Tonight after I get to see my kids I will end my life. I have bought them a gift that will always remind them of me and how much I love them. It is my time to go to end my pain. I love my children and hope they will understand as they are 9 and 10. My two daughters are and always will be my angles!
What I wouldn’t give to have a woman one time tell me she loves me before I go. All I ever wanted was to be loved and be a good father. May those that are here find peace in their lives and comfort in their heart and minds.
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Wow. Boy..that’s heavy. there’s a whole ton of stuff in your comment. Kids, love, angels, wish for love of a woman, being a good father and hope for peace. Thanks for this.
I feel your pain, there is a part of me that wants to say something to change your mind but that would be hypocritical. I understand your suffering.
I would never condemn an animal to a life of suffering, why would we a human being? People don’t understand the trials and tribulations of years upon years that drive a person to seek mercy… peace…
I am truly and sincerely sorry your life has been as such. I wish the best for your children and may you find the comfort you so desperately seek…
You are not alone-
I’ve read your posts before and my heart goes out to you lostfather, the fact that you’ve done nothing but just want to help bring up your children has led you to this point is so sad. If you read this then it’s never too late to change your mind despite how strongly you feel your life no longer has meaning, with your children you do have a reason, your love for them. They will grow older and eventually reach an age where they can make up their own minds about you, not distorted by your ex-wife. If the decision is already made up without any chance to change it then I’m sad but I understand how you’ve been worn down, I’m sure your letters to your daughters will show the love you have for them.
Just wanted to say that i really hope things work out for you. Read some of your other posts and it’s really unfair how things went for you… but trust me, there comes a time when children do see through the bs they are told (been there). All i can say is that a (supposedly) bad father is better than no father at all, so if you can still reconsider… i’d urge to do so, they will see who you really are when they are older (and maybe sooner than you think). If not… well, i can only wish you the best.
This is seriously heartbreaking… You seem like a good father from ur other post but just had bad luck cause ur ex is a psyco.
Life is shit. The reason it is as such, is due to being given it in the first place.
I’m sure your kids would prefer you to stick around even if you are not the best dad, you are still their only one.
I hope you manage to find peace, no matter the choice you make.
I hope you reconsider. No matter what gifts or letters you leave they will always wonder if they could have stopped it somehow. They will have doubt’s and guilt.