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I miss him so much. I want my best friend back. I want to hug him and tell him just how much he means to me. I just want to see him again. I want so badly to see his bright blue eyes and blonde hair.
But I can’t.
He’s dead.
He would be ashamed of me. Drugs, alcohol, cutting, and my bitter attitude. Not much to be proud of.
There’s a part of me, though that thinks that he would be proud of me. I’ve been to hell and back, with both physical and emotional damages, but I’m still breathing. I can walk into a room and act […]
You know, there’s something about depression that gets me… the way you are suddenly unable to see things clearly. It makes you ask why everyone stopped caring, and I wish I was told this when I was extremely depressed. Then again, that may have been the reason I learned it for myself…
Those people who you thought cared, and then abandoned you? It’s quite possible they actually did care, at least in the beginning. They saw something in you, and just because they chose to stop seeing it, doesn’t mean it’s not there anymore. It was there for them to see, and even if it’s not […]
People try to put us d-down
Just because we get around
http://youtu.be/uswXI4fDYrM
Things they do look awful c-c-cold
I hope I die before I get old
The Universe told me not to go to the park that day.
As I pulled into your driveway, my phone buzzed.
You were calling me. Why?
“Scide is going to kill me. Scide is going to kill me.”
Your voice is gurgled and muffled by your tears.
I burst in and your ‘girlfriend’ isn’t there.
You’ve locked yourself in your room.
Open the door. She knows about everything and it’s all my fault and now she’s gone. Open the door, Scide. I deserve to be punished. Open the fucking door. Go away. If you hurt yourself, I’ll go away, too.
You become silent, this entity […]
I have been a drug addict since I was 15. Â Ive had periods of sobriety the longest being four years however I am once again in active addiction. Â I am a failure in every sense of the word and all I want is to die. Â I have tried several times and just like everything else I try to do in my miserable life I failed. Â I am emotionally and spiritually dead already and have been for most of my life. Â Im 30 years old unemployed and live with my parents. Â Three years ago I owned a home with my beautiful fiance. Â I had all the […]
My boyfriend and I have had a relationship for 9 years. It has had it’s wonderful moments.. but it has had many bad ones too. I get so angry with him for his lack of care and concern. I’ve thrown him out recently and now I feel as though my entire world is gone. I have no desire to even want to wake up! EVER AGAIN! All i have ever wanted was his love. I’ve had people tell me he loves me. I’ve heard hims say it. But I have not felt it in such a very long time. […]
I talked a lot because I was lonely.
So lonely that I talked to walls. I yelled at windows. I cursed the floor.
I was an only child, and it was all I had to offer.
I was afraid to not talk because it would just make me so much more alone than I already was.
That was how I learned to adapt to my life, my surroundings.
I would talk to myself all the time and make myself laugh at stupid jokes that weren’t even funny.
It was pathetic.
I am pathetic.
Maybe it’s okay to be yourself where you come from. Maybe it’s okay to be cursed. Maybe it’s okay to be someone like me.
But here? There is no maybe. There is no okay. There is no me to be.
My life from the beginning was merely a messed up play. The curtain dropped after many acts, thus ending the play in all its appalling drama.
im so anti social that im pretty sure the only person that knows my name is the old lady that always scolds me for buying cigarettes. My boss hates me so he has loaded with me so much work that i cant possibly do it all, so once again ill fail, and he will have an excuse to get rid of me. I have had writers block for months now, i dont even feel like i deserve my username of a poet. I’d like to keep cutting but i cant stand to watch myself bleed. How do other adults handle all this shit. Fuck im […]
What I Wish I’d Known Five Years Ago – Finn Butler
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I know the heart is a heavy thing
and if today you managed to lift it
a few inches off the ground,
I am proud.
You need to understand that there are no turning points.
Your life is not a movie and your fears will not disappear
as soon as someone loves you back. There are only moments
when the glimmer of light you are chasing seems closer
than the darkness that is always chasing you but in these moments
every single thing has been worth it.
And I know sometimes you only want it […]
Plain and simple, to the point.
I have now reached the point where I feel like I’m at the end of my rope. I am absolutely exhausted with trying to pretend that I am ok. I have had these intense feelings of loneliness and sadness lately and they are starting to become consuming. I have tried talking to everyone I know, but no one seems to understand. They tell me its just a phase or that things will get better just “try to be positive” (like I haven’t been trying). I have tried self medicating but the effects are only temporary.I tried cutting, but it just made me feel worse about […]
Jag vill leva. Jag är glad att jag inte tagit livet av mig. Jag vill leva nu, inte i det som var förut. Jag vill leva nu och även om jag vet att jag kommer att känna annorlunda snart så vill jag leva för att se även det. Jag lever. Jag är glad att jag lever. Jag vill fortsätta leva.
Jag hoppas kunna hjälpa andra människor på den här sidan. Jag tycker att det är väldigt viktigt att kunna nå ut till andra och hjälpa människor som har problem.
I am glad to be alive. I am glad that I didn’t kill myself. I want to live […]
I dont think i was ready to be re-introduced to my past again. It through me off my good streak :/ Im going to try to fight back this bad feeling and not let it get so bad this time.
i cant believe ive actually resorted to this. expressing myself to a computer screen and to people i dont even know. maybe it will help.
doubt it.
NEW YORK—On a radio show they hosted called “The Pursuit of Happiness,” John Littig and Lynne Rosen urged listeners to embrace spontaneity.
“So much about life is about impulse,” Littig said on a broadcast this year on an FM station in New York, WBAI. “It’s about doing it right now.”
A shocking decision the couple made together appeared more methodical: Police say they killed themselves side by side as part of a suicide pact.
Autopsies found that both Littig, 47, and Rosen, 45, died from asphyxiation after inhaling helium, a spokeswoman for medical examiner’s office said last Thursday.
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Im finally going to put a stop to this pain and guilt tonight. Â I can not continue hurting everyone around me, most importantly my son.. he’s to young to understand anyways..so i feel its best to do it before he can remember me. I have an idea on how i can accomplish this..but any other suggestions can help too.
It’s a cut to the wrist with the bite of my kiss
I don’t mean it baby when I go crazy
There’s really no such thing as control when I lost my hold
Just remember I don’t mean it baby when my heart grows cold
I’m sorry
For what I’ve done and I can’t ever change
Just a girl who steps on glass and walks on you all day
I’m not trying to bleed but I don’t try not to
I’m not trying to hurt you but I can’t help you
Welcome to pain, it’s my second face
Can you feel the bruises I’ve inflicted […]