I’ve decided to isolate myself so that the people I care about aren’t as hurt when I go, but it’s devastating to feel this alone. Perhaps it will help motivate me.
I wish I could hold someone, wake up with them and know that everything is going to be ok. I wish fear of me hurting them or vis versa didn’t tear me apart like this. I wish I could give my present without having to give my future. I want to feel safe in today without worrying about tomorrow.
I just wish I wasn’t stuck between living and dying