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Voices, death, life, what the hell is going on?

by YouAreStrong 2/15/2016

written by YouAreStrong

I’m never going to be the same, it’s still here in my head and it’s not going away. The voice in my head.

He’s me but not me, how do you describe yourself when you don’t even know who you are anymore. He knows me better than anyone else, better than my parents ever will, better than my “friends” ever will. I don’t think even she can save me anymore. It’s been too long.

I wanted to go to college, I wanted to go to university to study maths. Now I can’t hardly do a sum without thinking about her, or what I’ve done since, what I’m […]

2/15/2016 0 comment

Hope

by Dungeon 2/13/2016

written by Dungeon

I think I can do it, actually I know I can. I can accept my guilt, I don’t need to throw away my morals. It will hurt my family but that’s okay, they’ll know I’ll finally be at peace. I can end this, I will finish this. No more will I be a part of this circus. My dream will come true and I will finally get some sleep. I have hope that I can be free once and for all.

2/13/2016 3 comments

You

by Blackenedraven 2/11/2016

written by Blackenedraven

I want to be able to give you the stars to pick them from the dark empty misty sky as they shine for you but I fear you’ll only use them as stepping stones to get further away from me. the moon longs to be appreciated shining into your life but you only use it to light your way. the wind moves and whispers your name on a frosty deadly night yet you ignore it as you strive for your goal. though I could give you the world, my world. you only use it to get higher and higher. always wanting more. never taking in […]

2/11/2016 4 comments

Doesn’t make sense

by disgusting 2/8/2016

written by disgusting

I saw my friend again for the first time in forever (like 2 months!) which is the longest it’s gone without seeing him. And he says the same old thing, that it’s not all about looks to him but it clearly is, because no one is up to the very high standards he sets for girls. If she couldn’t be a supermodel or a hot stripper or porn star, or is too many additional 1lb increments over the 100 lb limit, then there’s not a chance in hell they could get with him. And that’s how he is whether he will admit it or not.

So anyway, he […]

2/8/2016 7 comments

Tonight

by No1important 2/7/2016

written by No1important

Tonight is the night. I told myself I’d wait a month… if I still desired closure by then, I’ll know I waited things out till I couldn’t anymore. I’m tired of hurting. I’m tired of being tired. I’m tired of getting lost in my suicidal thoughts and wishing one day they’d come true.

I’m finally letting go. I’ll finally be at peace. I’ll finally get to sleep through the night.

It’s quite empowering having what is needed floating around in my backpack, just waiting for the day it’s finally used.

I’ll give it till tonight to confirm my decision. I don’t know why I felt like posting here. […]

2/7/2016 12 comments

Can’t deal with myself

by Moneypenny 2/5/2016

written by Moneypenny

This last week I was trying to be positive and for a few days I even convinced myself I was geting somewhere, forcing things, denying I was going through the wrong way. But I can’t help hurting myself. I always end up doing it. I turn everything against me and then I crush myself with every drop of energy I have. I can’t deal with me, with the things I say, and the decisions I take. I even hurt myself writing here things I shouldn’t. and talking to people about how ridiculous I am, and I say it as a matter of a fact and […]

2/5/2016 4 comments

How my last three montha have been

by emma15 2/4/2016

written by emma15

last time i wrote here was on my 15th birthday, probably the worst birthday ever because no one showed up to the party. There was this nice guy i think, seesmith, who really inspired me with his words- he told me to be my true self even tho it’s a painful process. So that’s what i did. I took a step back. I didn’t talk to my “friends” for three months now and no one cares how i’m doing. The people i called friends doesn’t really care. I feel really lonely. I eat nothing and sleep all day so i can avoid the loneliness. My […]

2/4/2016 4 comments

No longer lonely on the surface

by simplicity35 2/1/2016

written by simplicity35

Things have changed ever so slightly. As I feel myself pulling back from all the friends that have supported me throughout high school, and losing touch even more with my true best friend, who lives long distance, things are getting better. I met a girl this year who has really changed me for the better, and is a true friend I can rely on and makes me happy for once and allows me to have fun. I just dont ever think I can get to that deep emotional level where I can share about my depression and anxiety with her. Its hard, and eats away […]

2/1/2016 3 comments

What is normal, anyhow?

by rivets 1/27/2016

written by rivets

I want to live in a world where I don’t have to talk, don’t have to explain, don’t have to figure out topics of conversation or be up-to-date on the latest bit of gossip at work or the latest media tidbit everybody’s talking about. I want to live in a world where I can do my own thing on my own time, for myself, and not worry about how strange it looks to any onlookers. I want to live in a world where professional sports, politics and religion don’t even have words to describe them. I want to live in a world where I don’t […]

1/27/2016 10 comments

How is this okay?

by God_Forsaken 1/26/2016

written by God_Forsaken

I broke up with my boyfriend of two years because I have been suffering from depression and suicidal thoughts for quite a few months now; I felt I was dragging him down. He made sure I was serious and agreed to break up (not that we haven’t before – we frequently took breaks, always went back to each other and never to other people). However, this time, I got a text from his best friend saying that he went back ti his ex… that our two year relationship was infatuation -not love. That she’s his true love. They dated for 3 months and then she […]

1/26/2016 4 comments

Love

by marz 1/25/2016

written by marz

You stopped the pain from carrying on

This is why I’m sitting here writing this song

You lied to me and ended it this way

Didn’t even have the guts to say it to my face

You’re just a coward a twit

All you do is is make my teeth grit

Fuck off back to your own life

I’ll just go back to my one true love the knife

1/25/2016 1 comment

So very true.

by Cordless 1/24/2016

written by Cordless

1/24/2016 4 comments

This. This is true.

by Cordless 1/21/2016

written by Cordless

1/21/2016 11 comments

I AM SORRY (AVISGONE)

by avisgone 1/21/2016

written by avisgone

I am sorry if you truly know me and you are reading this. If you know me, you might have known this would happen but within the next few days, I am planing to kill myself. Why? I can’t deal with whats going on in my head.

1/21/2016 8 comments

Up and down

by princeroxpa 1/19/2016

written by princeroxpa

I think some things are triggers. Sports for example. I used to love riding, and I still do, but trips to see my horses and traveling to shows have resulted in suicidal thoughts. I keep thinking about how I would do it. Some days, I don’t think I could stand by the train tracks and stop myself from jumping in front of the incoming train. There is only one thing that keeps me from doing this: my horses. I can’t stop imagining the look on Prince’s face when my parents tell him I’m not coming any more. He won’t get anymore cookies from me. He […]

1/19/2016 6 comments

Just putting my feelings out there..

by justanothergirl09 1/15/2016

written by justanothergirl09

It’s sad.

I feel sad.

These last 4 days (counting today) have been so tiring. I’ve been so emotionally drained it’s ridiculous.

And it’s all because of a guy.

A guy that doesn’t even know my name.

And the worst is, I don’t even think he wants to know.

I know his; I know what grade he’s in; what lunch rotations he has, yet he knows nothing about me.

What I’m questioning is why I can’t seem to let it all go.

I want to let it go but it feels like as if there’s nothing I’m holding on to.

I like him. I do. But he doesn’t feel the same way. I don’t […]

1/15/2016 2 comments

I know what to do but it’s still very hard.

by man08 1/15/2016

written by man08

I live with parents trying to support the, by both my money and my attention. But they not only do not appreciate it but also do bad things to me. I do this because I think it’s a good thing and because of my religious beliefs. But God also seems to not appreciate it.

I work every day and the cycle continues again and again. I dream of living like a pirate – of doing what he want whenever he want. I am 31 years old.

Also recently I meet a woman who sad that she loved me, but she only was with me because of money. […]

1/15/2016 4 comments

To, My so called family & friends

by Still wandering 1/15/2016

written by Still wandering

I love you all,
But you never cared at all.

Sometimes you all show your fake love,
I always hide my tears with smile.

Amnesiac me, remembers few things,
But you even forgot me.

I dreamed your dream coming true,
But you never ask what I like.

I was with you in your bad times,
You deserted me in my wrost.

I LOVED YOUR LIKENESS,
BUT YOU DIDN’T EVEN CARE FOR “MY LOVE”.

1/15/2016 6 comments

My heart is beating so fast

by Desheures 1/11/2016

written by Desheures

The thought of my mom finding out about my depression scares me. Why? Why does it scare me so much? I’m not sure.

This post is similar to my last one but I have to let it out anyway. I woke at around 4 PM today. My friends had planned to come pick me up at around 12PM so we would go spend time together before we all return to college. So when my alarm woke me up at 10 AM today, I texted them saying that I was so sick I couldn’t even get out of bed. That was true, I felt so tired.

It’s ironic how […]

1/11/2016 1 comment

Protected: A memory

by whiskered-fish 1/11/2016

written by whiskered-fish

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1/11/2016 2 comments

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