I’ve became so attach to online dating. I’ve met so many guys who I thought could be the perfect guy. The first guy I met was cool and fun to talk to. He’s name is Jon. We talked on the phone for almost a month. When we decided to hang out, he suggested to go to a hotel. So I agreed. I have a great night, but after few weeks passed by, I heard nothing from him. I send him a text saying all these things that I lost him as a friend. Few months later I met a guy on COD: Ghost. He live […]
I’m 23/female – Born with the name “jamie-ann”
I catch myself in these dazes often now,
I think about how I want to Kill myself,
how much will it hurt? who would really feel “loss”
I run from all my problems instead of talking to others about them
because why let them inside right?
I left my husband because I could no longer find the joy in seeing him
walk through the door after work, this illness is destroying my life
and quiet frankly i’m not even sure if it’s a life anymore.
this is day 5 of being in bed, i’m pretty sure I was fired from my […]
The feeling when youre holding a razor in your hand, tears pouring down your face and youre just staring at it… so close to relief, so close to that feeling you used to rely on. My arms are starting to tingle again burn and ache wanting to feel the slice of the blade and see the blood first pool then trickle down my arm. but he texted me… as if he felt the need to contact me. maybe it was a coincidence. maybe ill still cut tonight. god i really wantto cut but if he were here with me i would settle for his sweet […]
I’ve been depressed since i was 4…why so young? it started when i realised, what losing someone and getting bullied was. I was bullied when i was 4…is that even okay?…I’m 13 now and you know what, im worse than i was before, im suicidal. AT THIRTEEN…Because ive been bullied most of my life…ive been beaten, and used by so many people…And ever since April…ive been planning my suicide, Because someone pushed me to the edge, they used me to feel good about themselves…Im planning to finally […]
A scamming thief conned me out of $28000 in loans which have never been paid back and now I’m so broke, I can’t even pay for utilities or food. Then last week he even went and robbed my house of every single item of value, plus many, many items that are so sentimental and irreplaceable. This on top of the fact that I was barely surviving to begin with. He took away whatever fight that I had left to live. I’m done. I’m so stupid. He played on my sense of empathy and compassion and used, lied and scammed me until there was nothing left […]
It is amazing that the ones who need the most help are the ones who are overlooked or ignored. We are the ones who have mastered the art of lying, stealing, cheating and faking. These arts are not used to rise above our position in society, but they are used just to survive on this earth.
Its funny how those who are ‘successful’ are always caught lying, cheating and stealing. I suppose one could say that if you really wanted to be successful, you should learn those arts from us. But then, that would mean someone would have to pay attention to us. They would have […]
I am so very lonely..and tired. I lost the love of my life seven years ago….we had been married for nine years. He died suddenly of a heart attack and I was the one who found him dead. I can’t explain how much I loved this man and how him dying at 39 yrs old almost killed me too. I had been disabled a few years before he died, I have spinal and brain tumors, and the surgeries not only disabled me, but caused me so much pain in the aftermath, that I lost my job as a trauma nurse because […]
Okay so, I’m here to tell people how horrible my life is and what it feels like to be living in hell.
*WARNING I MIGHT USE SWEAR WORDS
Now let us get to the main point, I’m a middle schooler. (I’m not telling any other info about me)
I’ll put the conclusions first.
I WANT TO DIE.
We got that out of the way now, let’s get to the main main point.
It probably started like 5 years ago? Maybe 3.
I don’t clearly remember what happend and what started it but it did. My mom has mental problems.
She thinks that she’s being “stalked” and her phone/computer being […]
It all begins with a scream, the scream of an innocent kid who was born in this life of sin .. that kid is me ” Ahmed Mansy”
and this is my story *well it’s not the whole story, i’m kinda bad in english so it’s a summary* , the story of my suicidal trip who was filled with good and bad days.
I grew up in my grandpa house because my parents got divorced when i was like 7 or 8 years i didn’t care or i didn’t know what’s happening i was just a little kid and everything was just too pure and lovely […]
I was really hoping to just slip away in my sleep last night but, like most things in my life, im just not that lucky. It used to be nights were the toughest for me. For some reason now, its mornings. I hate waking up with no one around. I hate the fact that I cant see my girls faces before leaving for work. They are always the first thing on my mind. I wake up in tears missing them. Why cant I just escape.
Yet another day that I woke up alone. No missed texts or calls from anyone. No one to talk to except my personal demons telling me your not worthy of experiencing this day. Just the same mundane routine that plagues me every day. Wake up exhausted because I cant sleep well anymore. Its 6 am. I hit snooze hoping an extra 5 minutes will make me feel a little better yet I never seem to be able to take that extra 5 minutes. Its like a tease.
Stand in the shower looking at the cuts on my arm and crying wishing I could smell her cooking breakfast again and […]
There’s no easier way to sum it up than just simply: I hate who I am and what I’ve made of my life.
At 24 I am a nothing. I didn’t used to be this way.
A [usually in denial] alcoholic, I’ve become alienated from many close friends who I just feel ashamed to be around. I do nothing but ruin nights out and become a burden on everyone. I’ve tried so hard to stop, but it always comes undone. I’ve hit rock bottom so many times, you’d think I’d learn by now, but it still feels like every time will turn out differently and I’ll be better.
An […]
I love this girl and we recently got together and she loved me as much as I loved her, but a week ago she tells me to go to here house. Alone, So I did and she told me that she wanted a “Open Relationship” where she can go explore the world but still have me in her life.. It makes me feel kind of used but I don’t know I want to keep it the same, she still kisses me and stuff… but she told me the other day that she liked this guy…. and I almost lost it, like 2 days after we, […]
The above video uploaded by “Information Overload” portrays a 13 year old female who tags each member of the boy-band One Direction in a Twitter post, threatening to break her dog’s neck if they do not follow her. The pictures used on the account of this girl were used weeks before in another similar post. This “prank” is becoming a trend, apparently. Pictures of cats in blenders, children bound by masking tape, and a dog held at gunpoint. Maybe it’s just me, but this is not a funny joke. Comments? I can have very harsh, very sadistic humor at times, but I have never attempted or staged any […]
I have my house and my garden,but i crumble knowing that i have been a cheater.i cant get over it,ooo its so dam bad.i have been smoking an drink for years,wy am i still here?
i have always like my life but i have cheated for many year
a frend of mine i used to work with,he treat me like shit but the others so well
i am living knowing that i have cheated.i try to be a good man.i treat my kids well.they are adults most of them
pleas can i go back to nature whit the birds and animals?
I tink i belong there
it is lovly
I have no idea why I feel so down all the time, why? My mum used to say when I was upset it was my age between 12 and 16 now I am 18 and I can’t seem to get out of this constant feeling of depression. I have attempted suicide in silly ways that didn’t even come close to working.. Then I for a while used to cut myself but in all honesty I think that was just a cry for help hoping somebody would notice as I was to scared to open up about my feelings to anyone. From when I turned 16 […]
Ever had someone laugh in your face for trusting them? I never trust myself or my own judgement because my head is so fucked. Someone convinced me to give them a chance and that I was being irrational which is normally the case. Well tonight they literally laughed because I trusted their intentions and settled for less. I feel so stupid and so used and I am just trying to survive when I would rather be dead. I have prayed for death for so long and tried to kill myself several times. Why do I set myself up for heartbreak. I am not important to […]
Problems from both inside and outside are drowning me in an ocean of sorrow…I thought I managed to overcome the drug addiction,but this morning I just couldn’t keep my feelings inside without a little ”outside help”,so I started it again…Taking lots of prescription medication with alcohol in order to achieve that disgusting high feeling and then finally black out,only to wake up in my own puke hours later…
If only I could keep my promise to her that I will keep away from doing this ever again…but if I think about it better,she betrayed me…She just used me to get over her own problems,and then dumped […]
Since my relationship crumbled a few weeks ago, I have had this sinking feelingp in the pit of my stomach. I would wake up with it. It’d be with me until I went to bed at night. The only time i could ignore it was at work.
Sometimes, I’d wake up in the morning and cry myself into a vomit session. Worst part about that is not having ingested anything but weed and alcohol for the past 23hours. I’d rather drink than eat. Eating is so hard now but it used to be my favorite thing. Now nothing has taste. I went to bed last night […]