I am hanging on too life by a thread, I am doing the best I can to stay here. It’s a challenge just too keep on going. I have so many reasons too stay here but I have just as many reasons too go as well. I am not seeing the light and nothing is getting better. Ever sense I got here to Arizona I have been very emotional and I have gotten very depressed…. all of my emotions and stress has hit me in the face and I am feeling so lifeless. There really isn’t much more I want too do anymore. My motivation […]
I had a plan and that I was to go after I got home from my winter break vacation. I was still working on a method but I was going for bleeding out or an exit bag followed by an OD of pills. I want too make it so badly and I know that me giving up would only hurt those around me and would only push them over the ledge. I have been feeling upset and down. I cried all last night when I came home from dinner, I had made myself throw back up everything I ate. I was so ashamed of eating […]
I am only walking around and putting that smile on my face, I feel like I am torn apart, broken and can’t be fixed. I am doing my best too get by. Not a day goes by were I wish I could fade away and see if anyone would care. Honestly I think not that many people would even notice if I just faded away. Nothing is ever going too change I’ll always be the un-fixable girl. all alone here on the other end, I just do not want too keep going anymore you have too understand that if I do give up its not […]
I just don’t even know anymore. I just want too feel happy not sad and stressed out all the time. I want my life too turn around so badly I just feel like it never will. I want a way out but I know that giving up is not the answer. I am a strong enough person too do get through this I just don’t know if I’ll last long enough too even see that happen. I can’t keep waiting for it too get better I am sick of thinking I can do this because I am having such a hard time waiting for it […]
I want to die, I wish I could find my pills and OD on them but I know how much it would hurt the ones who love and care about me. I am feeling very suicidal right now, but every time I reach for the pills I know how much it would hurt those who love me I just do not have enough energy too really keep going. Its only a matter of time before I’m gone <3
Here I am still trying to stay strong but falling apart each and everyday I feel like I just could fade away any day now and no one could care and just like that I could be gone. I feel like I do not want too keep going anymore. I have made promises to those who I will not let down. I love and care about the ones I promised too but please if I do give up just know it was for the best. I am not giving up just yet I want too beat my depression so badly I want too stop feeling suicidal I just […]
I am so sick and tired of always trying to be strong and to try and be happy because of my current living situation her at my friends house.  There is nothing wrong with my friend I think she is a lovely person. But she has issues of her own and I know that it doesn’t help me being around her like I am all the time . But it is a safer for  me and I feel so different out of everyone and being bullied at school I want too feel better I really do but there are just so many days were I […]
i am being bullied at school for being bisexual all because this one girl i thought i trusted told everyone… so much for thinking she was a good friend i am living at my friends house because my mom and i just can not live together and my friends dad is always telling me too smile and too be happy… he doesn’t know i am sad and it is getting on my nerves when he does that because it is all the time and honestly telling me all that and is not really helping i just ignore and tune out must of the time… I […]
on the inside i feel sad and empty i feel like i am a walking lifeless soul. i moved out of my own house to live with a friend and too be in a better place yet the cutting continues and my thoughts of suicide continue. My situation is better yet i still do not feel any better. i get bullied at school and i know others are talking about me which is the hard part to deal with but sometimes i wounder if that is why i am still feeling sad. i do not think much of the bulling but it hurts. I stopped […]
I am so sick of my life i hate feeling so trapped and like the life has been sucked out of me i feel like i am a walking zombie most of the time its like my only emotion is sadness. I am trying my best too stop the cutting *which i have not done in 2 weeks*Â i do not even remember what its like to be truely happy anymore i honestly have just stopped caring about everything. Everything just seems too feel so black and white i can’t live with myself. I hate being bullied i hate feeling the way i do i […]
who said that we can’t give up and that it would be okay who said that we can’t fade away already…. i am at the end and i just can’t stand it any longer i just want too be happy but i have been stuck in a rut for the past 6 years when will it ever change. i am just wishing i could give up and never turn back i want to run away as far as i can *i prob. won’t run away but i wish i could* i just want too have a good balance in my life again <3
I cut myself today it was kinda was a way to numb the pain and help me forget about everything on my mind all the sadness I was feeling but now I’m just left with the cuts and I’m trying to hide them so no one notices I just want too stop feeling so sad all the time what is wrong with me!!!
it’s okay too be done and give up right? whats the point of thinking i can go on i have tried and tried to deal with peoples lies and bull shit but it gets harder to ignore all the time and i do not even trust very many people at school that i meet because they are just going to tell other people and spread the words that you say and mabey even twist them around. gossip is a monster i am sick of the lies i am sick of always sucking it up and trying to get threw it whats the point? what is […]
just when you think you can handle everything you in the end you can’t i am never understood by anyone and you have to know my story in order to judge me. you only know my name not my story so do not judge me before hearing it. if you want to hear my story all you have to do is ask and you can tell me yours in return i am here to listen but do not think i do not understand anything because i do. i understand a lot of things sometimes you have to explain something to me but do not think […]
seriously and honestly tell me whats worth living for when no one understands you
i have been feeling pretty good after me and my boyfriend got back together he made me feel so happy again and the happiest girl in the world, me and him was all that mattered to me. I got him back and only realized after he moved away this week that i was so dependent on him too make me happy, he is the only reason i want to get out of bed some days! he said he would come back after two months but lets not bull shit our self he is most likely going to stay with his parents alot longer then two […]
i have been thinking for a while and i have stopped myself alot and i do have the support of everyone here to help me but i am sick of everyone at school and how they judge but i keep telling myself just wait one more day and every thing is going to be fine. i do my best too keep going but i see less and less of a point too keep going so i start too give up on the little things school work, how i look, finding friends, keeping my room clean. i realize that education is my ticket out of the house […]
i am feeling suicidal right now and i feel like i might really end it tonight or mabey just wait a few days to say goodbye and see if this what i want.. i was scared at first because i was scared to die i realize now i am not scared anymore that we are all going to die eventually that we do not live forever but i feel like i have finally accepted that its okay to die and i know how i would die so it would make it less scary <3 can anyone help me right now?
i am annoyed today my mom came home after a 4 day trip for work and i liked it when she was gone i felt safe now with her back home i feel emotionally and physically unsafe just like before she left… any were but at home
tonight i think i am going to do a mixture of a lot of different pills mabey it would work… i guess i would not mind being in a hospital for a while i am just so done right now i can not take it