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*SPOILER ALERT* if you didn’t watch “Black Swan” then go watch it. It’s very well done.

I watched “Black Swan” with my godsiblings over the weekend and although it’s categorized as a Thriller, I was not scared. I was actually surprised about how well the script was written and the performance was by Natalie Portman.

Long story short: it was my life.

Everything she did, was for perfection and approval of everyone. Body issues, constant practicing for perfection, inability to allow your true self free, always doing what others want you to do. Everything she went through, I go through in reality.

It’s not so […]

I feel like a liar to the world. I am emotionally destroyed and sexually uninterested. I thought I was the messiah, but I realized that it was insane thinking. Now it is hard for me to think for myself any more.

hi am 18.. i am in love with one of my school mate.. he was loving a girl before me but she dint accept him but they would pretend as lovers..but after some days he proposed i don like at 1st then started loving him.. he stopped talking with her then he was with me.. but in middle he would feel about those days of them.it ll hurt me lot but i ll be silent.. all my friends left me as i did big mistake to her.. i don know whether its wrong or not but i love him lot.. he sometimes say about her […]

what is your opinion about anti depression/anxiety pills?

all for? against? would like to hear about you experience and thoughts, specially people who’ve been taking meds for a long period.

Once again  the health system has failed me. After waiting for two years for a diagnosis for chronic pain, my operation was scheduled for this month on the 10th. But of course nothing can go right for me, so it was canceled. Awesome, right. This was supposed to stop my pain and take me off of my pain meds, which meant that the doctors could start me on my anti depressants. But now this isnt going to happen for months. I have no faith at all that i will make it that far. It has been soo hard to wait this long and my mental […]

im restless. and lonely 🙁

Sleep for me is a funny thing, I feel like i can sleep forever and never get any rest. Yet its so hard for me to fall asleep. My dreams used to haunt me, now they merely tease me, with a life i missed out on

Guys short post. You can do it. Stick with it. I know you can. Just takes time. (((HUGS)))

i am fifteen and am home by myself most of the time. my little brother is the happiest kid i know. my mom acts like a teenager and goes out all the time, leaving me and my brother home alone. and well, my dad is dead. lately ive been the most unhappy person you could probably ever meet in your life. ever. i am always having to hide how i feel. i wish i could tell my mom that i smoke weed to make myself feel better and to escape reality. but even weed hasn’t been helping my problems lately. i am alone. my friends dont […]

1,2,3,4,5,18, how many times am i going to cut, before i realise that watching my blood seep out of my arm, doesn’t solve anything ? Yes, i tell myself, you shouldn’t do this! What is wrong with you ? You’ve never done anything like this before! But the scissors just keep coming back to haunt me. 18 times, 3 times in 2011. On my legs, on my arms, hidden so no one will ask questions. Its time to stop, but once i stop, i just start again. Whether it be a week or year later, its impossible for me to move on and never go […]

that’s it. game over. there’s no one left for me, so this year i’m finally going to go through with my new year’s resolution: i’ll get a head start on 2012

Help With Depression and Suicide

Guys I want to help everyone, so I made this video… I hope it will save a life. Maybe get someone out of depression, and maybe someone can relate along the way…

If you feel the need to talk some things over, or even get help, PLEASE! EMAIL ME!!

Don’t you get it? You need to talk!

Suicide is not chosen; it happens
when pain exceeds
resources for coping with pain.

That’s all it’s about. You are not a bad person, or crazy, or weak, or flawed, because you feel suicidal. It doesn’t even mean that you really want to die – it only […]

Guys I want to help everyone, so I made this video… I hope it will save a life. Maybe get someone out of depression, and maybe someone can relate along the way…

If you feel the need to talk some things over, or even get help, PLEASE! EMAIL ME!!

Don’t you get it? You need to talk!

Suicide is not chosen; it happens
when pain exceeds
resources for coping with pain.

That’s all it’s about. You are not a bad person, or crazy, or weak, or flawed, because you feel suicidal. It doesn’t even mean that you really want to die – it only means that you have more […]

Paradise Lost – Hollywood Undead Being in my head gave me a lot of time to think; What happens after, Whats the point, Will the person even care when i do it? I am going to admit that i did smoke weed on the 12/26/10 and 1/1/10. One time created problems ( http://suicideproject.org/2011/01/i-cant-take-these-lies-no-more/ ) and the other time it helped. So i’m happy cause the second time was all i needed. Right now i’m talking to the world’s  bestes friends on Twitter. Right now all I could lose in  my life is them, and i will never let that happen. My family doesnt […]

I’m a newcomer to the site, I’m female (15 yrs.) and want to end my suffering.

You may think I’m dumb,crazy,messed up, or whatever but take a mile long walk in my shoes…

Everyone thinks I have the perfect life: cool and easy going parents, lots of friends, middle class, etc.

But in reality my life sucks.

I feel like I fail at everything I do. I’ve been getting into random fights with everyone lately, including my best friend, for no appearent reason.

Now my brother (13 yrs) has a high case of autisim. I love him to death. But I’m worried that later on, that I’ll let him down. I’m […]