Why doesn’t anyone want to talk on here, I need to open up but no one want’s to listen
April 2011
A year ago I had to quit the university because of social anxiety and in November I got in to therapy. I’ve responded badly to the cognitive therapy. For the past three months I’ve been really depressed. I’ve been on and off suicidal for the same period. My thoughts are a mess and I can’t function in my daily life. Now my therapist wants me to take medication for the depression, but i don’t want to. I think she will force me to take them. I just want to die. I’ve wanted to die for the past 10 years. I’m really angry with myself for […]
Yeah, I know what love is. I also know what hate is. I know that I seem like a fool for believing Trust No One works, but for me it’s all I’ve had. Now, I think it’s why I’m feeling suicidal. Maybe I’m the one who was wrong and I should stick around, but I’m not quite sure how I should. It hurts to stay, hurts to try to leave. I’m tired of disappearing. Maybe I should take the advice everyone here gives me. It hurts though. It hurts so badly. I don’t know how to stick around without hurting people. I want to stay […]
Ive post here before, and told everyone that Im gonna try dying by means of starvation, and just like everybody said.. It did not work out..
I really want to die badly right now.. I hate my shitty life, I hate everything!
Im not an outcast or whatsoever and I’m pretty cute and I’m Asian. But Im just so tired and sooo sick of my everyday life. I’m so tired of seeing those sluts flirting with their boyfriend and stuff.. I’m tired seeing everyone pretending..
Argh! I want to dieee! Even my tv is telling me to commit suicide! I turn on the tv and […]
Hi,I’m a guy and I been very depressed lately. It started back in late Febuary and has not stopped and not it is April. At first I thought it was just a phase I was going through, but it’s clearly not. I don’t know what to do? I feel like I become so isolated with everyone that mean a lot to me, like I use to talk to this one girl a lot and I’m going to admit, she was the only girl I would feel comfortable talking with. But I think I been “replaced” as friends when this new kid came to our school. I’m in high school so […]
My every attempt is cursed to
fail, same as my life has gone
down the gutters for who
would stop and and see who longs
for death? Who would realize
that the pain is too much to bear,
when all that can be heard are lies?
Who in their right minds would dare
to care? Certainly not the monster in
my heart filling my essence and soul
with pain and death. Why is it such a sin
to want to die? To want to listen to the call
of the demons in our hearts? Is this why
we all crave death? Because we’ve been
pushed away from it? They begin to cry
as they see it’s too late, they had […]
I don’t know if I feel better or not. School, I’m failing most, if not all, of my classes, but I’m happy that I finally have a girlfriend. Except I am preoccupied by the fact she’s kinda chubby. But I still love her. Lizzie, she’s still cute, but sometimes I want someone hotter, but I’m human, I think? So, my depression is almost gone, comes very rarely, but all I want to do is go with my cousin jasmine, because she has a bf now, Im worried because the idiot thinks losing your virginity with someone means you love them. He’s a guy, I’m a […]
Suicide is by all means illogical and irrational, really. If you think hard enough, you can never think yourself into suicide.
But I understand why people still do it anyway. Plainly because life is eventually illogical too. We cannot expect logic to work all the time, I observe.
If you’re interested, list down in the comments (be clear and succinct) the case for suicide. Just one line explaining the reason behind taking your life.
(And to level the playing field, I am a suicide-prone person too.)
I really want to see this movie but I can’t find it anywhere. It was released in 2010 in select theaters and was hoping that it was posted on YouTube already but it isn’t. If anyone can find it and let me know!
Here’s the link to the movies website. Click on video to watch the trailer. I soo wanna see this. This movie looks like it’s directed towards suicidal people who want or have partners. Let me know your guys comments on this.
http://www.suicidedollsthemovie.com/index-main.shtml
I can’t trust anybody.
me and my friend were trying to get weed, some guy called Ollie says he could get us it. pfft, he told my brother (:
guess I’ll have to go back to paracetamol over doses to sleep. thanks Ollie, for fucking the one good thing I had up.
I understand that compared to other pople my story doesn’t compare to how bad some people have it, but people find different things harder than other people mayfind it. I’m not as strong as some of you. You’re all so brave compared to me, i’m weak and i know that, if i wasn’t i wouldn’t want to kill myself its just there’s one thing stopping me my mum. he’d be destroyed if i did it but i should do what makes me happy right?
I mess up everything
I can’t even get my own death right
everything is going under, faster and deeper with no way to stop it
even my parents don’t love me, what kind of person’s parents don’t love them
mine
my fault, my life, my choice
except I have no choices left, no decisions to make
I love you all so much
You are like a family to me
One day we will all die
No matter if we take ours or if life takes us
One day, I hope we will all unite as a family…on the other side!
It’s close…
I can feel it coming
sweet release – it’s near
Oh how I wish you would join me
We can leave this dirty place behind
Oh friend, I see you suffering here
And I can’t watch you like this any longer
We all have a choice to make
Noone has the right to blame us
Oh how I wish you would join me
and take my hand on this lift
I know I can’t find love in this world
I’ll be patiently waiting for you there…
You certainly don’t deserve this pain
And now I find myself void of purpose and reason
I go in peace
I have seen places there of unimaginable beauty…
Oh friend, this world divides us
Would […]
i just had a fight with my family.. they didnt care much to me now.. so i guess its my time now.. goodbye everyone. thanks for some people here who helped me..
After reading some of the posts and comments here, I realize that this is probably the darkest, most depressing online community I’ve ever encountered. For the most part, the same small group of people post and comment pretty much every day, even several times. It got me thinking – this suicide thing becomes an identity after a while.
It’s like any other habit you identify yourself with. “Yeah, she’s that girl who only wears blue or green”. “You know, that guy? The one who always quotes Star Wars?” Excuse the gender stereotypes, but I can’t think of better examples. After several nights of thinking about giving […]
Rattling within my mind
the inescapable passion of a distant life
Lightly brushed upon
sweetly tears away the unforgotten layers.
Fresh scent of clever insight
ignored by conscious action.
Welcomed heavy taboos
distill the purpose of surviving efforts.
Why does it seem like just me…? i feel like i’m backed so far into this corner that i have nothing left but this… Everyone says it’ll get easier. They’ve been telling me that since the 6th grade.. It’s not any better now in high school.. They laugh and i think it’s at me. They say i’m pretty, but then talk about me as soon as i turn around. Bullied? no. not bullied. alone? yes.. very much so… The ‘rents? oh, they’re much worse…beaten+verbal abuse+bullied=? suicide? i can’t i can’t…he pulls me back from this deep deep depression and into reality… he makes the world […]
No. I want to say no to Death but it’s not possible. I want to bleed, forever. I want to… I will…
I’ve always failed my “friends” and they always say I haven’t and then they walk away.
everyone is too scared to understand even if it costs the life of their “dear friend” I Love them but they aren’t enough. everyone here is dying. the only ones who could ever Love me back will soon be dead…Just like me.
 Justathought I can’t watch you slowly die. My arm burns every time you say that yours does. I don’t know why it’s just you and nobody else, but […]
Setting sun
hollowed blithe reign!
Distant horizon
exploding cavernous ache!
Lively motions
mildewed with despair!
Enlightening exhibition
yet, the world is minuscule.