so after so long of not being able to see you i went up there. I knew i was most likely wasting my time, but when i got there this very nice nurse took pity in me, she said she would let me see you because of ezra. she led me to that little room where you all sit and watch tv, or play games. I probably should have figured it out by the was that girl kept looking at me…. the  same look i gave the vet when i was 9, right before they took my kitty away for the last time. we talked […]
August 2012
The way I see it us if they are always on your mind mabey they should be there that if it us meant to be then love will find away. i am sick and tired of begging for you i am sick of doing everything that wrks for you no breaks no drama no bull shit just give me a strait up answer do you want to be with me or not. Oh the things i have done for you i am sad and depressed any ideas of how i can end my life quick and easy? Sometimes letting go is the best bet
I hate stupid teachers who try to take advantage of me…
they lie to me and then expect me to be okay……
just because I am “beautiful” , they think I am a perfect target…
he said he was gonna help but all he did was make it worse
is what I’m trying to escape
http://everything2.com/title/Working+9+to+5%253A+The+modern+slavery
call me a lazy fuck, but I’d rather be dead than whore myself out to survive in a world I don’t even like
I’m sick of being told it’s normal or honorable to be stolen too much of your time
sick of being molded into living as a robot .. sick of this lifestyle where the cons outweigh the pros
My life won’t change so I must say goodbye to everything.
I felt this desperation many times before.I’m just waiting to calm down a little,like I always do.
Hello this just quick about me thing
Im 12 years old
Red hair
45k
Mid height
Ugly
Useless
I really need your help to help me get through what Im about to share with you guys thanks xx Sophie
there will always be the situation you cant find the words for. the emotion you cant express. the questions that do not have the answer. things will be left unsaid, when theres so much more to say and it will never feel finished.
there are more questoins then answers in the world.-this doesnt have to be a bad thing.
People say you feel better if you tell someone about you ‘problems’.
After posting on here for the first time and seeing the couple supportful replies, that felt good and stuff…
The beginning of this story would be that The devil is back again and she hurt me this morning, as so arrived at school, I made the mistake of letting a f ew tears drop, there were just too many to hold. My friends,I’m gonna use their first letters of their names, J came over and started doing the whole comforting thing, asking me what was wrong I knew she didn’t know what was actually […]
This is suppose to be over 30 days, but I’ll probably forget about it if I do that, so I’ll do it all now. To be honest, I don’t cut anymore, but I still thought it would be useful to do.
1. How long have you been self harming? Discuss why you started.
On and off for around three years. The first time I started when my brother tried to commit suicide and all the stress from that.
2. What part of your body is most affected by it?
Legs, breasts, back, you know, all the places that are easy to hide the scars
3. What […]
well im bored as fuck. have to “get up” in 5 hours il probably stay up…so if anyone wants to talk bout ANYTHING e-mail me: hannahschelling.15@gmail.com
So I’ve been suffering from depression for a little over 3 years now. My Girlfriend of two years broke up with me well over a year ago. Sob story blah blah. When that happened I threatened suicide, cops, recovery ward for a week. A couple months later, police again, suicide ward. That was over a year ago. Today, and I am not shitting you I decided my life was finally just about turned around. This of course was a slow moving process. Very… Slow. Guess what happens a few hours ago? She texts me! I’m finally about over this and she texts me! After a […]
Every day I wake up without the woman I love next to me in bed. She left my bed because of some slight that she will not talk to me about. I work hard to supply our family with a good life but it never seems e-nuff for her. We have not made love in almost a year now. She can not work because she has hurt herself at work that was three years ago. So I take on all the overtime to make up the money she does not bring in any more. Then she hit’s me […]
Is it really just giving up?
I always start typing a post, but I can’t accurately write down my emotions.
This happens every night.
There is no way for me to explain in words what is going through my mind.
If any guy or girl of any age wants to talk or feels they need someone to talk to, feel free to email me. Please, however, if you do email me, state your username in the subject line. Anyone can email if they feel the need.
My email address is:
brl.cents@gmail.com
You’re not as alone as you feel right now…
I know you feel as if you’ve been cast out to sea, treading water for years and years, and you’ve lost faith in a rescue boat headed your way.
I know the waves are crashing over your head as I type this. Your limbs are aching, and your burning lungs are filled with the salty ocean.
I’ve been there. You aren’t sinking, because my hand is out… I’m just waiting for you to grab hold.
You don’t know me, and I don’t know you. I do know that I care. If you’ve read my previous posts, […]
I will never forget this as long as I live. I was 17, I’m almost 21 now, and I was taking a shower one Sunday night. It was June 7, 2009. Two days after my prom, and a month after my boyfriend, who I was madly in love with, broke up with me. I was numb. I stood underneath the water and kept raising the temperature high and higher, burning myself with scalding hot water. I felt like my whole body was withering away, and the pain was magical. I felt as if i could finally feel something again other than darkness and eternal agony.
I […]
i don’t want nothing at all i just want to by my self
I’ve no idea when this started, but I’ve been getting this dominant voice in my head. I’ve thought over it while it was gone, and I’ve realized that I’ve named it. Her name is Belle. Belle is someone who wants to ‘drive me out’ and take over my body for herself. I thought about this long and hard about how long ‘Belle’ has been around. If I really think about it, she’s been around since I was in about third grade. Third grade was when I was really treated as an outcast. So I’m guessing that Belle is an imaginary friend… that never went away […]
I am going all out here, ive tryed 3 times to end my life, yet the method didnt work… err and a year ago i bought a gun, and go figure a week later somebody stole it, everytime i try to kill myself, somthing tryes to stop me..but sorry, god cant stop my suicide abymore, i am departing very soon, i have new methods, im just wainting on funds… i cant wait to die, i have my arrangements made already the only problem is where do i do it, my house,hotel,or what? In the mean time im on a sex co pade..lol all i […]