Hahaa the night’s upon me it’s only 8pm here so i have a while o finalize my decision, once again… If i do not post november 1st, I am dead. I just wish I had more time… But I don’t this was my date, while all the other 16 yr olds are out getting drunk, [...]

I’m so confused about what I want.  I’m a 23 year old female and yet I have these strange, conflicting cravings about sex. My boyfriend utterly destroyed my sanity when he left about eight months ago, a grand feat as I was the most stable, sane and normal person I knew. I knew myself so [...]

one of the few rhymes that I’ve wrritten that I think you SPers might enjoy   what would i be doing if i weren’t getting high? i’d probably be dead, depression is so sly think about it, an assassin in your mind he creeps all about as he wants and divines new ways to inflict [...]

i dont know what i feel anymore. theres pain because i still cry at times, but a lot of the time im just too tired to feel. im starting to think that feeling tired will eventually take over all other feelings, and i dont know what will happen then. ive been thinking about suicide for [...]

I don’t have anything to offer the world so in my mind, I can’t have a woman. I’m consciously throwing my life away because of my philosophical principles. It’s like.. I’ve already started down this road of self destruction. I can’t take it all back and try again. I mean, I could but I don’t [...]

Without a mirror I still see your reflections Deep inside my heart are dangerous infections I drink my self made cyanide acid While igneous rocks are being thrown at her Does she know i am her? Does he know he is him? In this coffin I lay down to sleep I invite you and your [...]

There eventually comes a time when you can see with absolute clarity that you’ll never have the life you wanted. How can anyone have the heart to ask you to keep on living with that knowledge.

Every night I only wish to die. I’ve witnessed much of lifes disgusting corruption and how fate plays its game in twisted manners. I want to die because I dont know who I am anymore. I want to die because thats the only place I see comfort in. I only ask for death, nothing more. [...]

So i actually wrote a suicide note and drove to the middle of nowhere but i didn’t go through with it. i love my children too much to leave them alone in this horrible world so maybe after I’ve raised them i can finally bring myself to end all of my suffering. or maybe not [...]

Why do we see suicide as so bad and so awful. I personally believe that it’s one of the most beautiful acts of self love that exists on this planet. We applaud those that risk their lives for others, people who stand in front of a bullet for a loved one or people that put [...]