Life has died but really my hole life was just a lie. I am about to cry but all I can do is sigh cause if I cry I will certantly loose my pride. My sister hates me but she is to busy with her  dates Lately.life sucks but in life there is not much luck so what the fuck. I am sad because my life is sort of bad.
November 2012
I was just about to do it! Grab the rope from downstairs and hang it over that beam in my garage that hangs oh so high. I’m screaming “I dont want to do it, I dont want to do ! ” Â I never want to kill myself but I could never bear the fact that the world is crashing down right on top of me and I began to snap. I didnt know anybody was home but then I hear my father downstairs looking for his motorcycle keys. All I had to do was just wait till he got on that motorcycle and I would […]
Why am I on this website? Oh, yes. To feel somewhat understood, to find hope, and to live again…
Everyday I just want to be with you and make you happy again. I don’t care if I’m depressed too. I want to help you first. You are beautiful, please I want to help you. You mean so much to me for you to feel this way. I know you hate yourself because I hate myself too. But I accepted what you told me, and I’m trying to be happy. But I feel like you just ignore what I say. I am just hopeless. I can’t do anything right. How do you help a person that doesn’t want to be helped ? How can I make […]
I’m so sick and tired of living at home. Can’t I go to college yet? I mean, a lot of people look at me and go, You have nothing to complain about. Your parents are happily married, You don’t have any siblings to drive you crazy. Your grades are above average, and you’re a talented girl.
As far as that BS goes, YOU live with my parents for years by yourself. I have a verbally agressive dad that has one of the most closed up minds that I’ve ever seen. I have a mom who is depressed for no fucking reason. As far as the rest […]
What do you do when only one thing helps
But you can’t even do that right?
Take the bottle of pills off the shelf
Cuz you fuck everything up in your life
Well that’s what I just did
Downed pills like shots on new years
Popped the tops off a couple of new beers
Ran up to my room and hid
Under my bed cutting my wrist
Making designs to shame an artist
My cuts have a contest
To see who can go the farthest
First prize went from my armpit
Down to my fist
Left arm useless but I still have my right
To end my life […]
i walked home alone at the end of the night and whispered your name in the dark. you stood out a mile from the secrets and lies and found a straight line to my heart right from the start.
the maps and the journeys were clear to see. directions were etched on your words. the dark pools of yesterday under your eyes where pain and perfection got blurred. but i liked what i heard. don’t fall. i’ll be your painkiller. don’t fall. we’re the same as each other. don’t fall. you just have to give me a call. i deserted the days and those delicate […]
why do you have to be so dumb and oblivious to what is right in front of you? You should clearly be able to see that SOMETHING is wrong.. but youre blind.. you blinded by your complete ignorance. You are an ignorant person. You know NOTHING about depression, or suicide, or cutting. So you judge those who do. If you actually knew.. you would know that people who cut themselves dont do it for fun.. they do it because its something that they have grown to need, they have to do it to stay alive, so they dont kill themselves, to let out the emotions […]
I came here not to be JUDGED . The whole reason was bc i get hurt and im tierd. Sick of it , by Saturday I will be gone. I know I need to do what’s right .
I was having fun. I actually started to love life. The earth is fucked and twisted. Once I love life The world gets mad and makes my life miserable. I know I have people who care but what’s going to work? Them be happy that I stay or just let me go. if they really care they will let me die right? I dont know. Well i dont know what I’m doing writin this but I feel alone now maybe that’s why. I’m back to square one. I wanna die.
You shuld talk to me.
I met a guy on here he thinks you guys are going to take me away.
Haa im not pretty so there’s not a chance.
I want to die. I keep hurting people, and I try my hardest not to. I try to show everyone how much I love them and how much I care, but I suck at showing emotions.
My ex cries every time she thinks about me because I hurt her so bad. We had so many problems. I tried to be perfect. I tried to be the amazing person she deserved, but all I did was fuck up and hurt her time after time.
My ex and I don’t talk anymore, but now I have a new-ish friend, and her and I […]
No one cares enough to know when you aren’t okay. Nobody looks past the fake smile. No one looks you in your eyes and sees pain. I’m not that great of an actor, I can’t always be happy, but everyone always think I am. They don’t see the pain in my eyes or hear the hurt in my voice. I’m not okay, I never will be.
Hello. I’m 15 going on 16 and I have been cutting for about a year. All my friends know and they didnt help besides making me promise to stop, but they didnt know that all their drama and treating me like crap was the reason. I broke every promise and i stopped over the summer and then started right back up when school started again. I have been able to hide it from my family, but my boyfriend does it too and every one of my friends did it in the past. I dont know how to stay away from all the drama at school […]
Do not use life force to destroy life force. Of course, as in all things, there are exceptional cases–how do you know if you are an exception to a sound principle?
I’m very depress , I’ve been trying to find the true meaning of life, the reason why I’m here , I love money but then I hate it … I been trying to change my thinking but I have failed while trying, so I give up , yes, all I can think about is death , why is money so important? , why does every situation have to  to involve money , why is not having a job a bad thing , yo really feel like this world isn’t for me , I need help!
So, here I am, back in the place that only people who have been here before know about. I hate it when people say suicide is a selfish act. Of course it is, but I have lived a selfish life. Being called selfish after death is the least of my worries. I could repeat all the cliches “why aren’t my prayers for death answered?” Why haven’t I done it yet? It has been a consuming thought for most of my 55 years. “it will get better” “It’s only temporary” Do you think there’s anything a shrink or well wisher can tell me that I […]
I want out, I want out, I WANT OUT! I’m so tired. I can hardly breathe it hurts so much. I don’t want to die, but I can’t live in this fucked up world and I’m so alone! If there is no God then it’s all meaningless, if there is a God I HATE HIM because he is so cruel. I just don’t want to exist. I want out. I can’t kill myself now, it’s too hard. Fuck i just don’t know what to do, I just write to make myself feel better maybe.
I want out.
Self Harm Assessment
Age: 14
Sex: Female
Label yourself: Emo, Goth, Prep, Etc.: Prep, Emo, Hurt, Ignored
How long have you been cutting? About 3 years.
Favorite tool? Razor Blade.
Where (place) do you cut (school, home, etc.) : Bedroom.
Do you have to wear long-sleeves & long-pants all the time: When I cut in visible places.
Do you cut on your stomach, or chest: Stomach.
 Are your legs, arms, & other body parts covered in scars? Wrists and Arms, and Stomach.
What’s your favorite excuse to use when someone asks about a cut? Cat scratched me, but I have them hidden most of the time
Have you ever been hospitalized because of your cutting? Nope.
when […]
I hate it when guys ask for nudes or want to fuck?? Seriously I just want the right one .<3 but idk of he will appear. Every guy I've dated / talk to hurt me . Can I just get a caring guy???? Im tierd of hurting maybe if I go away it will stop. 🙁