Well today i got diagnosed with ptsd on top of my depression and anxiety.
This week has been really hard. I honestly just want to give up. My parents kicked me out today because im to “crazy” for them to handle. Which i guess i really am. Now i don’t know what to do there is no shelter any where around me and its winter. I just want this week to be over.
Happy Leap Day
Well, today is an oddball for sure. I think there’s even a leap second or something to go with the leap day, but I’m not 100% sure about that.
Anyway, speaking of leaping things, I wish I could leap. Over this fucking wall of depression. I’m sure many feel similar.
Fuck.
I didn’t sleep last night. It turns out, I spent the night writing. I don’t remember doing it. But I wrote a lot, and what I wrote somewhat makes sense, but I’m not so sure if it would to others. No one else seems to have my thinking pattern. At least, I think it’s mine. I’m not so sure. Basically, I’m confused as hell this morning. I’m shaking and ill, everything is blurring and I’m exhausted. I don’t know if I overdosed. I found chunks of hair in my bed. I remember ‘waking up’ (except i wasn’t. Sort of like waking up from a day […]
So I decided to take off my post of shouting, I said thing I shouldn’t have said. Sorry about it, was too aggressive.
But I am rescuing Rocketman’s list of Confucius sayings 🙂 for the posterity. Do enjoy it.
Thanks to Alan and to Rocketman for you support today.
the idea as you know is to make fun of a very wise man Confucius! hey when he started making all these sayings he must of known he would also be a target for silliness! you don’t have to read them all but here are a few.
Confucius Jokes That […]
This amused me:
http://www.theonion.com/article/report-getting-out-bed-morning-sharply-increases-r-52430
Sure, it’s satire, and somehow also unmistakably true.
Although I must admit, I’ve been stuck in bed since Tuesday night (the usual health issues), and things aren’t much better here either.
On the bright side, the health issues attacked at the same time as a load of winter weather crap, so I wouldn’t have been able to make it outside either way.
Enough about me.
How are the rest of you?
Did YOU make it out of bed today, and if so, did things get rapidly worse like the article said?
2 common phrases echoing in my head today.
“Get busy living or get busy dying”
“Don’t put off till tomorrow what you can do today”
Despite the fact that I’m unwell at the moment, I was somewhat productive today. I am ridiculously excited for Batman vs Superman, and so I decided to use art as a distraction today by spending a few hours on this (this is the first piece I’ve done and put effort into since Christmas, so my blending is iffy. Blah).
My camera quality is awful and the lighting made it difficult to get an okay photo of it, but oh well.
Was meant to go college today set my alarm but when it was time to get up I couldn’t get up iv had enough of this shit everyday waking up tired everyday no motivation I could easily sleep 12 hours I don’t even like college ok it gets me out the house and I’m almost done well I think I’m planning on another attempted once I finish college I don’t even no what to do with myself my life has fell apart I’m rock bottom I can’t live like this anymore
If ur bf\gf was in a pych ward would u call them n how many time a day? I called him today but the convo was not great told him i love him n miss him i feel like caling again
i constantly feel that i need to get approval of those around me before i go about my day. i need to make sure people accept me so i feel better. i found this beautiful article that i could relate to in so many ways. please take the time to read and share this article to become aware of the stereotypes in society and what role you play in creating them. i couldn’t be happier i stumbled upon this today. let it change your day too.
http://theodysseyonline.com/marywood/the-girl-with-the-pixy-cut
Well I’m going to go a different road today and say that I have a pretty positive outlook on life at the moment.
Today was a actually a pretty good day and I’m thankful for it cause they’re rare anymore.
Had a good aa meeting, had a meeting downtown for community service hours and I didn’t buy any drugs even tho I kinda had a plan to mabey look for something to take the edge off. Even took the money out, just didn’t ask anyone so that felt pretty good too.
Getting out of the house too was actually good I didn’t want to leave my room today […]
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I’ve felt terrible all day, I’m not sure I can wait until summer. I only smiled twice today and I started drinking diet pop because I’m not afraid of getting cancer from aspartame anymore. My parents keep getting angry at me because I’m being “morose”. I’m just so fed up with this world and I want out now.
Today it is very windy.
Strong winds give me panic attacks, and here’s why:
About 15 years ago a windstorm destroyed my home in the middle of the night. It ripped off the roof while I was in bed sleeping. I heard this horrible loud ripping sound, and I rolled over in bed, still in sleepy confusion.
Instead of my ceiling above me, I saw stars.
The wind had this constant ROAR, and it just wasn’t stopping.
I couldn’t turn on the lights, because the windstorm had knocked out the power earlier that evening.
So there I was, in total darkness, trapped in a windstorm, in a home with no roof.
I […]
Should be working out instead im going to get chicken wings. I wanted to try zumba today but food. I havent pigged out like i have this week in years.
I lost the few friends I had today because I’m such a jerk. I had another snow day today so me and my friends were playing Team Fortress 2 on a x10 server. I was using an overpowered weapon and one of my friends was getting really mad at me, and since I’m such s bad person I continued doing it because I thought it was funny. After a bit everyone left the server and joined another one. I joined the game, not knowing that they left to get away from me and I started being a douche again. Eventually everyone got fed up and […]
Hey Wiskered-fish how are things going with your meds and the extra energy discovery?
Hey ToTrees, I shouldn’t say this because you erased your post but: Hey that’s really bad, the headache thing. Hope you may sleep a little more maybe? Or would it be better a short walk?
You know what’s been killing me this last days? Freetime… I gave it all to get some freetime and it exploted on my face.
Maybe you can become an inventor (I am rambling here) and design a device to keep racoons away hahaha.
Enjoy your cofee
Hey Ylem I am crossing my fingers everything everything goes right with your […]
So, I had a great last day. I swam, I surfed, I fell off my board a few times, got smashed up the last time. Pic to prove it. I laid on the beach, I just got down with a long soak in the tub. I’m changed and I am about to go down soon for a very light last meal. I know I have to have a empty stomach in which to take “N”.
My last night is beginning….I’m waiting for […]
Absolutely beautiful out today. Time to hit those waves, I just couldn’t resist posting this.
Check out Google’s homepage for today.
I can understand the tissue box, but paper towel? What does the paper towel mean on Valentine’s day? I can only think of something inappropriate lol
