too die without shaming my family with my suicide I know God is good but I think some people are going too hell no matter what just like some people are born beautiful are rich.I just wish too leave this painful life.If you could help me I would be in you’re debt.
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Suicide
Im tired of living. You can work so hard for something and still end up with nothing. I keep chasing dreams that i think will make me happy but then realize that there is no such thing as happiness. I think to myself how i want kids someday and my time is running out but why would i want to bring a kid into this shitty world? Why would i want to hand over my mental issues to another human being through my genes just so they can suffer? Am i really seeing this miserable place for what it is and just giving up on […]
It’s nearly midnight and what’s happening? The thoughts are returning…..The voices are speaking..no, YELLING at me >.< I can hear them now….. “Die ***** die!” “Who says you’re worth living?” “You don’t deserve to live. Your own parents didn’t even want you. HA!”
The thoughts destroy me, kill me, suffocate me, eat me alive. My demons…they’re real. They exist. I don’t want to go on but..I have to. Not just for myself. I’m not living for myself anymore. I’m living for him. And her. For them. They may not care about me but I love them with all my heart.
It’s like…I can scream at them and […]
I don’t know why I feel this way
I don’t know why I do this to myself
I don’t know why I cry so much
I don’t know why I tried to kill myself
I don’t know why I push everyone away
I don’t know why I feel so alone
I don’t know why I am anxious
I don’t know why you hate me
But then again i think i do.
You know what, this IS your fault! I said it plenty of times, I NEED you and I will DIE without you! You should have listened to me if you wanted me to live! You don’t show people you care about them by ignoring them! Do you feel guilty? You should, after the absolute HELL you’ve been putting me through! You should have NEVER told me you loved me if you never really meant it! I love you a lot! You’re the center of my universe and the light in my life! You are a GODDESS of beauty! When I am with you, everything just […]
I survived through a lot. Overdose, Anorexia, rehab(a lot of times), depression, self harm, suicide. If I can do it, so can you darling<3
Today i am accepting the fact masturbation ruined my life and i am tired of masturbating everyday is there anyone in the whole world who masturbate a lot i am very tired of doing it and i do not know how to stop this habit but i am just in shame today too much because i am very much tired of doing it and i do not want to do that anymore it is not stress reliever for me it is eating my life my body ruined because of masturbation i look very thin and i always use to be tired because of this habit […]
I wish I was dead been trying to recover but today sucks……..my best friend fake suicide I don’t get how someone is coldhearted and fake suicide and then say im a brat because I don’t want to be with him ……I am in a long distance and I am happy with him we are recovering together
I am someone who has gotten help for my depression before. I went to a treatment center and it helped considerably. But…I still feel like something is…missing. I still feel pain for no reason, want to cry when there’s nothing to cry about, and just feel, well, lousy when left by myself with nothing but my thoughts. If someone said, ‘Here, I have a painless way to die. You’re gone instantly.’ then I would probably take it. Life…doesn’t have much meaning for me. It’s like, ‘okay, I exist’ but nothing more. I’d be content to just stay in my house all my life. I don’t […]
My life is falling apart by every minute. I lost my papau (greek grandpa) and i lost my very close family friend to me, my family is having problems and my so called “Friends” auctally hate me. Ive started cutting. I feel worthless. Even at school my teacher doesnt even call on me, i put my hand up in class and you know what. she dosent listen to me nor talk ot me. i feel invisiable.
i feel like im nothing. I hate my life
i hate everything.
Again, it’s me.
I figure I should do a re-cap just so no one gets lost.
My father abandoned my mother and I when I was five months old.
My mother met a new guy when I was four and I caught them having sex. Since that night, she made me watch and take part in sexual activities.
My mother moved me twelve hours away from my last piece of sanity and put me through hell with that new guy.
When I was eight my mother and I were out of a house so she shipped me off to my fathers.
While living with my […]
I’ve got a question for you all. Please comment! As much as I believe there’s plenty of options for your life other than suicide, for some people it’s the only option. Whether they’re right or wrong is not my point. My point is, when we think our pets are suffering too much, we go to our vetss and they put our animals down, after exhausting all options. Sometimes they may put them down anyway no matter what! Because they realise we’re not liking the suffering we have to watch every day. So. Why is it wrong not to kill a person for reason of suffering, […]
I miss you.
I miss you like hell.
Why did you have to change.
We fit so well together.
We were soulmates.
But you had to change.
I probably sound crazy but I’m so emotionally broken deep down in my heart I don’t know what to do.
Self harm is so relieving.
It’s how I tolerate the pain.
I thought this kind of stuff would never happen to me.
I can’t reach out for help. It seems unnecessary. I don’t want to disturb everyones little happy bubble. So I need to hide it. Hide all of my emotions so no one can see how broken I am. No one needs to know no one cares. […]
I’m a survivor.
A few people in this world, supported a few med pros who taught me how to survive. Last wweek I wanted a dr to put a bullet through my head, over something stupid. I was having a hard time getting through some proocedures. So the dr had to spend an extra five minutes which seemed eternal for me, making certain that I wouldn’t go home and die. A family member, one of about five or six who I trust and stuff the rest of ’em, was understanding, but also disagreed with me at the same time. At least she cared and wanted to […]
I am 25 years old. I have always had problems with depression, with self-harm; I’ve attempted suicide twice, and I promised myself that the third time would be the last; I won’t mess it up, next time. The third time will be the end.
The third time is all I can think about lately. I have lost everything, these past few months. Two years ago, I moved 1000 miles away from home; away from all my family, who spent my entire childhood abusing and neglecting me, and away from all my toxic friends that only dragged me down into their messes. I wanted a fresh start; […]
Well, I guess hello.
I don’t exactly know what I am doing here..
About ten minutes ago I was ready to end my life, but a person I know recommended I check out this one website awhile back and I figured it couldn’t hurt. That’s how I ended up here.
I don’t really know what I am suppose to say, or do. But I just really need to tell someone what is on my mind.
If you are also on this site reading my words, it is safe to assume that you’re dealing with something around the topic of suicide so you know the amount […]
On July 26, 2013, I will be sad, depressed, and all kinds of crap will be going on in my mind. Why? That day will mark the 3rd year that I lost my father to suicide.
My father was the most kindest mad you would have ever met. He would give his shirt off his back to a stranger. He use to tell me and my siblings and friends that “there is nothing wrong with being yourself.”
How can a man with such a big heart want to end all of that? And where was I when it happened?
I was about to take my last exam of […]
Three years ago this summer I lost my father. He managed to make it to my graduation and my first summer semester in college. However, towards the end of that summer my father decided to take his own life. To be a victim of SUICIDE.
During that summer, I lost three of my best friends. Not cause of death, no. But because we split up and went to different universities around the state. We do still talk to each other from time to time, its just hard to find another group of people that you share some of the same interests in, the same personalities, and […]
Life isn’t supposed to be like this.
I’m supposed to go to college in the fall. I’m supposed to become a nurse in 4 years. I’m supposed to look forward to the future.
All I can think about is suicide though. I don’t want to be alive anymore, I’m done. I know if I die I will mess up a lot of peoples’ lives. That’s the only thing holding me back, I don’t want to hurt everyone. Does anyone have any advice? I don’t know how to make these thoughts go away and they’re ruining my life.
So I’m seventeen, 17, just graduated from high school. I’ve been struggling with suicidal thoughts for about 4 or 5 years now. I attempted suicide in 2011 after I was hurt by someone who meant the world to me and I regretted everything. I’ve started up counseling since May 10 this year and have started medication but I still have depressed days and days that are hard to get through. I feel like nothing helps. What broke me is I had a nervous breakdown a few days before I started meds and going to counseling and nearly ended it. I have a box filled with […]