I did this, you can too.
Feeling lonely. I hate it. Sick of feeling isolated from everything.
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I Will Survive
Im 17 years old,I’m losing hope in my life. i don’t think i can hold it much longer from past 7 weeks i have been getting the idea of suicide. i screwed everything, my friends, family, relationship, my college stuff literally everything. Im indian scottish.i live in US in an international school. everyone in here dont wanna be friends with me. As i look tan colour and most of the guys in here are rich and dont like to talk to me. most of them stay away from me. even though i helped them in their times of need. they just soak me dry and leave in middle of nowhere. fortunately i […]
I really don’t know how to start this with out sounding too cliche, so excuse me for being awkward. It’s a small story. If you take anything from this story, take the lesson that you are wanted. If you quit now, there’s someone else who will be hurt. I’ve had this story bottled up inside me for a while now. Well a few months. It’s fairly recent. Â Here it goes.
So for about 4 years I’ve been talking to this boy, Zach. We met online, and of course we ended up 3 states, 660 miles away from each other. We dated a few times, but distance […]
It just occurred to me that people will read these. And people will care. Well here’s a short story of a Suicide attempt I had. I’ve never shared it, But i have mention Jake in another story, and this will revolve around him a lot. But all the feelings are coming back, I can’t handle them. It’s time to share.
It started as an innocent day. I was simply going to my best friends house. I’m pretty sure she will be reading this, so let’s call her… Hope. It’s normal for me to just walk in and yell I’m home at her house. I was accepted […]
In an earlier post of mine, I mentioned my friend Phoenix. I said he has an extraordinary story to his life. Sadly, he isn’t here to share it. He told his story once, that was to me. Honestly, it sounded like a book. I remembered every detail, and thought there would be a sequel.
He’s not here, but his story stays with me. It needs to be heard, and it’s still going on today.
To start, Phoenix never really had a real family. When he was only 8 he felt suicidal. He felt he wasn’t needed. And his only release was art, and sadly, cutting. He was […]
My anxiety is slowly pushing me over an edge that I’m not ready to go over. See, for the past week my anxiety has been driving me absolutely insane. I’ve been sitting in my room, waiting for something that isn’t going to happen. Is it good or bad? I don’t know. I don’t know what it is or what I’m waiting on but last night it hit it’s peak. I felt like I had something to do. Something important. I kept pacing across my floor, hoping I’d know what it meant. Which, finally, subsided 4 hours latter. Maybe this is a way of telling myself to try and get better? Or […]
I love you.
Gay or straight.
Woman or man.
Black or white or blue.
I love you.Â
And don’t you ever forget that.
Uhm hai.. Well I guess I should start with yes. I’ve attempted suicide. Many times. I’ve never actually talked to anyone about it, or anything’s that’s been happening. I don’t have the strength to say it to someone’s face. But the one time I did. I finally told someone… Exactly 2 weeks and 4 days ago, he committed suicide.. And I was blamed by his family for it. I wasn’t allowed to go to his funeral or say my good byes. This was honestly the love of my life.. We’ve been dating for almost 4 years. We planned our future together and everything.. But it […]
*if you want personal comments, skip to the end, if you want me to write one and I didn’t here, let me know, I’ll get around to seeing it be done at least sometime in the future.
I couldn’t. I could not leave without you all knowing what happened. I don’t want to leave here, it was a strange way to cope, but it helped me. A lot. I’ll write as many personal comments soon for as many users I can think of, (properly this time). I need to tell the truth of why I’m leaving. I’m aware this may get taken down, but I […]
I want to sleep for forever.
i feel so lonely right now. im 18, and my mom kicked me out in august. i now live with my stepgrander that actually took care of me most of my young life. i didnt even really live with my mom until i was 7. my mom was an alocolic. i was told i didnt even want to go see her. my mom,i cant get ahold of her for last few days because i want to see my sister. it hurts, she turned 7 the 8th i didnt see or hear from her. i feel that my mom is doing it on purpose so i […]
Well I don’tknow what to say or where to start, but I guess just letting it all out is a start, so here it goes. I’m a 22 year old female and at the age of 22 I never knew I would of felt the amount of pain as I have this past few years. Past few weeks all I been thinking about is sucide, why should I go on? I can barley handle the pain because of this depression its like a disease that will never go away from the feel of it. I been thinking of different ways to do it overdosing, jumping […]
To hide the pain, the feelings, the urge to slice at my own skin.
by BrooklynBoxx
written by BrooklynBoxx
IÂ sit there in the cafeteria
He sits on the floor he’s talking i cant hear him, my visions bluring black around the edges
I’m brought back because of an intense pain from my hand, my ex boyfriend yet again had bit me, i know he just flirting… that he’s only using me..
I smile laughing telling him it doesnt hurt, he doesnt realise he saved me from another embaressing seizure, he smiles biting my harder i ignore it typing on the computer with my left hand as i try to complete a school project. He lets go and we sit their for a while. I feel him bite […]
At the moment I’ve got my music blasting and I am doing art work im totally distracted From thinking about my troubles but I’m worried that as soon as I go to bed ill start thinking again or that ill have a anxiety attack again. I probably won’t be able to sleep tonight. Does anyone suffer from anxiety and if yes what is it personally like for you?
I’m done with this shit, I’m done crying because of how they view me, I’m done hiding from the mirror because i don’t want to see myself, I’m done living up to their expectations, I’m done thinking of the people who killed themselves.
I’m sick of it all, I hate being afraid, I hate being in a dark place, I hate hiding from the world because i thought I couldn’t deal with it. I’m sick of people wondering why I don’t date, because I don’t want too, I’m sick of people asking if I’m lesbian (nothings wrong with it) I just have no attraction to any human. I don’t […]
20 minutes ago I tried to get some sleep then all of a sudden I felt really worried I was that worried I felt sick then I felt really scared worried and empty all at the same time I thought I was going to pass out or something. I have never experienced anything like this. I won’t be able to sleep tonight I still feel a little scared.
Ok I’m going to just get straight into this because I’ve had all of this bottled in and I can’t find the will to tell anyone face to face which I need to learn to do. Anyway my dad has recently passed away because of cancer, it was horrible and terribly sad that in his last few months I got to see the good side of him then I had to just see him crumble away being in pain. I’ve had to say goodbye and go to his funeral. A mistake I made was when I was hurting I kept all the hurt inside I […]
do you ever feel you shouldnt feel the way you feel you feel like you done something wrong. people always say you have nothing to worry about stop being so depressed. ive been through alot and seen too much. thats about as real as it gets. i have “excuses”.some people just dont understand. walk in my shoes, go ahead. comment if you hear me.
i have quite a story i moved 10 different times always the new kid my single mom never ever had the best choice in men i never met my real dad even though he totally knew about me. it was always the same. new bf he seems nice and might be the one for her. they were always nice in the begining. i mean i was never molested or anything but it always ended the same fight hit punch and then were screwed. my mom never had a job and i felt like a burden allll the f**king time. i started cutting myself and smoked […]
Everyone has regrets, right? Some lies they told, something they did. Well here are all of mine. Please, don’t judge me. Some are past tense, some are present tense. But no matter which tense it is, I’ve never told anyone any of these.
As a child, I never once said please or thank you.
When I was little, I never told anyone anything that happened to me. I never told my mom that my father sexually abused me twice in my life.
I wish I denied the Christmas presents my teachers gave me.(I don’t celebrate Christmas)
I wish I payed more attention to what my parents taught me.
I […]