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I am thinking more drastically this time. I failed twice two years ago because I was too impulsive.
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The guilt is the thing that is the worst for me. I feel so guilty for wishing for the pain to be over. so guilty for not being a better daughter, a better friend, a better sister. So guilty for not being able to make my mom’s life better. Im a waste of space. A waste of time. A waste of a being. When your so young and you start to write about death, it seems like it dooesnt matter. the m0ment will pass. But it goes on until im almost 18 and watching my clock tick down until it dies. Its so shelfish to […]
hi i to have suffering from severe depression since I was 25 years old all so i have a lerrnning and spelling disabily and naver can sleep . I will be 48 this year im planing on commit suicide some time this year as I have wanted to this for over 10 years all be so glad when my life is over and i now longer have to suffer sorry this is so long how can i do it i want my life to be over
I dont even know where to begin, all i wanna say is that im freaking out i dont know what to do anymore i just want to be dead but what i know that will kill me i cant get right now, so im stuck, stuck by myself where nobody understands, some people think they get it but they really dont i just cant take no more someone please write to me because if anyone knows how you feel and understands, its me and im here, because i dont want anyone!!!!!! to feel what i feel, feel alone and hurt and depressed and all that […]
i decided to go out last night..
everytime i decide to go out with the lads , i realize what kind of a pathetic excuse i am for a man ..
Im the guy who hugs the wall the entire night u kno? Im too fucking nervous to talk to anyone , to girls especially.. im the fella that is not looking for one nite stands , im the kind of guy that wants true love , that wants some1 to hold , and to be held, someone to protect.. i envy all of you people who write that my boyfriend or girlfriend is always there for […]
I will be 38 this year. It appears to be that there is nothing to look forward to except death. I’m suffocating from the loneliness. I don’t have the money to improve my appearance to what men want. I’m black and ugly, and stupid and nothing will ever change that. I’m getting to the end of retaining new information without losing something else. I hate being born to die. I hate that I place my self worth in the hands of others.Why do I let the marketers get to me? For now I’m chicken shit but one day I think I’ll be able to get […]
Im a 22 year old Marine looking for ways to make a suicide look like an accident. The reason behind why it has to be an accident is so my sister and her kids would be able to receive my life insurance. I’ve been to Iraq and Afghanastan and have been call upon, and have took multiple lifes. When it comes to my own life however I just can’t seem to do it. I’ve thought about a drug overdose but I don’t know if that would work because I’m in the military. There might be some kind of void in the insurance if that was the case. My other […]
i have always known that i do not belong among the living. i dont hate the world, and the world doesn’t hate me. Its the people in it that will eventually force my hand to cut deeper than ever before.
And i give up. I can’t watch all of the sorrow i create around me. I have ruined so much. I’ve used up my attempts at having a good life, being a good person. I go through the work week so numb and on the weekends i sit alone, numb, in bed. I drink till i fall asleep. and then do it again. i can’t go on with this garbage. and so i deserve death. no more pain for those around me. no more wasted time and others money. Ill live alone and die alone. goodnight.
Please someone read this and give me feedback
my name is Ciara and i am 19 yrs old, Ever since i can remember back to when i was 5yrs old my life has been one snowball effect that just keeps growing larger as the years go by. i was sexually molested by two of my cousins when i was between the age 7 and 9. i never spoke up because i thought it was okay in the sense this was the way my family showed they loved me. in a real fucked up way i allowed it because better to be negatively loved than not to be […]
im sick of everything and everyone i want to hurt myself but everythime i go to i get scared and i dont want to do i jujst wish some1 could shoot me , easy death im sick of having to pray but no outcomes god dosent seem to care anymore ever since my brother tried to commit sucideand ended up being paralysed everything seem to gets worse and never improve with my mum being so stressed and taking it out on me and im sick of it i try to put on a brave face but i cant anymore im sick of life i just […]
I feel so subdued, though I can hear my heart’s still beating but I can no longer feel a thing. My mind finally stopped wandering but my soul ceased to feel any kind of desire – everything inside of me is almost frozen and eerily still. I hardly recognized my own self, the me I know bleeds emotionally to death but now I’m just almost hollow.
The scars engraved on my wrists no longer remind me of my pain. They’re just as insignificant as my futile suicide attempt & as pointless as my life. It feels as though I’m in a buffer zone where everything is […]
fuck you all, i hate everyone.
It seems like everyone ive ever been close to or trusted has has betrayed me. My friends, my family, mom ,dad..everyone. I used to think my family was a happy family with nothing to hide, man i was wrong. It turns out just about everything i knew growing up was a lie. The person i believed to be my best friend betrayed me and Lied to me more times than i can count. I used to have love for these people i trusted and was close too. But now im just empty inside.
So after everyone i love or trusted betrayed me i Closed myself in […]
Hi, im Dan and im 14. I have suffered from chronic depression for seven years of my life and i am not sure how much more of it i can take. I have attempted suicide multiple times, and i almost hung myself just a few minutes ago. The only thing that is keeping me here is my friends….but im not sure how much longer i will be in this world with them. I just cant take this pain much longer. I hope that my friends will be able 2 forgive me for this, but i doubt it. I know killing myself is selfish but i […]
I’m just tired of experiencing the pain, guilt and hate over and over again. When will things ever be okay for me. Perhaps Death seems like a logical choice. Really though I just want the pain to stop.
imagine a young girls body in a tub filled with blood and water and the smell of alcohol and gun smoke in the air. imagine a hole in her chest where her heart should have been and words cut into her skin. words like:Â ALONE. FAKE.MISUNDERSTOOD.HATED.FORGOTTEN.ENTITY.EVERLOST. and many more. you see her long dark brown hair float along the glassy water. Her dark, almost black eyes staring back at you. asking, “why? Why did you kill me?” you know it was your fault. you knew that you venomous words and cold eyes would break her. But you didn’t know that it would kill her. […]
Do you believe humanity (or your community) is deserving of life?
Do you believe you deserve life?
Is there anything worth dying for? Why?
Are you dying for it now?
For some of you, your religion, your beliefs, give you hope. It is valid. This is not for you.
I remember loneliness so deep it was physically painful. I remember when I would hear someone talk, especially if they said something nice, the noise was deafened by the silence of its inevitable death. All possible good was nothing but a sick tease.
This is the past.
You crave the void, but you do not need to physically kill yourself yourself to touch […]
I’m only in 9th grade, yet every year of school I’ve been bullied. I respect everyone I come in contact with, yet still in the end I’m crying in my bed at night, trying to forget each day. In my mind at least, I’m a nice girl, and I’m not asking for the world to love me. Just to stop bringing so much pain, please, please, please. My eyes hurt from crying.
Im gonna skip the explanation, the pointless rant, and the self loathing because i have enough of that in my head. I’m just gonna go ahead and write a poem that i hope will let u know how i feel. Thanks for bothering to read this. That means you care more than most others. Because most others don’t know the pain of not killing yourself. And they don’t know the feeling where the dreams in which you are dying are the best you’ve ever had.
“i wish
i could read your mind
but im afraid
of what ill find
inside
its always
so much different
than the rest.