Have any of you guys ever moved countries?
Like full country moving not within the same country?
I have 4 times in my life (If anybody wishes to know it’s Germany [Born there] Scotland Australia Canada and Switzerland [current]) already and am only 14 years of age.
The sad thing happens to be the fact  whenever I’m in any of the schools I have this wierd stroke of the first year always being the one I fight for.
I have the tendency of straightening my hair and putting it in front of my left eye. This of course sparked the typical response of “Hey look […]
August 2011
I feel like a black girl traped in a white girls body. I talk to alot of black people and i have always felt like i should have been black. I know this sounds weird and odd but sometimes i think thats why partly im unhappy with life because i feel like i was born in the wrong body.
Do you ever get that feeling like everyone hates you and all their doing is backstabbing you, but you have no choice but to stick around because you’ve got no one else?
Most days I want to die. Of course. Seems to be a common thread amongst this forum. I feel every day, I’m in another world. Not alone. It takes the word alone to a completely unrelated definition. No matter how hard I clutch myself, no matter how feverishly I cling to my significant other, I’m only alone, spiraling into an incohesive atmosphere of pain, desperation and fear. The only scary part is the simple, sobering fact that I can no longer close my eyes for escape. Sleep is quite underrated.
Have you ever hated yourself so much you just want to put a gun to your head?
When someone is talking or trying to stop you that you feel the hurt feeling not from hurting everyone you just feeling really hurt emotionally not phsyically?
Although you just dont want to drop the gun you get closer and closer from pulling the trigger.
Listening to people’s problems but you just dont really care. You don’t care at all so much you just want to get up and leave?
When was the first time you listen to mine problems? Was it when i was about to talk […]
I can’t breath right now… I’m getting the pills and I’m taking every last one of them. I know I’ll wake up tomorrow but I want to make every last bit of my time as miserable as possible. I can’t do this.. I CANT. I can’t…
Fuck…
phsychoses paranoid dillusional suicidal. its a good mix like magic dust with relaxers. distroeyd me. scdal.HELL OCCUPANT.
have you ever loved someone so much that you cry for them ever night? that you would die for them? that you still love them even though they’re emotionally torturing you? that they make you want to commit suicide, but you still love them anyway and you have no clue why? well thats me pretty much. and dont tell me I shouldn’t love him because he’s hurting me mentally, because I love him beyond the depths of the earth, that barely explains my love for him, I wish he knew what he’s doing to me.:(
OH and does anyone know how to take away emotional pain […]
Wow, this is really long. If you are looking for help or advice or just some things to think about, read the last paragraph or 2. Most of this is my life story, enjoy.
I’m Ben. I’m 17 years old, and I live in Dayton, Ohio. Well, where do I start? I was born in Dayton in one of the worst hospitals in the state. When I was a baby, we lived in a terrible neighborhood on the southeast side of Dayton. My older brother, Matt has has high-functioning Autism. All my life he has been my best-friend. You couldn’t split us apart. He was the […]
fuck man.!!……a dated meh fr 4 mnths..:(.!! he broked up with me..bt he said me he still love me……even i did ..rather DO.!……he nw abuses meh.:(>.! whole schul says i am one of the best girls..>bt he..????????? don gt him..!……..every1 says his entetion were just 2 kiss meh..:(.! i am just 13.! bt i tried 2 kill my self 4 tymes…nt just only fr him bt more bad reasons…..i don get nw wat 2 du..??…i have seperated my self frm my family coz of my duings….dey don trust me snymore..:(….i am alone…it hurts alot!………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………me living bt still dying……………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………..wats de need me suiciding..:(
You can ignore me all you want. But when you and your boyfriend break up I won’t be here anymore. Go find some fucking new friends because I have HAD IT with you.
So I got help yesterday. I told my doctor about one
Recent suicide attempt. I LIED. I refused to tell her
about the other 10 times I had tried and didn’t mention
anorexia or my panic attacks.
My friend said if I fucked up my life while she was in Italy,she would never forgive me. She is coming back in 12 days and I’m still a suicidal freak. What to do?!?!?
I know what you might say-she’s not a real friend if she doesn’t stick by me? But it’s not like that. I’ve been this suicidal girl for about 8 months now And it gets tiring […]
I’m sick of this short-term bullshit.
I want to fall in love with an amazing guy.
I want to be able to say that I didn’t run away from him because I got scared of caring too much.
I want to be able to joke around and be my nerdy self with him.
I want to be able to feel somewhat careless around him because I know he’ll love me no matter what.
I’m done with these clingy little flings.
All they’re doing is pissing me off, though it’s mainly my fault they’ve failed.
Hopefully I’ll be better with it all by the time I can say I’ve truly fallen in love.
Here’s […]
Does anyone want to end their live but just does not want to hurt the ones around them? I tried to commit suicide 5 years ago at the age of 17. I was really depressed and just wanted out. Needless to say it did not take and I am still here.
My brother died 3 years ago accidentally and I saw my family devastated by it. I don’t think I could put them through that with a suicide. But I would love nothing more than to die. I know there is something wrong with me psychologically, but I […]
Can you make the sadness go away? How can i take every day and turn it into something beautiful? i find sometimes that it’s not really where you are or what situation you are in but more so the kind of eyes you have and are using to view the situation, I feel the pain of everyone but also i see something beautiful within EVERYONE i meet no matter how terrible they may seem or think themselves to be, I know i’m completely crazy and that one day i will write the Final note to the ones i love, but i just wanna vent sometimes […]
i am absolutely fed up with my family. I feel like screaming and crying. I want to pound my fists on something. I wish i knew where my box knife was. I would put myself in the hospital right now. I dont have enough meds. My knife is missing and the whole world is against me. The man i love is MIA. I dint know what to do. I just want to completely give up. Just thinking about it makes my head spin and now im getting a headache. The last time i cut i was so pissed off and irrate i didnt feel it. […]
First time: February 2. It was after my therapy session.
I felt like nothing was getting better, I was just getting
more and more depressed. I felt that life no longer had a
meaning so I went to the station and I sat on the platform
for 2 hours just waiting for the courage to jump in front
of a train. I sat there crying and just praying that I
could just jump. But I couldn’t, I was thinking about my
parents and how unfair it would be, for them to lose their
only daughter. So I walked home, proud and so disappointed
at the same time. My heart won this […]
As I just sit here and dawn on what I have been going threw I could go on for years it is literally the worst I went from having everything I wanted to nothing! My gamut use to be so close I felt like my mom nd stepdad slowly deteriorated that. My real dad died before I was born I feel like my siblings bound together closer because they seen him and I haven’t! Yes I was looking at my step dad as my real dad but hey that was the only dad I knew. My mom is evil all she does is scream and […]
I’m having a lot of trouble lately. I thought I was doing better, things really seemed to be looking up for the past month or so. But the last week it’s just been getting worse and worse. I can’t be with myself anymore without wanting to disappear. It’s like I get 10 minutes alone and then all of a sudden all of the thoughts and feelings come rushing back in and it feels like I can’t breathe. Any longer and I start to realize that nothing will ever go back to the way it used to be, the way it should be. Why can’t I […]
I’m alone. I’m alone all of the time. I just want to see someone. I just want to talk to someone. I just want to hold someone. But I have no-one. I am alone.
This feeling, it fills me up every second of every minute of every hour of every day. This feeling is loneliness. I’m in a place that has no doors. I am stuck.
I just want to end this pain. I’ve spent to long hoping it will get better. It doesn’t. Even when I think it does. I soon realise it doesn’t.
There are no more plans. The alphabet of plans has come to an […]