Feelings

I snapped.
I confided in you my deepest secret.
I trusted you.
But, I was wrong to do so.
You twisted my words.
Made it sound worse than it really was.
Then, you told everyone.
Don’t you know?
I still have feelings.

I thought you were my friend.
I thought you were the only one who cared about me.
But, I was wrong.
You didn’t care.
Others did, but I turned my back, and now they don’t.
It was all you.
You spread the rumors.
You talked behind my back.
Don’t you know?
I still have feelings.

I showed you my scars.
I showed you what I did to myself every night.
I told you it was because of the bullies.
I told you it was because of the rumors.
But never did it cross my mind that it could have been you.
You were the bully all along.
You were never my friend.
Don’t you know?
I still have feelings.

You told everyone I was a coward.
You told everyone about how I hid behind fake smiles.
You told everyone about my scars.
But I’m braver than you thought.
I am independent, strong, and courageous.
And guess what?
You’re about to find out.
You have feelings too.