Why are we all feeling rubbish? Because the masses don’t consider ‘deep’ thinking issues, many around us don’t see the interconnectedness of us all, the importance of nature of a healthier way of living.
Why don’t we all work together to try to overcome some of these issues – we all have in common? Instead of feeling isolated and rubbish, can we not somehow become more empowered?
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Perhaps my life! Am I actually very pessimistic or is the world way too unrealistic? Somebody tell me please. I find these words like “hope”, “happy endings”, “it gets better” and “optimism” sweet and nice when I read books or watch movies. When it comes to real life I guess these are cliches over-hyped by people who have never been where most of us have been and even if they have, they have this natural ability to just get out of things happily. You can’t ignore real problems and circumstances. I have gone through a lot and I haven’t been any braver or stronger as […]
I’m really tired of running from this thing.
I feel like I’m constantly in motion.
I feel like I’m all alone and no one understands.
But I guess I’m not.
A lot of us here deal with this monster – DESPAIR
It seeks to devour us.
I wish I knew why it picked on us and leaves others untouched?
Did we do something to deserve it?
Is there really something wrong in our brains like the doctors say?
And if that’s true then why?
And why can’t they fix it like any other disease?
Why don’t the meds work?
I don’t think they have a clue.
They can’t cure it.
The best they can do is put out each […]
… pathetic what I hold myself up to. That meaningless standard that society holds true. It’s pretty funny how this fleshy substance known as our skin plays such a critical role in life. God, if you are there, you are a fucking idiot. What am I going to become in Heaven? A mindless drone doomed to worship your entity. Fuck you. I hate you God. You are non-existent, you are a fable that contorts the minds of the weak. You call me sacrilegious, and I thank you for that, I am self-aware. We will see who has the last laugh when the time comes. You […]
Have u ever looked around and seen people laughing, smiling, talking…. An ever thought why? Now, it’s an everyday occurrence for me. Why are they laughing. What could possibly be so funny that they laugh without a care in the world. Why motivates them to maintain that tiring position of a gin on your face. For me, I wear a mask. I don’t even know why I do. I smirk when I’m suppose to, don’t talk out of place, and listen quietly. Now I’m in my bathroom, tearing up, questioning my will to live and move on. Why are we even here. Why do we have to […]
The everlasting light; or the endless darkness. Sometimes even curiosity itself can become the tool to execute the will. All of the hope seems false and the last hope I would have is to die and see what lies beyond; even more pain and misery or the eventual satisfaction.
The very thinking that nothing lies beyond in itself is hopeless; as if we will not be able to find the justice even after death. But the justice is created to maintain the society; then, the very concept of justice is flawed. Why would we even willing to maintain the balance in the society when we are […]
wishful thinking gets us nowhere.
there’s nothing spectacular about tomorrow. Â just another really fucking heavy piece of shit i’m pulling with me everywhere i go. Â everyone has fucking flaps on their eyes, where do they get them, i wish i had them but then i guess i wont be able to see the little moments that make this worth while. is this worth it, i duno. WE’RE IN THE FUCKING MATRIX.
one thing i must admit, not sure if it makes me feel good or subtly not good, the fact that i’m not forced to wear long sleeves. because of these people with the eye flaps. still […]
3 friends including me so thats four. Us four are all cutters. we know what its like wee allnfucked up so we kinda just clicked. 3 girls one boy and theyre great. We dont pity each other we help each other.
If we could love ourselves, we would not need others to love us. Then it becomes irrelevant whether others love us or not. Fine if they love us. Fine if they don’t love us. But how do we get there? How do you and I get there? What is it that others see in themselves, in the world, that we can’t? At what angles do we need to tilt our heads? What does it mean to love ourselves? How does it feel to love ourselves? If taking care of ourselves is not love, then what is? At what point in the road does care turn […]
I thought we were best of friends, distances between us would never mean anything. We will stay connected forever; and at least pray for each other, as we are not gods to influence each others lives. But you betrayed my friendship only under the assumption that i have betrayed. We could have spoken, instead of just making assumptions. Humans communicate, they react. Only Machines don’t react.
And now, i fear that in my anger, you went too far away from me. You misunderstood my anger as well. Instead of directly confronting me, you shut me down; as if I never existed;
In a snap I become a […]
Alrighty, here goes nothing. I am trying to not cut, as per usual, and instead of cutting, I find inspirational stories on the web- pictures of healed scars, supportive tattoos etc. Unfortunately I ran into one of those memes that says something about cutters not cutting the right way and why don’t you use a lawn mower and only emo kids cut because they just want to fit in… WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU PEOPLE! Cutters cut because they are in so much fucking pain, or they are so numb or so hurt or so damn traumatized that the only way they can […]
Starving myself all day (I don’t have a natural appetite so it happens whether I want it to or not)
and then getting stoned at the end of the day and gorging on Mcdonalds and candy. I finished eating the other night and was laying in bed watching the absolute worst movie, Deep Blue Sea. I used to love it when I was a teen, but now that I’m older, the plot holes are a lot more apparent. Well anyway, I was watching this stinker, and I didn’t really want to be, but I was in such a state of zen and relaxation after eating so […]
I question myself everyday and wonder why I’m still here. I struggle with depression. Went from a really bad relationship to an even worst one. I feel lonely in this world and I can’t seem to find myself. At times I feel like I’m completely alone in this world. I feel betrayed by the ones I love the most. I question why is it that those people hurt us the most and don’t seem to care. I think I’m just going insane to the point were I want to commit suicide.
There are some things about life that I absolutely love.
There’s hope in my heart that things will get better.
But I know that’s just wishful thinking.
I’m ready to leave this place behind and see what’s waiting for us on the other side.
I’ve hurt so many people that were nothing but good to me, I know this will hurt them more but at least It will be the last time.
I’m scared but excited I don’t know if i’m strong enough to go through it all again.
I’ve over dosed and ended up in hospital twice.
Most recent was two days ago.
I’m […]
I’m different now, my heart beats for no one no emotion… I feel nothing but the annoyance of this world… I couldn’t die I was found with over two months of meds in my stomach they pumped them out… After a week they let me go of course I’m watched but… No one knows… The me that was hurt… The me that was weak, bullied, destroyed every way possible… Has returned the hunter… I don’t want my life for me… I want to take back what millions have lost… Millions commit suicide every year… I will take back the lives we lose… I don’t care […]
“And he sat all that day, and he kept the egg warm. And he sat all that night through a terrible storm…” (Horton Hatches the Egg by Dr. Seuss) bahaha. It gets me every time. How many have worn his same expression? Have had life run us instead of us running it? Although in the end Horton is rewarded for his faithfulness and integrity, truth be told many of us come to find that “Job” (Job 1-22 the Bible) is simply cursed and the sufferments were for naught. I read about Dr. Phils “Evil 8s” and it dawned on me this is myraid depressed person’s […]
Does nature or God take us when we’re finally ready to go. At the point when we’ve learned everything we’ve needed to learn for this lifetime or we’ve finished all of the projects that will have made our life impactful on the world. My grandfather died shortly after being placed in a nursing home after bemoaning the prospect his entire life and fighting feverishly against it towards the end. Right now I am going through a burst of anorexia (not to be confused with anorexia nervosa which is not eating because you fear putting on weight) which means that I have lost much of my […]
Even when I was on the brink of killing myself, when all I wanted to do was rip my skin apart and die, I never missed an assignment, or failed to sit through a two-hour-long lecture, even when I couldn’t breathe because of panic attacks. I never once missed a training session or a competition even though I could not stop coughing because of pneumonia. Even when I was burning at a high fever, I never even thought about my own health when I was staying up late to type an essay. I didn’t mind driving myself crazy wondering whether or not my essay was […]
Oh come on, you can tell me, I’m this random person on the internet who you’ll never meet right? Wrong. For all we know we’re bumping into each other regularly but we don’t know, why? Because this thing inside us all doesn’t have a face besides ours. We give it life, a body, and a soul to torture. I know I do. I’ve met people out there who I’d love to have a deep conversation with but the thing is that isn’t an option for a great majority of us. Most of us go floating through our lives until we bump into another, like abandoned […]
Hey folks, look to the sky, that bird floating above the clouds is the divine seagull. These graceful fliers may look unphased by the troubles of life, but wait until they touch down, and it’s a different story. When you see one on the ground they’ll usually be in tatters from having to fend off and procure food from their hostile and greedy friends. It could make anyone think they ended up that way from tumbling down in a near deadly crash. Alas, life in the dirt is rough, we get up, we fight, we stay up, we fight, every once in a while we […]