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The effects of suicide on family and friends.

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by nonexistingsoul 1/14/2016

written by nonexistingsoul

Today, after school ended, me and my friends decided to buy dresses for the debut of our friend. We decided to ride a train going to Tutuban. We paid and waited for the train. While waiting, I was lost in my thoughts. I remember the news I heard about a guy who decided to end his life by jumping on the riles while the train is near. I was so sad about it. I know how hard it is. Then I heard the train coming. I was thinking what If I do the same? What if I decide to jump like that guy did? I […]

1/14/2016 6 comments

How Ironically Hopeful and beautiful It Is ?

by Still wandering 1/13/2016

written by Still wandering

For me : My love cares for me alot, alot.

But before she came, I also used to think that no one cares which lot of you guys think and feel.

And I know this for certain that we(SP) care. We(SP) care when any member of our family feel low or go thru any horrible situation. So don’t ever think that no one cares.

How ironically hopeful and beautiful, it is ? 🙂

1/13/2016 7 comments

I need friends

by yuko0319 1/11/2016

written by yuko0319

I am 26 years old. I’m married… But I’m always alone and lonely.
Because I don’t have friends. I don’t have friends since when I was 18. I want to go shopping with friends and hang out with friends…Watching a movie with friends. Talking to friends on phone.
I can’t do that.
When I feel depressed, I can’t share this feeling with anyone. So I always stay at home, laying in bed, crying and waiting for coming the morning. Please be my friend… I’m so depressed I want to talk to someone. [ my kik : YYUKGRA]

1/11/2016 7 comments

Shame

by nextime1988 1/11/2016

written by nextime1988

It started a few years ago when all my friends were graduating, getting their first jobs, or starting a Master Degrees. And where was i??

Well 4 years into something i should have finished in 3 i still had half of my subjects to finish, it ended up taking 3 more years ( 7 total) to do so.

I started to taking side toutoring classes for some subjects and which made me feel guilty because those services are not cheap and i was putting even more wight on my parent’s shoulders.

With all this i felt so ashamed i didn’t want to show my face around, i started […]

1/11/2016 3 comments

Relapse

by lulereign 1/9/2016

written by lulereign

It’s been awhile since I’ve written here. Things have actually been looking up. I told my parents through my counsellor about my self harming and suicidal thoughts. They were surprised, but I wasn’t chewed out like I expected to be.

Anyway, I’d thought that things would change. But I realise that they really don’t get it. They still don’t get it and I give up. My parents talk about my cutting as though it were a joke, especially
my dad.

My parents seem to have told my brothers about it, and they make fun of my scars. I mean, it’s difficult to stop thinking about it, but […]

1/9/2016 2 comments

Hopeless

by suicideroom 1/9/2016

written by suicideroom

Let me start from the beginning. (I’m now revising this and this definitely did not go in the order I thought it would)
I don’t want to reveal my identity too much so i’ll play this safe and call myself Kai.
I’m seventeen years old, eighteen in March. I’m a transgender boy (born female) and i’m gay. My mom’s side of the family is one of the biggest group of unsupportive close minded people you will ever meet. Ever since I was young, I knew i felt different than my siblings and cousins. My family tries to look like your average apple pie and a […]

1/9/2016 5 comments

I hate myself

by yuko0319 1/8/2016

written by yuko0319

I tried to love myself. I tried to have confidence myself. But I couldn’t. And I can’t. I decided to kill myself as soon as possible. This is not temporary feeling. I been thinking about suicide since when I was 11. I couldn’t commit suicide because I lived with my family. Now I live by myself. So I can decide anything by myself. I’m scared of suicide. But I’m tied of pretending that everything is fine. And no one cares about me even if I cry. They don’t want to get in trouble. So they ignore. I’ve cared about friends, family … When they had […]

1/8/2016 6 comments

Til Later…?

by ghost187 1/8/2016

written by ghost187

So I lost another friend, but not because of my sister. Because of more rumors. Someone told her i was spreading rumors about her for a few months now. Which is ridiculous. I did not and have not. But whatever she doesn’t believe me. So i just apologized and i said that id like to fix things and be friends. And she said she’d like to as well, but later. I don’t know if i’ll wait for later. Yeah it was a big loss, but not as big of one as with my (ex) best friend.
I fucked up once again. Oh well. I just […]

1/8/2016 1 comment

why does therapy never help

by ShortOne 1/6/2016

written by ShortOne

i don’t even know why i’m so fucking sad at this point, at first it made a bit of sense cause no one in my household was really okay, or happy for the majority of my life. and i did a few months ago loose my facade and several friends but for fucks sake its been 5 months, years since that family stuff happened and yet i still cry every god damn night i don’t know what to do with myself.

i don’t know why i’m surprised, its not like i’ve ever been able to keep myself together, i learned to lie quick and shield myself […]

1/6/2016 6 comments

Just insane

by YouAreStrong 1/6/2016

written by YouAreStrong

Not much to say other than I’ve totally lost it. I can do something about this, I could try again but I’ll only hurt people more. Tell no one and just go. Was I getting better? Probably. No it’s all gone to shit. Just want to curl up and shy away from everyone and everything. Nothing constructive from this just sadness.

1/6/2016 1 comment

What is it like?

by serenityseeker 1/6/2016

written by serenityseeker

What is it like to just live? To just live a life where you don’t feel like everyone is watching you? Where no one gives a shit what you are doing, where you are going, who you are talking to, and how you are doing it? I really can’t remember. I honestly want to live in a cave underground with no windows and no doors and no light so that no one can see me ever. I want to not exist. I want to be alone so that I don’t hurt anyone. I want to never interact with anyone so that I don’t do anything […]

1/6/2016 3 comments

i fucking hate you, you piece of shit

by death bunny 1/5/2016

written by death bunny

don’t try to act like we’re pals. i don’t even know you. who the fuck do you think you are, waltzing into my life all of a sudden? you fucking stranger. you’re not welcome. i bet you think you bring redemption upon me. well it’s too fucking late for you. you were never around when i needed you. now you can politely go fuck yourself. don’t act like you’re a big shot. you’ve had your whole life to make everybody hate you. now suffer. and stay away from my new family or i’ll cut you to pieces i swear. i’ll fucking kill you.

1/5/2016 3 comments

Set Backs

by idontknowwhattodohelp 1/4/2016

written by idontknowwhattodohelp

The most frustrating thing about whatever it is I’m going through is this oscillation, things start to improve in small ways and then something happens however big or small and I’m back to being low again.

New Years was one of those times, being home from uni means and the history i have at home means there are a lot more people i feel i need to avoid. All day i tried to focus on working on an eminent essay but was anxious about that night; where i was going to go and who i was going to meet.

i was in the pub enjoying drinks with […]

1/4/2016 1 comment

And I’m telling you, I just want to die.

by mranony 1/2/2016

written by mranony

My parents discovered my cuts because my aunt told them when she noticed it.

I don’t know how to explain it to them. I just want to end it all. Yes, I appreciate the good things. Yes, I am aware of your love. Yes, life is beautiful. I KNOW. I FUCKING KNOW. BUT I JUST REALLY REALLY HATE MYSELF. I JUST WANT TO DIE.

Why do you say it like it’s my fault that I need to say sorry? Why do you say it like you’re the victim? Because you were hurt? That the pain on your back is coming back because of my cutting habit? Why […]

1/2/2016 13 comments

What a waste of space

by hatemy life 1/2/2016

written by hatemy life

hey sp im just here to say life is bullshit i tried my best to stay up but i keep going downhill i tried so many times topping myself never wrked ive dne alot of good but still get badluck for sme reason i got ppl who just act like they like me but its all fake i aint got no one im under anxiety but it get worse and worse when i take my meds i cry alot.Past few days ive been dwn want to leave this world asap. Im bored lonely depressed of life. Now im trying a differnt method of dieing starve […]

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Alone On New Years.. Again.

by GerbzBaby 12/31/2015

written by GerbzBaby

Once again a friend ditched me for my sister, once again I feel left out. I don’t want to be alone on New Years.. It’s happened two years in a row. I want to be with those who love me. I thought I was going to change and be more outgoing this year but I guess that hasn’t worked out well for me.. I thought I had that courage. I haven’t changed at all. When will it end?

I hope everyone else is having a good New Years. You guys diserve it.

Happy New Year!

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12/31/2015 3 comments

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I want to die

by hatemy life 12/31/2015

written by hatemy life

nearly whole of my life has been shit. Last two years it got even worse now im struggling. Ive tried so many time to leave but it never worked this year should be the one happy new year too all

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12/31/2015 37 comments

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What’s the point?

by aeneegma 12/31/2015

written by aeneegma

She always felt like an outcast in her family and friends.

Mostly when she talks, its as if she’s talking to the wind. No one respond or indicate that they hear her.

She’s never been anyone’s first choice. Or second. Always the last resort.

People try to dictate what she should do in life.

She’s quiet and they thought her weird and dumb.

She’s alone. Even in the midst of people.

She’s lonely and no one dare to approach her.

She’s depress and no one care to help her.

She wants to die. The thought that lays beyond her laughter and smiles.

How sad her life is. If only there’s one person that might […]

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12/31/2015 2 comments

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coping

by idontknowwhattodohelp 12/31/2015

written by idontknowwhattodohelp

a few days ago I wrote what i thought would be my goodbye note, and this is still on my mind and whilst the idea of suicide is still dominant in my mind I’ve found ways of coping, they’re not healthy but at least they’re better (in some peoples minds) than killing myself, they’re still unhealthy, i know that is is not the right way to deal with things but right not I’ve been cutting a lot, i don’t want to be told this is wrong because i know it is, but someone here to speak to would be very helpful, the pain and adrenaline […]

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12/31/2015 5 comments

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My depression…

by Lawli 12/30/2015

written by Lawli

If I can remember correctly I got depression two years ago when I was 13. I only had it for a little bit and at the time I had no idea why I was so sad and what depression really meant. I started ignoring the feeling and I believe I wasn’t sad, but I still struggled to get by.

About five months ago I got really depressed, and it was quite severe still I managed to do things. About three months ago it slowly got worse and I couldn’t concentrate for very long, I started trying to get away from people, I have plans to leave […]

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12/30/2015 3 comments

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