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One of those People

  July 16th, 2018 by itsallsmallstuff

In a lot of stories there are those people that live sad lives and die sad. They are just kinda shit out of luck, always just miss opportunities to make their lives better and connect with people. Life is so up and down for everyone, but for those people the downs seem to get deeper and flatter and deeper and flatter. I am well into a deep, flat, swing. Each time there is positive momentum and a good plateau, the downs stretch out longer and longer. I know it’s all about perspective – glass half full and all that – but there is also experience. …

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seeing the dead

  July 16th, 2018 by SleeplessMind

3 weeks ago I lost someone I love. Last week I celebrated a milestone birthday for a friend who was even closer with the loved one that passed the week prior. I saw the deceased loved one walking around the outskirts of the party venue for hours. Me, being the only sober one present (as I don’t drink/use drugs) figured it wasn’t something that would be recalled or noted by others come morning, and took time to step away from the crowd to acknowledge our deceased friend coming to wish a happy birthday to our other one. After seeing him (the deceased friend) and him …

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Sad

  July 16th, 2018 by EmptyPluto

I don’t even exist.

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How lonely are you?

  July 16th, 2018 by nutjobcantlove

It’s been a while I opened my mouth to talk. No interactions, no hellos, not even fake smiles. The silence is so loud that it’s hurts to hear my breath. Id appreciate even if someone yells at me. Even if I go to work, there’s no one that knows me. I walk in, sit in a corner with my headset on, walk out.

I’m that lonely.

How lonely are you?

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Forever.

  July 15th, 2018 by hellblau

I know someday I will find my way,
It’s just that it’s taking way too long,
And I’m getting tired, weaker and I don’t know if I’m willing to continue, it’s just hurts so fucking much. I need a break. Forever.

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  July 15th, 2018 by thehusk

All these things I do to try and make myself forget. In attempts to drive it away. The knowledge that I will never be ok, ever again. The inability to accept what I know to be the case. It’s not tolerable. I don’t know how to live with it. How to live with myself, knowing what I do. I just want to stop. To cease to be. I just…can’t.

So drag in anything to take my mind off it. To blur the reality for a little while. Or pretend to myself it’s all ok. But it never lasts. The truth pokes through. And part of me …

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Some are born to sweet delight some are born to endless night

  July 15th, 2018 by nuclearbackpack

Guess which one I am.

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Suicide/Cure

  July 15th, 2018 by Evil_Pity

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Last few words.

  July 15th, 2018 by Octr

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  July 15th, 2018 by 5ara

The idea of death just keep popping up in my head everyday

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Feelings

  July 15th, 2018 by Chanty

For a while now, I’ve been experiencing this feeling of emptiness. Things that used to interest me, don’t anymore. No matter what I do, I feel like something is missing. I just don’t know what that is.
It’s so frustrating.
I always feel like crying. It seems like all I do these days is cry; I try to stop, but the tears just keep coming like a broken faucet.
Urghhhh why am I like this? I don’t understand my own feelings. The smallest things make me mad. The smallest things make me sad.
Sometimes, the tears come with no warning and I feel this pressure against my …

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Oh jeez, I am losing it.

  July 15th, 2018 by LetTheLostKittensPlay

I haven’t been on my medication in what feels like forever and I don’t even know how to feel about this. All I can say is I’m really detached from the world, it feels like body isn’t even a solid mass, I’m just a floating mass or something. It especially unnerves me at night when I keep losing sensation in my limbs and worry that I’ll momentarily become paralysed if I don’t shake myself out of it. Sometimes the detachment gets so bad I can’t even stand up without feeling blood rushing to my head and nearly toppling over.

It’s almost like I’m intoxicated but without …

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  July 15th, 2018 by spookichick

oh my god, the loneliness is palpable.

i am nothing

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No shame

  July 15th, 2018 by Ihatemylifelikeahater

How many times u attempted suicide???

I’m 4.

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God sucks

  July 15th, 2018 by noah5678

Anyone else agree?

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Petty

  July 15th, 2018 by 01tree.bottom

I’m pathetic.
I want to die and yet don’t have an important reason.
My family members are all alive, I have loving friends and I’m an overachieving student.
So why?
I want to die because of my patheticness. Because I know that there are others in the world who probably have a valid reason. I hate myself for wanting to die for no reason.
I’m petty.

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New therapist

  July 15th, 2018 by unknownsoldier

why can’t I get a new therapist that is worth a dam. Just started with a new one and he is timid as hell. Don’t know.

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My current questions

  July 15th, 2018 by ariusversea

Does my dad have cancer?

Is my mom a prostitute?

This feels like a pre apocalyptic warning.

“Might as well end it while you brain isn’t bejng devoured like a watermelon.”

People make fun of me having such an easy life. But I have worked hard for it.

Just to watch it all crumble.

If I give up, I won’t be able to fufill all my duties in the many positions I hold.

If I give him, I’ll never have a chance to win the Loran scholarship.

If I give up, I’ll be the daily tragedy that will be forgotten after lunch.

If I give up, I’ll be free and happy …

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too young

  July 15th, 2018 by doin-just-peachy

i’m 16. i should be doing great, with only a few reasonable identity issues. but instead, i feel like i’m barely functioning. sometimes it’s like my brain just shuts off? in mid conversation, i just panic. it doesn’t help that nearly everyone that could help me, (parents, coworkers, friends), undermine my feelings as being juvenile. i’m trying to look at them from a different perspective. say, if i were twenty something how would i react to this? how could i make this better instead of turning into a heaping mess of panic? but it never works. i’m not sure why i joined this website. i’m …

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Oh, what a heart.

  July 14th, 2018 by insignific4nt

Here I am. Open and willing to love yet unable to find it. I wonder how long this will last. Giving all and being thrown aside. Committed with no one to commit to me. It’s all very painful really. Painful in heart, spirit, and in body.

Love. Such a painful procedure. If only it would stop. If only I could make it end. Oh what a life that would be. A life that I might live for if it didn’t require that I end it all.

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