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The effects of suicide on family and friends.

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by kurdt kobian 1/11/2014

written by kurdt kobian

I can’t help but hurt people and isolate myself from them. There aren’t enough people who understand what I’m going through in my life. Just one really and she’s alienated from me too. I’m alienated from just about everyone emotionally at this point. I had a really positive and engaging relationship with someone but when my depression came out, she couldn’t understand and moved on. I tore into her because of it and that makes me feel guilty. And it hurt so fucking bad when it was done.

I know there’s a lot of people who have it worse than I do. Today I was […]

1/11/2014 4 comments

no more…

by bye_bye 1/10/2014

written by bye_bye

i come and go.

here and there.

i make mistakes.

i go home, and there it is.

the guilt, the pain, the shame.

i can’t please her.

make her happy.

everything i do, i just mess up.

and now we’re broken.

non existent.

we tried – i tried.

it just doesn’t work.

i can’t be who you want.

call me all the names you want.

tell me i’m crazy and stupid.

that i need to get myself together.

but it won’t change anything.

i don’t care if you say.

go head, kill yourself.

“i’m so depressed”.

you’re unworthy.

i don’t think you really love me.

cause it’s ok.

i’l be gone soon enough.

the responsibilities will be over.

no more fights.

no more tears.

no more lies.

no more us. […]

1/10/2014 2 comments

Relapse…

by RogueShadow1281 1/9/2014

written by RogueShadow1281

Relapse…I posted the other day that I’m finally in the clear of my depression. What a relief right? Turns out that little echo thing that I felt which reminded me of my nightmares is a bit like a premonition or even an alarm. I felt different going to chow. I got my food and started eating. A minute or two in. I get tunnel vision and a massive amount of anxiety. What’s happening? Turns out I had a panic attack, almost started hyperventilating. I was frozen, staring at the coffee mug filled with homemade gatorade as I mentally freaked out. Now as it […]

1/9/2014 2 comments

I have a deep hole inside of me

by mrkil 1/9/2014

written by mrkil

I am 42, married with a smart and beautiful 3 year old son. I have lots of people who love me and would suffer if I was gone.

I am a survivor of childhood sexual abuse who last year finally reported the abuser who was arrested and plead guilty to two counts of indecent assault. He was then released with a firm talking to by the judge and nothing else.

I have a job I love that pays me well and i go to a support group once a week and see a social worker as well to help cope. I take a prescription of Wellbutrin and […]

1/9/2014 6 comments

Max’s Story

by zagibbs 1/8/2014

written by zagibbs

Hello, my name is Zach. I stumbled upon this site and I figured I would post my story here as well, hopefully It may help someone. So anyways, this story is about my step brother Max. Max was a wonderful and caring boy, he had a deep passion for art and liked to skateboard with his friends at the local skatepark. Seemed like the perfect kid right? But the sad truth is, much like many young people in america, he suffered from major depression. To my knowledge he was not bullied or anything in high school, His parents got divorced but it seemed to be […]

1/8/2014 1 comment

Young Suicide

by smash2204 1/7/2014

written by smash2204

This is a poem i wrote about a child becoming an orphan and it causing them to be depressed and consider suicide. This stuff might seem out of order to some people but this stuff does happen and suicidal thoughts can occur to anyone, any age for any reason. Life can seriously suck sometimes.

Lonely am i,

I can’t bear their cries,

Of laughter and happiness,

While i have tears in my eyes.

I want to shut the world out,

Be locked inside,

Â From the joyous surroundings,

Because recently my parents died.

1/7/2014 10 comments

my step sister

by itsnotokaynoelle 1/6/2014

written by itsnotokaynoelle

my step sister is sooo fucking annoying! I hate her soo much sometimes!! I went downstairs and come back up to find her snooping thru my computer!! what the fuck??? so I came in and saw her closed the door behind me and she was like mortified like I was going to kill her which I did.(jkjk I didn’t kill her I wish tho) and I started screaming at her I look at the computer and shes looking at my fucking history on the favorites bar….I wish she would just grow up and move out! and she only fucking 10 years old!!!omg I might die […]

1/6/2014 2 comments

IN LOVING MEMORY OF MY RACHEL BAER

by bryan higgins 1/5/2014

written by bryan higgins

I DONT KNOW WHERE TO GO FROM HERE.

IT ALL USED TO BE SO CLEAR..

IM FINDINGÂ I CANT DOÂ THIS ON MY OWN.

AS LONG AS I KNOW THAT YOU ARE NEAR…

IM DONE FIGHTING THIS WORLD

.. IM FINALLY LETTING GO.

..I WILL TRUST IN YOU..

YOUVE NEVER FAILED MEÂ Â BEFORE….

.I WILL TRUST IN YOU…

IF THERES AÂ PATHÂ I SHOULD WALK ….Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â HELP ME FIND IT..

..IF I NEED TO BE STILL,

GIVE ME PEACE FOR THE MOMENT

BEFORE MY DEATHÂ Â Â ……

..AND MY RE BIRTH TO

MY REAL JOURNEYÂ ..

..IN SRIRIT….

.FOR EVERY STEP YOUÂ TAKE ..

YOUÂ WERE NEVER ALONE…

.EVEN WHEN […]

1/5/2014 1 comment

My mother told me to die.

by Dynna 1/5/2014

written by Dynna

Hey guys.. My name’s Dynna and I am a gamer girl ever since I’m 10.

My dad is fine with this fact and he understands me as my personality is very similar to his. He knows I’m crazy for drawing and playing video games and tried to give space for my activity as long as I helped with chores. My mother, however, does not. She doesn’t understand me. She always thought that a lady have to be proper lady. I hate expansive blouses. I hate dresses and I hate handbags. They’re a handful for me.

Today, I was playing a shooting game called Freefall Tournament with my […]

1/5/2014 29 comments

Being told you are worthless for the past 8 years

by neverendinghell 1/5/2014

written by neverendinghell

I donâ€™t want to die. I donâ€™t want to give up, but I cannot continue living in agony and have the one person who is suppose to be there for me, protect, and show guidance; put me down and make me live in constant regret of my mistakes.

I have one possible chance at getting out of this hell of an environment. However, it seems unlikely that it may happen due to the lack of response.

How can anyone stay positive when youâ€™re constantly put down?

You know I canâ€™t afford to leave otherwise I would have done that already. But you threaten me regardless. You take advantage […]

1/5/2014 3 comments

A lifetime of being alone

by cyan 1/1/2014

written by cyan

I’m so fucking tired of being alone. It seems this has been a recurring theme throughout my life and I’m just so done dealing with it. I’ve finally given up hope that I can be romantically intimate with a man, but I’ve always thought I at least deserved a good friend or two. Guess it’s not meant to be.

Cruel joke, life. Simply cruel.

And I don’t understand why this has been an issue for me. I know I’m not hideous, ugly, projecting neediness, unfriendly or a *****. I honestly do not get it. The only men who want to be involved with me either have girlfriends, […]

1/1/2014 17 comments

Getting So High Just To Fall Back Down

by .marie. 1/1/2014

written by .marie.

I think everyone can relate to those moments in life where you feel invincible. You are just so happy that it’s like nothing can hurt you and for that moment you forget about all the pain and all the bad that surrounds you. But just as you are in that high life strikes back bringing you back down to where you started. That’s why so many people refuse to be happy because something usually goes wrong that risk of being knocked back down is always in the back of their mind. Happiness is one of those things that can either have a permanent effect or […]

1/1/2014 2 comments

another year of zero karing but …

by YESCHUkrist 1/1/2014

written by YESCHUkrist

PSYOP’ZX

JUST DONT KNOW Y IAM HERE IF IAM THE PURPOSE > NOT SURE Y THIS DONT END BECUS IM SICK OF BEING A CONTARD TO EVERAE AND NOAE…………

1/1/2014 1 comment

Suicide with children

by cyan 12/31/2013

written by cyan

I’m just so tired of suffering. The emotional pain sucks beyond belief and the tears never seem to subside. I’m the same age my father was he took his own life; it was devastating to me as a thirteen-year-old child.

And now I grapple with my emotional pain, wishing I could end it all, but not wanting to inflict the same distress, misunderstanding of love, and rejection onto my own son that my father’s suicide encompassed me with.

Fuck. Nothing is easy. I can’t even check out smoothly or with ease. Just sucks.

12/31/2013 2 comments

Worst New Years

by emotionallyalone 12/31/2013

written by emotionallyalone

I wanted to finish my FAFSA application to get financial aid for college, but of course my mother comes and nags at me for wanting to do it at the last minute, when I clearly told her around Christmas time if she could help, but she says she doesn’t feel like looking for her files. My dad starts yelling at me because they don’t think I can apply to any college I want. She calls me stupid and tells me stupid “You’re a fucking stupid like your daughter.” Then she goes on about how she doesn’t trust me with her information or anything. Or how […]

12/31/2013 2 comments

Through the looking glass and beyond

by johnwhogivesashit 12/31/2013

written by johnwhogivesashit

I don’t believe in god or an afterlife. makes me regret all the things i haven’t done yet in life. The finality of it all. Unfortunately the list of problems that require a permanent solution stack up faster and faster. Makes me realize I can’t check out till i put some shit in order first. Well I at least have to try and slow down this crash. The holidays just make it worse. Watching my family this Christmas was like watching an ant hill before you stomp on it. They have no idea…They go about their lives oblivious and “uncaring” Â well more like hopefully bullshitting […]

12/31/2013 4 comments

I can’t take it anymore.

by minky5 12/31/2013

written by minky5

I’ve been crying for the past two hours. Why can’t I stop crying? 🙁 I want to just stop it all. I feel so depressed over drug abuse from my dad. Earlier my dad was high on drugs and he threatened to throw my eleven year old brother out on the streets. Later, I shouted at my dad because he said he was going to throw me out too.Â I shouted at him, telling him he was nuts. Dad said he’d rather be homeless than live with me and my brother. Now I’m scared. I’m seriously thinking about telling the fucking police because I can’t deal […]

12/31/2013 4 comments

please help me!

by silentlisten 12/31/2013

written by silentlisten

I told you what was happening you shamed me.

How could i tell you it still happens?

I saw you give up on other when they couldn’t just stop.

I can’t stand the idea of you giving up on me because i can’t.

Everytime i tell you i can hear the letdown in your voice.

It makes me want to do it again.

How can you be so blind the proof is there, i need your help!

But i am scared to ask, to scared to ask.

12/31/2013 0 comment

3:05 am

by hellblau 12/30/2013

written by hellblau

I wish I could tell how I feel, I wish I could let someone in. Iâ€™m on the mix of loneliness and illness, I miss talking to the person I used to know. And Iâ€™m not gonna lie, it could be hide inside, but a part of me still wants you. The other part is telling me to let you at â€œplatonic loveâ€. Cause I know you and I will never be. Itâ€™s hard and itâ€™s wasting me. Iâ€™m slowly losing this fight. The fight against myself. Eventually I will give up, as my mind sometimes does. If you look deep inside you maybe youâ€™ll […]

12/30/2013 4 comments

by hellblau 12/30/2013

written by hellblau

I wonder why Before I met him, I would dance in the shower. When he was in my life, I would think about showering with him. After he left, I would sit on the ground in the shower and cry. When I got over him, I showered so quickly there was no time for dancing, fantasies or tears. Someone can invade the smallest part of your life, you won’t even realise it, until you dance in the shower again, and wonder why you ever stopped.

12/30/2013 0 comment

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