I’m nervous about leaving my stuff behind. Im nervous of getting caught. I’m nervous of having to jump coz all trains are built the same. I’ve never been so nervous. I just want the suffering over with.
want
I am tired. Have not slept much in days or weeks or months. Seems like i keep reinjuring shoulder/neck injury from last accident where they hit my car. I am just tired of it all, the memory loss, thr cognitive and iq drop, the injuries, constant nightmares and not sleeping. I just want it all to end. I cant get medical, dental, or psych help here, for psych they don,t preform any tests written or physical so i dont know where i stand withe cognitive function loss and iq loss. Dont know whats going on […]
I’ve always had depression but I’ve never had the heart to tell my family. Some friends know, the ones I can really trust, but for the most part it’s all a secret. Anyway, there’s one ‘friend’ who I thought I could trust. I told her about my gender identity and sexuality the other day in confidence and she didn’t support it. I ended up having an argument with her and she ended it by using my depression against me. She said she could make me self harm and starve myself and even kill myself. She didn’t have to say anything else. I think she might […]
anyone want to have a converstion? we can talk about anything
I need new people with a fresh perspective in my life specifically to do with transgender issues. I’m so headfucked over this obviously it’s almost driving me to suicide once again. I’m in a dead end in Victoria with nothing but despair and self hatred. No money (which is fine), no friends (cool), no dreams (the kicker). All my dreams died with my old self dying. I don’t want anything anymore. I don’t care about anything anymore. The only person I care about I have intense love hate cycles towards and she knows this. So every little thing she does triggers rage attacks.
I want to […]
I used to believe in God but I sat down and really thought about it and the concept of heaven and hell just seem too fairy tale-ish to me. But does anyone know the point of life? What is the reason for us being here? It seems like it’s money for a lot of people. And that’s why I want to go. Whether or not God stated it,”The love of money is the root of all evil” is definitely the truth. I see it in on my family’s faces. In the news. On the streets. The desire of money is completely taking the humanity out of […]
I made my first post yesterday, which really helped me, I feel. I was afraid everyone was going to tell me I was stupid and didn’t belong here, but that’s not what I heard. It was kind of nice, talking to people who care, even if they are strangers. Every other time I tried to talk to someone I knew I received a reaction and response that made me want to kill myself even sooner. People here actually took the time to read and even respond to me.
I don’t care if you read my post or not, but you must have read someone’s post here. […]
Pro’s:
My life is empty, pointless and meaningless.
I don’t have any omph/ passion for life.
I do the same thing everyday. Get up do nothing. Go to bed.
Just waiting for time to pass day by day.
I’m basically the walking dead.
All I ever do is sleep all day.
I have no job because I’m a lazy fuck.
I have no friends cause I’m a lazy fuck.
I don’t think it’s going to get better.
I’ve been like this for as long as I can remember.
Con’s:
I don’t want to go to hell (if there is one).
I have my family to think […]
Tomorrow, my boyfriend leaves for college. I don’t know if I can handle it. I figured out how to beat depression by myself just so I could date him. If it wasn’t for him, I would definitely be dead right now. But, I don’t know if I’m strong enough to handle him not being here. I don’t want to relapse, it’s been 9 months. I feel pathetic, feeling like I could fall apart over a boy. I feel pathetic, feeling like I could fall apart over a boy who’s only moving 45 minutes away.
I listened to one song. One song is all it took for me to feel triggered again. On august 6th I overdosed, got out of the hospital on the 9th. That should’ve scared me out of feeling like this, but it didn’t. I still feel like this. I just want to be happy again.
When I die, I don’t want anyone to cry at my funeral cause I was the one crying when you weren’t dead.
– Angela parker
I don’t want to feel ANYTHING anymore
JUST MAKE IT FUCKING STOP.. PLEASE MAKE IT STOP
anyone want to talk?
I just want to end it now and don’t know the best way. I want something that would be painless and I’d just fall asleep and never wake up.
Then I think of my daughter. She’s 23 and has a wonderful boyfriend. They are both working on their futures and doing as well as they can. Both working hard towards it.
I don’t want to hurt her more than anyone in my life. But at the same time I just feel worthless and don’t want to be around anymore
you know, i envy people with cancer. Listen i understand its terrible, and what im saying sounds ridiculous. But for the people on this page just imagine for a second. I hate myself, i hate everyone and im pretty sure everyone hates me. I’m so angry, so depressed, so stressed, so sick of everything. If i had cancer, that saves me having to commit suicide. Having to to find a gun, so the suicide is painless as possible. If i had cancer, I could sit, play video games, read books, watch soccer, football basketball without a fuck to give. Cause i know my life is […]
so lost.tired.broken. nothing to describe how im feeling really. i want to sleep forever it seems like my whole future has gone out the window. so tired and restless but i have to figure ths shit out i might be over dramatic but oh well. ig i cant say that or id be a hypocrite haha..
When all that you feel
Is sorrow
Empty
Unloved
And lonely
When colours all bleed
And everything
Dims
Greys
And fades
When your heart
Is beating
Once
More
And aches
What is the reason
To continue?
Can you die
From a shattered, broken soul?
I want to sleep – I want to cease
I never want to wake up again
Please, please – I should not be here
About two months ago my girlfriend broke up with me, we ended on good terms well in her eyes.. I was destroyed, I thought she was cheating on me because 4 days before she did it she went to hang out with her friend who had a huge crush on her, of what I wasn’t to happy, mainly because it was only going to be them.. She then never said good night or anything she would just disappear, anyway, one of the last things she promised me is that she would never get back with my best friend because he treated her like shit, when […]
Everything has been a downward’s spiral. I don’t really want to do anything anymore, I’m too sad. I don’t want to go to work, I don’t want to pack my things for going back to school next week, I don’t want to leave my hometown, but I don’t want to stay. It’s like I need to get away from here because I’m more hurt than not over recent events, but I don’t have anything waiting for me at school either. Unless you count my ex who probably won’t want me back anyway because I gained weight this summer. Nothing to look forward to, nothing to […]