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Family & Friends Effects

The effects of suicide on family and friends.

The despair is starting to lift a bit.

by NiceGuy2001 9/22/2018

written by NiceGuy2001

When New Years Eve arrives, IF it arrives for me, I think I will be very happy to say goodbye to 2018, because this year has been the most difficult and painful year of my entire life.

The despair hit me again a couple of days ago. Every time the despair hits, it wears me down a little bit more, and sometimes I think there will be nothing left. And this time the despair was pretty bad. On the one-to-ten scale of despair, this was about an eight. But it’s starting to lift a bit. I hope I can hold on. If I don’t, I think […]

9/22/2018 2 comments

I need to move somewhere after the next 3 Months

by Yikrens 9/17/2018

written by Yikrens

or maybe in march. I don’t feel save around here. People mix up my Medicine, Parents are stealing my Medicine and I am very in my Pension at age 23. As if People are living to now or then to hear what I do. It was once even worse but that means nothing.

9/17/2018 0 comment

Choking

by Lillian_Jean 9/17/2018

written by Lillian_Jean

I have recently moved to a new home in a new city with my parents, and my boyfriend of three years. I have only just lived with my parents prior to this and have had similar feelings in the past few years. In the last city I was in, I had a decent job and so did my boyfriend. I had planned all would go smoothly and I would be able to move out of their home and my boyfriend and I could buy a home shortly. But my dad got another job forcing my parents to need to move, I originally thought i could […]

9/17/2018 1 comment

Life is boring , Reality is boring , real life is boring , real world is boring

by niki 9/14/2018

written by niki

Especially when you’ve realized that nothing we do here in reality will ever compare to our imaginations. And no, I’m not talking about petty, shallow, superficial, & stupid imaginations like most people only have with their simple-minded brains. I’m talking about all those best fantasy movies, games, novels, comic books, anime/manga, etc, with all their magic, superpowers, & magical, fantasy, adventurous world/universe with its limitless, unlimited possibilities.

Fuck this reality.
Reality is boring, stupid, & depressing.

reality is boring , life is boring ,
it’s all about money
i hate money
i hate business
i wish i live in the movie game anime manga novel comics books

I […]

9/14/2018 7 comments

This thrill inside of Me

by Yikrens 9/13/2018

written by Yikrens

How to you name the Power in us to make the Final Move, to give into something, to cry and to be forced to seek for food and water? The urge to smoke or to go for drugs.

Such an Movement inside of me is thrilling me to get to my own Rental. Anybody there in the Town is more of an fellow peasant than a friend and those who are a friend to me can’t actual set a rule for itself or have a proper set-up.

I like to be there. I can sleep there at least. I have nothing there yet about connectivity. […]

9/13/2018 0 comment

I’m breathing

by ariusversea 9/12/2018

written by ariusversea

You don’t need to tell me all the reason I should hate myself. I already know them. I repeat them to myself every night with nootropics to keep me awake and kicking. Kicking myself for being a failure, for not doing anything right. For never being enough.

I try to do everything right. I read the textbooks, look over my notes, do the work. I could not work for an entire MONTH, an entire 30 DAYS, and I would STILL be advanced in my classes. because I work hard. I “grind” and “hustle” everyday. But unless I haven’t walked in the snow in nothing but flip […]

9/12/2018 1 comment

Left Out

by rubbish 9/12/2018

written by rubbish

being left out always sucks. but i don’t complain about being left out. it’s just that… i feel like i’m unable to reach them or can’t compare to them. i watch their backs and i feel like i don’t belong to their group. we have been together for almost a decade. but the feeling of being left out is more persistent recently. it felt like this two years ago, but recently, once again, but the feeling is stronger. i don’t want to say that they don’t care about me, but i’m really having second thoughts on going with them or even getting near them. i […]

9/12/2018 1 comment

Yes Im a Baby

by Itscolourlife 9/11/2018

written by Itscolourlife

I just want you to be there

Ask me
Whats wrong
What happened
Are you okay

Tell me
Your story
Your pain
Your love

Is it too hard as a family ?
Im at my limit

My smile
My laugh
Its fake

See through me
Love me

PS :
One day if you read this when Im gone…
At least you know what I feel
How I longed for your love and touch like a baby

9/11/2018 0 comment

Love

by Yikrens 9/9/2018

written by Yikrens

I had found here the struggle of someone wearing about its relationship and the inability to share the real thoughts. Will it hold? Can this endure? I blame my Mind if we not set-up together forever. To be passed by for another. To get replaced.

It is so sweet how clueless I was about this feelings. I never knew them. Even when it had been cheated on me my heart and my mind chanted for the most precious thing I lived ever then. I still feel it, I can’t lie about. When we shared a bed for the night, me laying on my device phoning for […]

9/9/2018 1 comment

False Empathy

by TakeYourPillsX 9/8/2018

written by TakeYourPillsX

When I tried to tell you
so many things,
you claimed—
you knew everything.
Today when there is nothing
left to say,
in your silence I realise,
you knew nothing.
Not a single thing

9/8/2018 1 comment

Mistakes leading into and sustaining my marriage

by shadow-elk 9/6/2018

written by shadow-elk

Over ten years ago, I left a long-term relationship for what I hoped was going to be a happy, fulfilling marriage.

I’d been raised to be a good girl. A doormat, really. I was to put others’ needs before my own. If I was nice, others would like me and do things for me. I was also taught that men would do stupid things and I just had to accept the things they did; “boys will be boys.” This poor upbringing led me to believe that it was normal for men to be childish, sex-hungry idiots and I just had to put up with it.

My first […]

9/6/2018 2 comments

Somebody mixed my Medicine

by Yikrens 9/5/2018

written by Yikrens

Instead of Propofol I had a deadly substance in the glass. I took 2ml but screamed for 3 Hours.

I was in pain.

9/5/2018 4 comments

Precognition of Pain

by Yikrens 9/2/2018

written by Yikrens

it’s okay that everyone turn missing for a little, for a short, for long, for ever.pretending soon or close to have born alone, to be raised alone, to learned alone and to loved alone, cried alone and married alone.

to have fucked alone, till I found myself in a lie, one of which the wreck turned to recover and inserted in this world alone that suddenly I turned insane to not been at all alone.

but all I meet, anyone there is getting me to know is fading out life.

the world is yet not close to understand, healed. corruption is raised and cultivated. any declaration destroyed and […]

9/2/2018 0 comment

All Suffer All Pain All Humiliation

by Yikrens 8/31/2018

written by Yikrens

It are happening circumstances which are questionable at all.

All of my 4 Bikes are broke, one has kicked till the Wheel can’t turn anymore.

My mother probably lost her work because I had worked little there but broke the rules.

My Dad lost an entire Nail and is pretending that it’s an old wound. Tbh I didn’t saw it anytime before in my Life.

My Granddad died when I was in a Country where Me or my relatives never had been before. As urgent it was, I’ve been kept forcefully in the Country.

My Grandmother turned psychic and died. It is as if I brought our family all this […]

8/31/2018 2 comments

Wishing.

by hellblau 8/29/2018

written by hellblau

It’s been 7 years and I still can’t forget you.how can I forget the one that was everything to me?
I can’t compare and I can’t get anyone like you. I don’t feel the same as I was with you.
I want to think that it was meant to be.
Maybe someday we will meet again in life.
And this time maybe we can love again.
This time maybe you’ll stay.

8/29/2018 3 comments

no love

by msol25 8/24/2018

written by msol25

I have not been on here in awhile but here I am again honestly the only true Love i have ever receive has been from GOD I grow up treated different from family and friends IDK if that’s sad or good but at least i take it at a blessing no love from family

8/24/2018 5 comments

reality is boring , life is boring , it’s all about money , i hate money , i hate business , i wish i live in the movie game anime manga novel comics books

by niki 8/18/2018

written by niki

reality is boring , life is boring , it’s all about money , i hate money , i hate business , i wish i live in the movie game anime manga novel comics books

I hate reality , reality is boring !
I hate real life , real life is boring !
I hate real world , real world is boring !

I wish I live in movie / movies , I wish movies were real
I wish I live in video games , I wish games were real
I wish I live in novels , I wish novels were real
I wish I live in anime […]

8/18/2018 3 comments

sorry mom

by thisisnothing 8/14/2018

written by thisisnothing

my mom told me to go drown about a year ago. the thought stuck in my mind and it really just cant be erased or ignored to the point that i actually conidered it. she doesnt love me. it’s obvious. i’m pointless. pointless to the point of my own mother wanting me dead. i decided to be numb and quiet. a bit recently, she said that if i would kill myself she wouldnt care. she shamed me in front of everyone and cursed at me. i know that i can’t bear this anymore. i tried to get help but she told me that everyone experiences […]

8/14/2018 4 comments

I feel hopeful

by NotSoSuicidalNoMoe 8/11/2018

written by NotSoSuicidalNoMoe

I started taking this drug my psychologists prescribed me. I was initially very hesitant to try it since she said my skin could fall off ? (though the chances of it happening were very low –and if I saw any rashes in my skin to immediately go to the ER and it would not get to that point). But I had a horrible episode a few days ago. I spoke with my boyfriend, Eric, about it. I told him how I felt and why I wasn’t so open with him. I told him that I didn’t want to stress him out or to see him […]

8/11/2018 3 comments

Insecurity

by machila27 8/7/2018

written by machila27

Hi, whoever is reading this,

Someone commented on my last post and it made me feel less alone. A lot better. I guess it’s the fact that I’m not the only one feeling the way I do.

So, I’m writing again, to hopefully feel better in this little situation of mine.

This one is a little bit more personal, but it’s an anonymous site so whatever.

Here’s a little bit of a background story:

My aunt (let’s call her Katherine) couldn’t have children. A few months later, she and her husband made the decision of adopting. Right around the same time, her brother’s wife (let’s call her Ann) was pregnant with […]

8/7/2018 52 comments

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