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I should be dead by now, yet I’m still here. Suicide is not the easiest thing to do
when not depressed.
I decided that a little help from some Oxycontin would be the ticket. The problem is that I don’t do dope anymore, it’s been 20+ years since using
on a regular basis and painkillers never were my thing anyway.
I’m in Vegas and went on line to check local price’s and saw that possibly
I would be able to make a hook-up online, yeah right Big Mistake.
I knew it was dangerous to attempt to buy anything thru an online
hook-up.
Well anyway I […]

well I just found out my x step father is watching this site for my post -.- (btw I’m typing blind cause I’m using a phone so dnt get pissy wit typo’s) and he is tellin my family about the shit I’m saying well this is to you mother fuckr.. Your the reason I am how I am you think ur so great now cause ur off the drugs well ur not jackass cause we all know ur still doin pills and u think u can go around tellin everyone the knife I used to cut my wrist was the one u bought.. Well ur […]

The only reason why I’m still standing (or sitting, as the case may be right now), is because my mom already lost one kid, and it’d kill her to lose both. I saw her go through the first loss, I saw the agony, I can’t do that to her again. I want to, because I don’t want to live anymore – I don’t see a reason beyond my mother to live – but I can’t. Fuck, I wish I could, though. It’s become an obsession. When I drive, I look for walls that I could easily slam my car into with my seat belt off. […]

You are dead to me, dad…

Money fucks everyone up.

I hope I die fast. I hope I get pneumonia from this cold and die.

I may just slit my wrists in the bathroom, it’ll traumatize him and make him regret being a money hungry asshole.

I’ve never felt this much over whelming suicidal pain in my life. I literally grabbed the scissors on my desk and stabbed myself in the arm– almost… My fiance walked in at the wrong time.

Soon, I’ll have the anger and sadness to just stab myself in the heart without a doubt.

I think it’s time to go now, it was nice knowing you guys. Take care, think of me when I’m gone.

all my life has been screwed up when i was abused and given up by my parents so since i was 5 ive been on my own last year i met the most amazing girl ever i fell in love with her and i proposed… a month later she killed her self… i miss her so much i just want the pain to stop i have nothing so im going to end it all ive lost any and all reason to live for…she was so beautiful… the most amazing blue eyes and hair darker then a night without the moon she was so kind to […]

I don’t even know where to begin. I have been told by both of my parents that I am a worthless piece of shit. I know that everyone says that the other sibling gets treated better than they do, but my parents take it to the extreme. I don’t feel loved by them. Honestly the way they treat me, I question why they had me in the first place.

Love life…ya, well not so hot. I lost my first love, and never really ever got over it. I miss him with every inch of my body. Just found out he is engaged. Wow. Then when I […]

Im 18 years old and havnt really spoken much about why I want to kill myself. tried everything this year, change of lifestyle, medication, counseling. didnt do shit all if anything ive gotten worse. Even got a gf but she treats me like shit really fucked up relationship, really fucked up life. was mormon when i was younger, dont believe in that bullshit anymore, parents took it bad. got kicked out of home for a while. back now but its hell. dropped outa uni, was gonna join the army but they wont take me cause im mentally “unstable” not my fault i was born in a […]

I don’t know how many times i’ve said i’m leaving, too many times though, that’s for sure. this time i’m leaving though. i feel dead inside, empty and hollow. i don’t mean to sound like an emo but y’know. i’m quite excited about this, and the thought of it maybe making it into the news, my old friends that left me might hear it, it excites me. i feel like a dick though, for leaving my loved ones, i hope they understand though.

my suicide letter’s done, 2 pages + a personal note to mum and some of my belongings in my drawer, a heart she […]

Hi

I am 18 years old, I am an intern at an accounting firm, and I generally hate my life…

I guess it’s not [articularly bad, but it’s not particularly good either… It’s as if all I’m doing is just existing, just being, not having any purpose… I hate my job, and I keep messing up at it. I hate my life because I feel I’ll never get where I want to be. Whenever I try to tell someone about this, they just tell me that my problems aren’t that bad… I realise as much, but I still feel like shit. I just want release. I […]

I know this will work.tomorrow I will take a bottle of tylenol.I’m 5’9,93 pounds,15.positive no doubt Thanks everyone for the help but help won’t ever be enough.I’ll pray that I don’t chicken out.Ugh this sucks.My note:
I love you all as God’s creatures but anything more would be a lie.I stopped lying months ago.It’s been this way for along time.It won’t change.I’m sleepless.I’m leaving nameless.I don’t want anyone holding the guilt for me dying after all it’s all my fault.Im suppose to help me not you.I’m suppose to be alone.I’m comfortable when I’m sad,It’s normal for me.Well I got to catch the bus!Later Days.
I’ll […]

i feel worthless a lot, i feel fat and ugly and weird. i also feel like everyone around me doesn’t actually like me so when today everything went wrong i just went for my second attempt. the first time i tried to kill myself i did it because i feel the world would be better without me, when my dad found out what i had done he said “grow up, and get out” but thats exactly what i was trying to do. I was being mature in my actions by attempting suicide in order to make my family and people who are close to […]

When wonderful, beautiful, amazing people don’t know what they’re worth, it makes me want to cry. It makes me want to reach out, and scream, “I SEE YOU. I see you, dammit! Can’t you see that I see you?!”
I remember being in that dark place. I was worthless, and I couldn’t never be good enough for someone to really love me… I was a monster. No one loves a monster right?
Wrong. To ALL of you “monsters”, rejects, outcasts, odd balls, losers, and worthless pieces of shit, I see you, and I love you.

I remember wanting to die. That’s why I’m here. That’s why […]

I am Doris used every single spell worker on the internet, spent untold amounts of money and discovered they are all fakes…i was the fool though; doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results. In the end, I decided that I wanted a tarot reading to know what my future held for me; I contacted a woman who lives locally to me and she told me about a man named (priests meruja); he does not advertise on the internet, has another job for income, has no set prices, makes no false promises and refuses to help anyone that cannot be helped […]

i dont want to be here anymore. im done with everything that comes around the corner. I can’t stand my family more than the next person. I feel so depress and empty. I dont belong in this world much longer. I want to go grab my extension cord and go hang myself outside. Why do i even try? I ask my friend for help and i havent heard a replied over two weeks. Im just done i dont want anyones help anymore. I will just let them wait for me to be dead. They dont need me anymore im just their fucking slavey that has […]