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Does anyone have any therapy options for someone that doesnt really want therapy? My friends been really concerned and has been asking me about it. Id like to do something to ease his mind considering i messaged him early saying i was holding a bottle of pills. I dont want him to worry anymore.
Someone sow me drinking, are you alcoholic? I cut myself am i masochist? I try to not take responsibilities am i coward? I can not take my life yet, I’m chicken i know, and can’t stand for myself I’m afraid, I’m afraid of losing my job because it’ll take me to place i don’t want to think about,homelessness, starving and sleep deprivation worst, sad it’s not winter yet, i missed it, after all winter will come, and plenty of time to plan for final night that’ll be the best. If they’ll judge me in the end anway what i’m i still afraid of, perhaps I’m so …
I have to get this off my chest somewhere.
I started dating a 25 year old man when I was 16. He started out as the most charming guy I ever met and then after about a year he showed his true colors. He is verbally and used to be physically abusive. I won’t get into that, but when I was about to turn 18 I found out I was pregnant. I knew he would be mad but I figured he loved me so we could make it work. I told him and he accused me of lying about taking my birth control pills. I never …
i keep being told “you can get better” “everything can be ok” but can i? will it really be ok? if i relapse have i really gotten better or has it just been delayed? there really is no such thing as being ok. once youre broken thats it, youre f*cked forever. theres no reversing the effects. and the worse part. you didnt ask for this. its not like you were an idiot drinking and doing drugs all the time. no you then know what can happen and if you do it anyway thats your own problem but depression…..someone gave you this problem. they handed it …
You suffocate me
Perched arrogantly there in your office chair
weaving lies through my head
stripping me of my hope
with empty promises.
You say you know my pain
but hope, love, and faith
are but rudimentary constructs
to keep us from fading away.
You say talking helps
“just one more little chat”
but you only talk
about chemicals
removal of feelings
and washing away the past
with denial
and SSRIs.
Dont speak of confidence
you who belittle me
Don’t speak of love
you who tell my family to ignore me when I’m hurting.
Dont speak of of things getting better
you who tell me they only will in my head.
When it became too much,
I drifted apart from you.
I’m lonelier than ever,
but I guess this is the way things have to be.
By losing you,
I’ve gained insights and confidence.
There can’t always be a bad side
to everything.
To answer your question… I applied online for unemployment benefits and was, as I feared, denied.
It’s just time for me to go. Financial reasons and the inability to get or keep jobs is just part of it. There are many more reasons. Life has been mostly a pathetic nightmare for me and somehow keeps getting worse.
I am going to try to stick it out until March, since I don’t want my daughter and my family members to associate my death with any special dates like holidays or birthdays.
It will be tough. I may not even make it until then. I haven’t spoken to another human …
I went to my natal town 2 weeks ago. I haven’t been there since last year and before that l don’t remember how many years passed, maybe a handfull. This time this weird thing happenned. I went with my mom and we stayed for a couple of days to one of her ex work mate. While l was there we travelled by bus and l had this deja vu, l was in the bus with the same people from many years ago but l was older while they looked the same. It was like this weird movie that l was reliving from years ago. Another …
Please note – The following question is hypothetical. I’m suicidal at this point but not homicidal, not enough to act on the idea.
Suppose you could divide all people into three groups – moral (1), immoral (-1) and amoral (0). Depending upon the number of people in each group, a certain sum total of morality in the world could then be calculated, say, x.
If you belong to the first group, your being around adds to making this world a better place. If you’re in the second group, the world is worse off because you’re in it. The third group doesn’t affect much.
In general, evil people prefer …
This weekend and possibly next.. Depending on the outcome of the events will determine whether or not I go on for sure.. If the paranoia is true, I’m slashing my jugular and femoral on the spot.. I will not hesitate. The fate my brain tells me about is worse than death.. If not, I’m not going to give up suicide for good.. Here’s to a major deciding moment in my life… I just want to say I love you guys, and I appreciate all the support you guys have provided, the mutual understanding… I hope you all fly high and I wish you all the …
What if there was a way to erase your complete existence, so that no one ever remembers you? Would you take it ?
She looks in the mirror disgusted by what looks back at her. She smiles the broken smile. She laughs the rehearsed laughter.
I’m tired of keeping trying to find a reason to live.
Everyday is the same shit.
Tired!!!
…
(The only moments I’m in peace is when I love you…and remember you love me back in the same way….thanks! <3)
I had suicidal thoughts for a while back ago but recently I just feel like disappearing, I don’t feel like running away and being by myself I just wish I wasn’t even born
They say that I’m a lucky woman,
being healthy and successful,
living in good, rich Germany.
But sometimes I wonder
if people are blind
and completely heart-deaf here.
A few weeks ago,
I was waiting in a hotel –
A guest from Australia
was walking through the lobby.
A mobile on his ear.
I heard him talking:
„They are like robots here,
all of them!“
He couldn’t see me in the corner.
Then I just read HERE
from this young man
from Australia…
Complaining pretty much
about the same things over there.
Is there any better place?
Anywhere?
I doubt. I traveled a lot.
Hell opens everywhere I just
linger around long enough.
I stopped working now.
A freelancer, no lobby, no security,
trying to help other people.
Depression. Once again.
It is just …
When some big dude says something from across the street..
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