What’s the point of being kind to everybody when the only thing you get is being mistreated? i don’t know if i’m the only human who feels this way but i’m always trying to fit in and make everybody likes me, but everything i get is bullshit.
Today was one of those hard days when you feel alone, no matter how much people you have around you, it may sounds like a big cliche but it is how i feel.
I lost the significance of the word “friends” a couple of years ago, i don’t know what they’re anymore, perhaps they’re there asking you whats going wrong and stuff, but why to ask when you really don’t care? but it’s something that i learned to live with.
“I don’t care if it hurts, i want a perfect body, i want a perfect soul” radiohead used to say, and actually that’s all i ever wanted, i’ve been doing selfharm and sinking my finger deep in my throat to vomit, yes, i’m a man, but i don’t wanna be the fat one, the one who nobody loves, the one who’s always at the end of the line, the one who no one cares about
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open world, closed wounds
This is exactly how I feel. I’m overly kind with everyone but no on really seems to care about me . When I hang out with someone I always try to make them feel comfortable and I start saying things that I don’t think just to please them and create a connection but all I get in return is not being considered.
Feel the same