So I’ve been stepped up to “Home treatment” team. Which is laughable because the situation I’m in at the moment means no one can actually visit me at home, because it would actually cause more stress and end in too many questions (can’t really explain more than that).
They’ve basically said I can meet with the home team once they call me (should be tonight or tmro) and I’ll have access to the crisis house in my city if they feel it’s needed.
I just want to die. Its getting worse.
I’ve been honest with my partner they know I’m suicidal, they’ve said I should find something to live for, that’s not them, because I need to live for myself. In some sick way I’ve taken that as my pass out. I know now they will be ok.
So that’s my last piece of mind.
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I’m so sorry things are worse. I know what this is, but I’m still really hoping the crisis team will help you. I’ll be thinking of you.
Trix.. You are a beautiful person. I hope you see that.
As are you, dear. 🙂
I arrived at the same conclusion : live for myself. But what if you can’t do that either? Now that’s a major cluster-fuck !