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to be loved

I Hate You

by CaptainMarvelous 5/10/2016

written by CaptainMarvelous

How dare you do this to me. If you wanted to die you should’ve done so by yourself, alone so you wouldn’t hurt anyone. Instead you fell in love with me, and made me fall in love with you.

You knew how badly I was hurt before. You knew I’d been abused, lost people, had people walk out on me or abandon me. You knew I was plagued by demons from my past. I thought I could trust you. You, of all people.

I can’t do anything without thinking of you. You’ve blighted my life with your loss. I just want to end things myself now. What […]

5/10/2016 1 comment

It’s happening again

by souptool 3/20/2016

written by souptool

I just want to get away from me!

I don’t know what to do, all I have is a hope that it’ll be over soon if I can be brave for once in my life and just kill myself I’m so sick of being alive it’s so fake nothing about this is real. How can this be what life is supposed to be like I hate it I want off this ride I’m so done. Nothing even happened it’s just a culmination of my life I’m so sick of my memories my thoughts my worries. All I wanted I think out of […]

3/20/2016 4 comments

Late night reflections.

by nias 3/1/2016

written by nias

I sit here with thoughts of suicide swirling around in my head.
I don’t know if there’s a purpose to my life; why was I born.
All my life I’ve wanted to be loved; no one has ever wanted me.
I feel such loneliness, so empty inside.
I wish I could cease to exist, I don’t want to live anymore.
I hate myself and wish I was dead.
🙁

3/1/2016 7 comments

There Are Two Sides To Me. And Neither Can Be Happy.

by thehusk 12/3/2015

written by thehusk

I don’t know how to resolve the conflict within myself. I’ve been trying for so long to figure out a compromise between the different elements of my mind. But there isn’t one. And I don’t think I can let go of either of them.

One is entirely superficial. All it wants is instant, unrestricted gratification. It doesn’t care about consequences, or the limitations of reality. It will accept no denial. Giving in to it brings temporary elation, but once satisfied it fades into the background, leaving only nagging discontent. Denying it removes any feelings of satisfaction in anything, leaving only despair.

The other is appalled by the […]

12/3/2015 10 comments

A lost Aspie

by pitterftally 11/18/2015

written by pitterftally

I have Aspergers syndrome.

I am a girl. Its not that visible. I am supposed to be very high functioning. The more I realize my struggles and my differences in contrast to other people.

I am pretty much down.

I just cant navigate through relationships. I cant let go of people. I still love somebody whom I loved five years ago, who moved, who I dont see anymore…etc. I make people mad. I make fuss of things that arent important. For normal people. I have just ruined another relationship of mine, because I was too pushy, too needy. I just dont seem to do anything right. Even weird […]

11/18/2015 4 comments

Untouchable, Unreachable, Unobtainable

by disgusting 10/25/2015

written by disgusting

I’ve come to the same conclusion as I did probably a good 15+ years ago. The guy I had loved so deeply is completely unobtainable. ALL MEN over 6ft tall and over 200 lbs are absolutely untouchable, unreachable and unobtainable. They all will only be with the skinniest, smallest, tiniest, anorexic looking women. He’s no exception. No one will ever love him like I could. To him, looks are what defines love. It’s love if he can get into her looks. I care, and hate to leave him on his own with what he faces in life, but he leaves me no choice. I’m too […]

10/25/2015 12 comments

being comforted.

by Delisnak 9/7/2015

written by Delisnak

i want someone to physically wrap their arms round me and hold me. Dont say everything will be okay i need someone to tell me we cant always be strong. I dont have anyone to love or be loved by. My parents dont take my depression and anxiety seriously they think i want attention. i dont want attention i want to be loved but i dont act out to be loved. My attempt was a attepmt but also a test. If i killed myself or atleast attempted i wantd to see who will go out of there way to make sure im okay and make […]

9/7/2015 3 comments

So tired of living.

by November_WV 9/2/2015

written by November_WV

I am just so tired of living. There is nothing here for me. I had to be home schooled the last year of high school due to finding out I have a rare genetic disease. The main symptoms are major organ failure and extreme burning pain in my hands and feet. I have only met one other man like myself with this disease in person. Not being able to do all the stuff I enjoyed my best friend grew apart a just quit associating with me completely. I was in the hospital a lot due to the pain and kidney failure. Now I have to […]

9/2/2015 24 comments

Fuck-up

by thegirlwiththecinderblockgarden 8/21/2015

written by thegirlwiththecinderblockgarden

That’s me. A giant fuck-up. A huge mistake. A waste of space. Nothing important.
That’s how I feel today.
I accidentally came out to my mum today. She asked a rather leading question, which resulted in me accidentally telling her. She didn’t say anything back, and continues to treat me as normal. I wish she had said something, because I have all these thoughts of what she could have said or thought, and I feel like these thoughts are slowly destroying me.
I wasn’t ready to tell her, and I feel like I have been forced to come out, and it’s really upsetting. I feel […]

8/21/2015 1 comment

. . . . .

by spvnalittlelie 7/14/2015

written by spvnalittlelie

my life is so empty. i don’t have friends. i don’t have a relationship. i have no love in my life. i need to be loved but i’m too ‘weird’ and ‘ugly’. i’m tired of people telling me to love myself. i don’t need to love myself, i need to be loved by someone else. i cannot stand to even think about if i have to spend the rest of my life alone. i’d have to kill myself. a lot of people would think that’s overdramatic, but it’s true. you know how some people need music and some need good food and some need art […]

7/14/2015 2 comments

….

by cant.fixme 7/11/2015

written by cant.fixme

I hate when people tell me to be myself the judge me for it. I’m sorry i’m not perfect i’m sorry i have flaws, wtf am i suppose to do or be to be loved.

7/11/2015 4 comments

I want.

by justanothergirl09 5/16/2015

written by justanothergirl09

I want people to ask me if I’m okay. I want to know people still care. I want to know I matter. I want to be loved, just like everyone else. I want to be accepted. I want to fit in. I want to be wanted.

5/16/2015 10 comments

What is wrong with me?

by ChibiBrittany 5/12/2015

written by ChibiBrittany

Every day I wake up, dreading everything and anything that could happen during the day. I get to school. Everything’s fine. Walk down the hall my friends wait for the bell in and sit with them. Just fine. They start talking with each other, leaving me to my thoughts, and suddenly everything around me goes quiet. It’s like a little island. Just me. Reaching out for someone to notice the little, nerdy, fat girl who just wants to be loved. Then the bell rings and everything is fine. My friends call me to walk with them to class and we joke around as if nothing […]

5/12/2015 1 comment

sometimes theres hope but then its crushed

by missti sal 5/1/2015

written by missti sal

this has become ridiculous, im not sad anymore im just angry.. why must i bare the burden and fall apart while he roams the night…

i am dreadfully tired of explaining time and time again why i am angry, WHY CANT YOU SEE?! its YOU, its always ever gonna be you. i love you with all that i am, you are my family, my world, my everything, youre all i have left in this life so imagine my disappointment when i hear on more than one occassion from the people in your life that i should watch out for you the most, that youre my greatest […]

5/1/2015 2 comments

by hellblau 4/28/2015

written by hellblau

Am I going to be able to be loved and love someday? Am I worth it? ????

4/28/2015 2 comments

not enough

by lonelygirl714 4/27/2015

written by lonelygirl714

I’ve always felt like a failure. Never good enough. I feel so empty inside. My mother always saw me as weak and my father, well I don’t know. I always wanted to make my family proud. I was raised to do better than my parents, but I’m not enough, just a failure….i have 3 beautiful daughters and it hurts my heart that I am even considering taking my life….it’s selfish, they need me and I need them, but I am not enough. People have hurt me, abused me, and have broken me..there is nothing left. All I ever wanted was to be loved, but as […]

4/27/2015 1 comment

It hurts.

by Angelus 4/14/2015

written by Angelus

i’ve always been alone. for as long as remember, i’ve been alone. After what seemed to be a lifetime, I had found someone who knew me as i wanted to be known. I found someone who…loved me as I wanted and needed to be loved. but now, she’s gone. I wake up in the middle of the night crying bitter tears. I cry till my heart gives out and I pass out. I’ve lost the only thing I’ve ever cared about. and it hurts in the deepest broken pieces of my heart.

4/14/2015 1 comment

Wanted: New family

by neverbeenhappy 3/30/2015

written by neverbeenhappy

I’m just a typical girl who wants to be loved by a family because I never have a chance to feel that on my own family. I’ve tried too much times to killed myself but still I’m alive. Still not happy and still nobody cares about my existance. You don’t need to have a broken family to feel like incomplete your whole life I, myself was as example of it. I might have both parents but they don’t care for me a little bit. I need to work on my own to have the things that I needed. How I wished to have some parents […]

3/30/2015 8 comments

I am just too tired of life

by FoolOnTheHill 2/16/2015

written by FoolOnTheHill

I really feel somewhat desperate to kill myself right now… but I know I won’t… Often times I think about hanging myself or electrocution. I never follow through though. Sometimes I want to be alone yet I crave to be understood and not be so god damn alone…. Idk I do have some friends but I have the most trouble reaching out to people. I honestly believe they wouldnt understand what I’m going through or what I’ve gone through……… I just hope I can keep going and living…. I’ve come to several conclusions to help myself but I never tried them. 1) help someone else […]

2/16/2015 1 comment

A loneliness that’s become hard to take.

by nias 2/13/2015

written by nias

No love is no life, loneliness is no life. I desperately need to be held, to be touched, to be loved; a body longing to be caressed.
The warm feeling of two people sharing that moment of passion, the beauty of love. How I wish that a woman would want me, could give me love.
It’s just a song, no woman will ever want me.
What’s the point of continuing if I’m to live my life on my own.
For I am alone, I am empty, I am nothing, and who’ll miss nothing?
Just a sad and lonely creature looking for its death.

2/13/2015 0 comment

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