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I just can’t live anymore. I got caught so I can’t overdose. I need ideas. I’m not asking for your ideas because technically you would be helping me kill myself.
I just need to die, Or have someone to talk to. I’ve lost all my close friends and my life has been really bad.

I see so many people want to die want to give up i feel that every second but i dont know how to help except for be here to talk to and everything and tell everyone i know exactly how u feel and please e-mail me i wanna talk even if its just to say hi im here please i cant keep up with everyone…mkafan12@yahoo.com

things are getting serious think im gonna do it sooner than i thought, i just wanna fucking leave…last week i went to counseling he a old man and he tried to kiss me…i believed him. all are letting down me including god, i just fucking hate this whole universe, i ve been seeing suicidal dreams i feel like i wanna stab my heart…every time it beats i hate that son of a ***** im gonna kill him

In reading old notes and can’t remember the dream bout Nycolle but I wrote it in my notes of my iPhone… Idk when I did that but why don’t I remember, choking???
It started out with me staring at a picture of Nycolle. My brother was doing an excellent job of photoshopping it and taking everyone out of the picture except her. I stopped for a moment and ended up at a hotel, the same one I talked to Nycolle in once. I walk to this secretary of mines office and check the place out and leave. I end up back home looking at the […]

okay so i’ma give you all a film tip or whatever

Hot Rod

holy shit where do i start, this film is my new favourite film, fucking hilarious, not even kidding, it’s the funniest film i’ve ever seen in my entire life, watching it right now, 2nd time.

i can’t even choose my favourite part, but i think my favourite line, that i can remember at least, is

‘i’m frickin’ pumped! i’ve been drinking green tea all goddamn day!’

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Vh2WcxP4XU8 green tea part

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Fgp0TJ5kmvo trailer 1

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=P0N5HWNgWtA&feature=related trailer 2

this is my hat now, this is totally my hat! LOL the way he says it  and then kicks the guy on the ground

“Life isn’t fair.” I have heard this so many times in my life, but never was there any over used phrase to aid in coping with it. I met my first love in high school. When we graduated, I wanted to take care of her and marry her, so I joined the army. After a few weeks of basic training, my sunday call was spent listening to her state that she doesn’t want to marry me, and that she was seeing another man…… I tried to kill myself twice, both with tylenol. The second attempt was extremely close to success. I was talking to […]

so yeah i only got a few hours left to live. i’ve chickened out way too many times, you wanna know why? because i can’t find the right information about my fucking method, i THINK i’m able to block the carotid arteries, but i’m not sure. why? because there is no information on the internet and no one here replies, so fuck it i guess then, i’ll just go ahead and do it.

but still, this site is fucking useless man, no one seems to help. i’m not talking about help as in trying to convince me not to commit suicide, i’ve already made my mind, but […]

if you so please convince me to live. tonights the night. wish i could say goodbye to few people, but thats beyond my control.

I don’t think people like being around me.  Friends tend to hang out and not invite me.  If other people speak to me its usually just to mess with me.  I wish I knew what was so wrong with me.

Sights, sounds, smells.   Our senses.

They are what make us human simply because we use them to tell stories, to remember memories.

tell me friends,  what would be the last somg that your eyes would close to.

I’ve always though it would be “Half a world away” by Oasis or ” The End” by the Doors until I heard the opera song “Ava Maria”.

Is something more beautiful because you don’t understand it?  Is not understanding something beauty in its self?

Let me know your comments. 🙂

NEW YORK (Reuters) – The Rutgers University freshman who committed suicide after his roommate spied on his encounter with another man said when he revealed he was gay his mother “completely rejected” him, court documents showed.

Arguing the despair that drove Tyler Clementi to jump to his death from the George Washington Bridge started before he arrived at Rutgers, lawyers for his roommate, Dharun Ravi, said in court documents that criminal charges against their client should be dismissed.

Lawyers for Ravi, now 19 and charged with bullying Clementi for being gay by spying on him with a webcam, say prosecutors presented a distorted and misleading account of […]

I’m done. I no longer want to live. I’m killing myself. Tonight, actually.

would it really be that bad if i killed myself right now?

Well I been on drugs and alcohol secne I have been like 8 or 9 I am 31 and been shooting heroin for like 15 yrs or so I cant stop I have been to treatment 20 something times and nothing works I have destroyed any love and friendships I have had my family hates me , my dad told me a few years ago I should of shot myself years ago and saved everyone the trouble , I overdosed like 9 months ago and all he could say was I runed the blanket I happened to be half dead on choking , all […]

I’ve been feeling hopeless and depressed since being a child. Years have passed and i’m in the same place. I don’t see any point of keeping on, keep suffering this nightmare of a life. The only thing i think of doing and look for is dying, however I’m afraid i can’t get myself to go through with it as i sense i have within me [not something i truely aware and believe of] some false hope feeling that some rescue could be found and i could feel different about life. This hope isn’t based at all on my feelings and in my mind i really […]

I can’t take it.. I was doing so good and now I want to break down. FML. If I had the guts i would shoot myself right now. I would take every pill I cuold find, shoot myself, and cut.

I don’t remember any sustained feeling of happiness in my life. I learned a long time ago not look forward to something because that’s a guarantee that it won’t happen. I thought that my kids’ father would be at least a activevof their life. WRONG! He not interested in that. I could walk out of this door and leave all three of my kids without a further thought. That’s sad huh? I’m that sad and tired. I wish I never met “Ken” and I wish that I never got pregnant ten years ago and that I didn’t listen to people who said they’d […]

My fiance is the problem in my life. He verbally abuses me every time he starts drinking. Everything that goes wrong is my fault. Tonight again everything is my fault. He has blames me for things that never happened to cover up for himself to his friends. He calls me a stupid piece of shit and a ****. He swears at my mother calling her the same just using different words but the meaning is the same. I am not on anti-depressants any more so I dont have anything to use tonight to just lose myself. I […]

I am so sick of living. I am just ready to die. The person I love rejects me on a daily basis- Not from being in a relationship, but from being friends. It hurts my heart everytime I do and I Tend to cry for hours about it everyday. I just want to die and escape the pain.

Everyone hates me. I am having so much trouble with my family, since they recently found out that I am suicidal. They make jokes and keep waving Suicide In my face like it’s a game- I plan to show them it’s not and try again, but this time […]