For general topics related to the site.
in order to live
For general topics related to the site.
in order to live
anyone know how long it takes to bleed out if u cut along side the vein?
So I know I was all happy because things were getting better. But they’re getting bad again.
I can’t go to Canada because it’s too expensive. So now I am staying here all summer and my mom expects me to be social. It’s not much to ask if I was normal. But I’m not and she’ll never understand because I can’t tell her about my depression. I gave her all the clues, I tried to tell her but all that came out was "I don’t want to talk to people." She’s clueless. I’ve even cut myself and she hasn’t noticed.(I’m not doing that for attention. I […]
I want to be myself
But my depression won’t let me
It’s like some monster that has captured me
I’m not the same
It forbids me to have any fun
It wants me dead
And it gets rid of anyone that stops that feeling
That feeling that you’re not worth anything
And even the simple things
That make you happy
It makes sure you don’t enjoy them
It makes me hate the sight of anyone
But mostly
It makes me hate life
And wish I was never even born.
People underestimate the power of this monster
They don’t see what it does to someone
How it […]
I feel as if i don’t have any. I mean i have many friends, but just not any that i think will be there when i need them. They never call or text me unless they have problems that they want me to help with. I feel like that’s selfish of them. They never call or text me to see how i am. It just..it hurts to feel like no one out there gives a damn about you and your friendship. I just want to tell all of them to fuck off. But if i do that then i won’t have anything to start with.
So I stumbled upon this website a few years ago when I was googling different topics relating to suicide. It definitely has changed a lot. But now I’m back… Reading bits and pieces and posting here and there.
A little about my story…Â I have been, as my therapist calls me, a functional depressive. I go to work. I have two jobs actually. One of them, not the best, but with a great company…. And I just found out I will be working in the department I’ve wanted to for the past 7 years, using my degree even! I went to college and got my degree […]
My best friends are the cuts on my left wrist. I’m not sure that anyone likes me anymore, and if they do they shouldn’t. But my scarlet lines are the only things that i can depend on to make me feel a little better. What can i say, im an addict.
No, not physically speaking. But I think that might be one of the very few remaining ways. The color has run out of the world like so much water off your car windshield. I have considered myself dead for some time now (sorry, I can’t really come up with a more definite answer at the moment). Would you like to know the dumbest part? Of course you do. The only thing holding me to this life is my student loans. How pathetic is that? Call me crazy, but if I’m going to kill myself then I would at least like to do it with the […]
Hi, I am a 28 yrs old guy and from where I am right now, life looks completely hopeless. ]
I was always very good at what I did… at school (was top in the class), work (among the best), etc. Three years back, I lost my dream job (where I was slated to reach a very high management position), because someone else screwed with my work. I took another job after sometime, in another industry because I was not sure what I really wanted to do with my life. I was good at this job too, but not happy as this was not what I […]
wow i havent been on here in a while i though id let everyone who cares know how im doin…ive gotton a lot better i still have my times when i gotta fight hard to stay out of the depression slup but im manging to hold my head up:) ive made new friends and did a lot of work to get my self happy agian. i still have the most amazin boyfriend ever and the worlds best friends and haileys doin great she can finnaly say all her abc’s well i guess thats all if anyone need someone to talk to im here to help:)
I feel like SHIT today. I could berely get out of bed. And today is supposed to be ”family day”. Great! I don’t wana go anywhere or do anything or see anyone. I just want to be aloneee. The cuts that I did a few weeks back are now scars. But I cut pretty bad so the scars are very noticable, even with my newer cuts. But I like them. They remind me. And in some way, make me feel a bit better. But they also make me wana cut more, and make more just like that. I make sure I pick the scabs so […]
I have to wear a bathingsuit/bikini today. I’m insecure about how I look. All I own is a bikini because my bathing suit looks like crap. We’re going to Dorney/water park. I hate how I look.Â
I wish I looked better. I have pink hair (under my blonde) AND I LOOK BAD! My legs and ass are huge. I don’t know how I’m going to go out today and like… take off my shorts. Ew…
I hate it..
how can people be so mean.
so cruel.
id rather you slapped me in the face than speak words.
someone slaps you – your face shows the pain
but the cuts heal, and in the end your only left with better reflexes.
when you say the words, you crush people.
and every time you bring them down, there self worth fades
and slowly there left cold and pathetic thinking they are everything they were told
‘your fucking useless’
‘your so fucking dumb’
‘god your a fucking waste of space’
at first you laugh – you know thats not true.
then you think, hey.. maybe it is
then you think. who the fuck needs me here, im such a […]
Im just going to come out and say it. I might just leave this site. It help somewhat, but ehh its like… i dont know that i shouldnt be here. I just… might just go. From here and the this world. I might just drown or jump infront of a car. Who knows it might even work. Mmmhm all i want is to die is all. Leave this suffering world to other people to deal it. I might come ever now or then might comment or two; thats probably it. Forget about posting my problems. Forget even posting a poem on here. I guess i […]
So I’m back here again…
I thought I was done, and to be honest i do feel better than i did a week ago but i still feel stupid.
Stupid for telling my mom the facts of my past. stupid for letting her know i was, at one point suicidal,… (and still have tendencies at times)… i knew she wouldnt understand, i dont know why i told her. stupid. but she doesnt have to understand and i finally realize that my life is better as a secret unto myself. a mystery to be beheld by few. much has happened since i told her for that was months […]
People doubt my abilities. My mind is like a raging spiral of endless possibilities. The best thing about being a dreamer is that pretend time is all the time. My imagination is never ceases to amaze me. How something so small could result in something so epicly mind blowing. Some people have a problem with it, which quite frankly i don’t understand. You tell me to calm down and be normal but if anything I’m not normal. And I’m never gunna conform to the social norm that our society is based upon nowadays just to please your preconceived notions on how you want me to […]
I’m worthless
I’m back.
Not like anyone cared.
Make sure you have read My Story.. Before reading this.
Back when she still talked to me, but after we stopped being “brother & sister”, I went into a desperate attempt to get her to be my sister again. She told me no. So I asked her why and she said that it was too stressful that I hurt her too much. So the reason that she did everything else was becuz of what I did to her. I harassed her with questions, stressed her out, and worst of all, I hurt her. I never meant to do any of that to her. I deserve everything […]
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