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All I ever wanted was to be something, not an object to be raped and beaten in the world, I am going to die soon…but the gunmans hand, and while I feel some regret to this bullet, I feel the freedom of the pain all my friends have ever tried for nothing..

Fuck them..they left me cold and darkend in my time of need..raped and beaten on the sidewalk..god how that day changed everything..goodbye I dont care, a 22 has my name on it

I can’t get this out of my head. Three weeks now and 6 months before that. When will you stop haunting me? When will this pain subside, this dependency to hear that voice that in the past so tenderly whispered my name through the deep nights? Too often i look at your photo and shriek into the pillow and wish that i had the courage like mom to slit my throat. I gave up that pain that released my feelings of frustration and feebleness for you. Now you say it doesn’t matter. What i feel doesn’t matter. All i want to feel is you, but […]

I beg to taste the feeling of death, to allow the darkness to enter my veins and freeze my blood stopping the circulation of my breath. I scream on the inside as I quietly wait for the date of my death (May 26th 2011) to come around.

I want to savor every pain emotionally and physically possible during those quiet last few moments. Just because you are alive does not mean you are fully living. In my point of view, it is the very last few seconds of your life in which you live the greatest. Those quick seconds slowly ticking your life away, you live, […]

The truth. How can I face it? The truth is, 2 years ago, i experianced my first love, and heartbreak. The truth is, that I’m in a severe depression from that because of him. The truth is, I want to change.

I want to change into someone different. Doesn’t everybody here? Doesnt everybody just want to breakfree? From all the hell we have to go through? My sibling and I got into a fight today. And today, was the worst fight ever. My sibling, shoved all of my failures, all of my nightmares in my face. It was worse hearing it, i just wanted to punch […]

meh i want to take my life right at this moment take all my pills and stab myself so i could never feel any more pain and that goes through my head everyday and i cut my self more and more deeper and depper just hoping i have taken my last cut my last hit i am on my last stand what is life with out joy life has been cruel and so have i and i regret it all but now im stood here with three bottles of aspirin and four packs of pain killers and i really want nothing but the best for […]

Making mistakes is bound to happen to everyone. No one is perfect and no will live a beautiful life. This past weekend was suppose to be a fun and stress free weekend for me and without a doubt it was up until the time I got home. That Saturday night I went my friends house to attend a random party, didn’t know the person but if I am with friends I can care less as most people would do. We all packed in a suv to head over for this party. I took advantage of having the liberty to drink so I did, little did […]

She accused me of not having any drive in life
She said that’s why she would never be my wife
Isn’t ironic, how the one thing that gave me drive and made me wanna be
Didn’t want to be with me because she saw no drive in me
“I’m saying no because people don’t really change, so you must be lying”
Says the girl who was desperately in love with me, without me even trying
“Well that’s my opinion and i’m gonna stick with it”
Well do you not think that makes you a hypocrite?
How come you can change so much that the idea […]

I haven’t heard from you in days and I tried to reach you all the time and I’m so worried about you cus i know exactly how you feel and how intense this is, you mean a lot to me, please talk to me please!!

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The first taste of death, the first overdose but not the last.

hello i am a 32 year old female, im in school and have a personal counselor who is helping me cope. i was rape at 12 years old and is now and was forever been thinking suicide thoughts for me not to do it have to be a blessing. i figure out that a lot of people will iss me and it only when i am talking about the pain in my past is when the thoughts become worst. i am depress and sad and i think im crazy. the counselor is helping me in a very good way but my mind is still mess […]

I tried to wait until the end of the next four weeks, but I cannot wait any longer. On Friday I will go. Tomorrow I will change the type of title on our house, so my boys instead of my bastard husband will inherit it. I have already made a new will, and tomorrow I will also make my boys the beneficiaries of my life insurance. Already made sure it covers suicide. Then order a bottle of helium…
It’s a very lonely place once you have made the decision. Two concerned friends called today, I didn’t completely lie, they know I am not doing well. […]

Stop feeling sorry for yourself.
Get help.

I lied so he would stay. <3

You’re just scared. Confused. And there’s nothing wrong with that. You’re only human.
So throw away those dark thoughts. Stop feeding them. Because the more you tell yourself that you’re worthless, that you can’t take anymore…the more you will start to believe it.

You’re NOT hopeless.

The end is near.

Let’s cheer…

For a life gone wrong.

I was once girl,

A smile pasted on my face.

Now I am no one,

Far from home

And all alone.

The end is near.

Let’s cheer…

For a life of pain.

The sun has shown

On my skin once soft.

Now no sun will shine

on my skin of scars.

The end is near.

Let’s cheer…

For a life of sorrow.

Make up on my eyes

To make me pretty for the day.

Now my make up bleeds down my face.

Just as my heart does.

The end is near.

Let’s cheer…

For a life no more.

As the weather warms,

Flowers begin to blossom.

But as the days grow long

The shorter my life becomes.

The end is near.

Let’s cheer…

For the […]

1. jaded

The end result of having a steady flow of negative experiences, disappointment, and unfulfillment fed into a person where they get to the point where their anger circuits just sort of burn out and they accept disillusionment.

2. Jaded

Having so much bad stuff happen to a person to the point where they feel kinda numb.

Man, I feel so bad for her. She’s so jaded.

3. jaded
emotionally numb. having been through so much pain that you simply give up and decide unconciously not to feel anymore. mental suicide.

its like she’s used up all her tears. she cryed everyday for years and then she just […]