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Why Live?

October 16th, 2017by eternaldarkness

I honestly don’t have any reason to live, other than watching good movies and eating forbidden foods I shouldn’t be eating. I would off myself if I had a good reliable way to go. But since I don’t, I’m forced to live. I’m sick (physically), lots of health problems, I’m middle-age so I shouldn’t be sick but I am. And it’s only going to get worse over time. Anyway, I have no family, friends. My only “friend” is the internet and that’s where I spend all my time. Pretty sad, yes.

I don’t have any reason to live. …

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A failure

October 16th, 2017by SlickCursed

Welcome if you’re reading this, I am about to open up to you as I have never done with anyone else in my life before. Oh firstly, I would like to say that today (Oct 16th) is my birthday :)..

Well I am now in my 20’s and have lived my entire life with a very abusive father. Let me paint this picture for you. I know this wasn’t the first, but I was 8.. One evening my cousins and I were preparing for bed, one of my cousins being funny, sun his belt over his head and was dancing. Next moment the belt had slipped …

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Procrastination

October 16th, 2017by eternaldarkness

Ugh, 17 days later and I finally did what I was supposed to have done on 9/29/17. It was something I didn’t want to do and involved translating and finding a notary in another city who could speak another language. It turned out not to be that hard, took me about 2 hours to do it today. But I could’ve done it over 2 weeks ago but I didn’t. I avoided it and procrastinated and procrastinated.

So I did try to do part 2- search for a notary on google back then- but the search results were crap. I spent another …

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Jumping out of a moving car

October 16th, 2017by defalt120

whew what a title right? It was around July, I think I was on my either 16th or 17th attempt( currently on 22) So anyhow I was contemplating suicide again(like every other day) I was inside a car with my parents and we were headed to a theater and decided today I will jump out of the car. I was waiting till my parents drive to the highway to jump but then I remembered my mom doesn’t drive in highways out of fear. At this point the car was going 75 kms so I decided it was good enough. Adrenaline rushed through me as I …

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here for a good time, right?…

October 16th, 2017by iamdarling

does anyone know how to get cigarettes underage? loads of my classmates get them but i’m too socially awkward to ask them where from.

(ps, please don’t leave any comments about how unhealthy smoking is for you, i’m going through a bucketlist and smoking is on there, even if it’s only once. anyway, ‘i’m here for a good time, not a long time’, right?)

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Sitting here….

October 16th, 2017by Ellen87

With my heart monitor that i have to wear for 2 days. The device is sittin right on my cleavage, wires attached all over my stomach n chest. Afraid to move cuz i dont wanna disconnect anything. The nurse was like, you cant take any showers. And its like hell, i dont even wanna change my clothes! Lol thank god my 3yrold is spendin a few days with his grandma otherwise he would be crawlin all over me, tryin to pull at this stuff :-p

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Can’t live anymore…

October 16th, 2017by peach

Even though I wanted to wait until may 1 (to see if anything changes or not), I can’t live anymore. I think I lost my hope about things get better. So I have to do a couple of things before I die, but I’ll kill myself the end of the month.

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More about me, I guess

October 16th, 2017by AnonRaigonis

I lashed out on my mom today.

We were working on my visa for going abroad. She was being impatience. I knew that she was worried about me. Been so all her life. She made it clear that her kids are the ONLY important thing in life. It is not a good life she was given, but somehow, my pathetic existence made it better.

I know that. But I lashed out on her. I was being mad at her, for being so impatience. Publicly too.

I look back, and I have been doing that too damn often lately. I mean she is my mother. The best one I …

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October 16th, 2017by Robigson

Tell me some good ways to die, the best ways iyo

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October 16th, 2017by Robigson

I pray to god he takes me in Heaven with…
I can’t take this life no more

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Why is dying so difficult?

October 16th, 2017by dbzfan200270

Feel like I’m running out of time to keep trying unsusessfully. Tried once again to hang self, while lowering self to knees. Added a towel for additional padding. All it gave me was broken capillaries in my face. Oddly enough, face felt tingly and itchy as I slowly lowered self. I kept getting the urge to cough and felt like my head wanted to explode, but couldn’t get myself to pass out. Finally had figured out how to keep noose from untying due to weight, but for the life of me, body won’t pass out.

Sitting here contemplating trying again.

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October 16th, 2017by Robigson

Does anybody here know what can I replace depakine, anxiar and netiapin with?

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Give me a chance

October 16th, 2017by uniiicorn

I know a lot of people may choose to ignore this, if so, i hope you skip breakfast the next day (kidding). However, im hoping that there is one person, just one, who hears me out. Im not asking for a reply, though feel free to do so if you wish. I think i’ve blabbered enough, so let me get to the point:

Im losing my mind.

Every depression help center i go to, or any article i see, i see in bold:

YOU ARE NOT ALONE, IT WILL GET BETTER. HELP IS EVERYWHERE.

I wish i could believe the nice people down at ‘the guardian’, but frankly i …

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I’m a coward

October 16th, 2017by NotAlright

There are many times in the past I’ve wanted to cut, to hurt myself… But I didn’t. Because I’m afraid.

Now I cut, I slashes across my skin to creat scars… But now I’m afraid of what would become of me… What would my future be.

I’m such a coward… Afraid of everything, I don’t even dare to go deeper with my razor… Only because I’m afraid, of being found out, and afraid of the unknown amount of pain… Waiting for me in the future.

I’m scared of pain… But I love pain.

I’m scared of blood, but I’m fascinated by it.

I’m such a coward.

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meh

October 16th, 2017by spectralgiraffe

I tend to look up ‘how to kill myself ‘ multiple times a day yet I don’t wanna really live or die..

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One, Two, One

October 16th, 2017by Katki

Forgot for awhile – now I remember.  Loneliness never leaves, it just waits around the dark corner.   You find a person, you think they care – and maybe they do in their own mind, but to you, its just another ‘there, there, it’ll be better next week’ pat on the head.

How ridiculous am I, after all these years to think that things would get better? Change? Improve?   More alone ‘with’ someone than I already was… just what am I supposed to do with that?

I am, we are(not), I still am    Nothing gets better

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I wrote this last night

October 16th, 2017by no_motive

I know it’s gonna be hard for you all but it’s done, only now can rest in peace knowing I’m not going to hurt anymore. Mum, Dad I love you two both soooooo much this is gonna be hard I’m sorry for that. Maybe if I didn’t lie to that doctor when you were concerned about me I would be fine, but who knows. Sister 1, 2 and 3 I love you too and hope that you can look after mum and Dad for me. As I know that is gonna hurt.. ?

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A real nightmare

October 16th, 2017by Deefloyddd

I think about dying every day.

I feel when you tell a person your sad or you feel like you wanna die they think it’s a joke . But 20 years of age and here I am still having the same thoughts I’ve had since I was 15. And now married I thought that lobe could cure how messed up I am Inside but turns out I’m just adding on to my craziness. I wish I could just die in an accident because idk if I have the guts to kill myself.  I’ve cut and burned to ease my pain. But I feel like i can’t …

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Letting go

October 16th, 2017by Deefloyddd

I just can’t stand these 4 walls. I don’t want you here and then I do . I hate people who can’t apologize.and you habe to be apologizing all the time. Dying does not sound so bad. I wish I had one of those shots to give myself to out me to sleep.

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My first attempt

My first attempt

October 16th, 2017by NotAlright

I was always a loner, I am just the girl who would sit in the corner and read alone, having only a few friends. I’m also one to have a lot of secrets and put on layers and layers of masks, to hide the brocken form and tears… and soon, I nolonger know how to cry, how to laugh from my heart, or how to smile truely. I hide away behind the walls, and isolated myself even more to protect what’s left of me, to protect my thick fire walls and masks. And due to those suppressed emotions, I always have a problem with my …

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