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My Suicide Note

I’ve Lost Everything

by Justanotherfaintstar 3/7/2019

written by Justanotherfaintstar

Every time I have been faced with multiple options for decisions, I have picked the wrong one. Every. Single. Time.

Ten years ago I decided to go to a school that was more expensive than my family’s socio economic status because I thought the investment would pay off and I would get a good job. I had a great experience, but everything came to a screeching halt when I graduated, was hit with my first student loan debt bill and I found myself unable to find any sort of entry level job in my field.

I made the mistake of staying in my home state, which isn’t […]

3/7/2019 1 comment

There seems to be a negative correlation

by LadyNevermore 3/2/2019

written by LadyNevermore

This note is just a formality. I know damn well most people won’t care that I’m gone, or why I’m gone. But leaving without an explanation is still sort of a dick move, and I guess I don’t want the last thing I ever do to be a dick move.

Well, what can I say really? Just that there’s an obvious negative correlation between how much someone knows about me and how much they want me around. Sure, I might seem OK at first. But I’m anything but OK. I’m awkward. I’m stupid. I’m oblivious. I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to come off as rude. I […]

3/2/2019 6 comments

Is it wrong

by Jojogram 2/10/2019

written by Jojogram

Is it wrong for me to think that people should commit suicide ..? I’m most definitely not for it as I have seen the difference it can make in a life. But … Have you ever put yourself in someone else’s shoes and just thought “Damn … It would be so much easier … Plus I’m not afraid of death… People should be more welcoming of it rather than afraid … But then again they have lived all their lives living it … So something different might nno be as good”

Idk … I’m just drinking here, laying down wirhaw life full of unaccomplished achievements right […]

2/10/2019 5 comments

He’s waiting for me.

by See you soon Dad 2/1/2019

written by See you soon Dad

Just said goodbye to my dad a few hours ago, he was all I had left. The MS finally took him, I’ve got a loaded gun on my dining table waiting for me.

Always make time for your family everyone because you’ll regret it otherwise.

Anyway yeah not the best final words but it’s something.

Bye

2/1/2019 6 comments

What is BAD LUCK

by Itscolourlife 1/26/2019

written by Itscolourlife

I want to drag you in
Deep inside me
Deep inside the blackhole with me
I want you to know my sadness my sorrow my darkness
But in the end I cant tell you

You have problem too
I know mine is so much more
But I cant give you more sadness more sorrow more darkness

When you said you bring bad luck to people around you
How can I say that Im not alright
How can I say that I have depression
When you are just my best friend

When you said about your best friend death
When you said your ex gf have cancer

How can I […]

1/26/2019 0 comment

Goodbye

by The Not-Goth 1/20/2019

written by The Not-Goth

This is it. I feel it. Now is the time.

Good luck to you all. Much empathy. I love you all.

Goodbye.

1/20/2019 5 comments

I’m sorry but I have to go.

by n.retro_waver 1/18/2019

written by n.retro_waver

I’m not sure how things will turn out. I’m not sure if people who know me will see this. But I’ll just leave this here, just in case…

*** *** ***

Hi all.

I’m really sorry.

The last few months.. No.. the last few years have been extremely difficult for me. I’ve been sick on and off. I was left without any idea of what to do. My options were gone, dashed with the end of art classes and painting. I couldn’t try and force myself into the resto+bakeshop seeing that things had changed so much from when I was there that it was dizzying just to try and keep up. […]

1/18/2019 2 comments

Sick.

by strawberrycrown 1/14/2019

written by strawberrycrown

I’m sick. What am I sick of? Sick of living a life that brings me very little joy. I honestly don’t know why I put in any effort toward anything anymore because it is useless. I think I need to get it through my thick fucking head that I’m fucking miserable and theres nothing and nobody who can fucking change that. I would say excuse the language but I’m done. I’m sick of all the bullshit I call a “life”.

1/14/2019 4 comments

My Farewell Letters To Myself

by CheRup 1/4/2019

written by CheRup

I have an application on my phone called the Luna Diary. That is where I write what I’m feeling today, but it’s not like any ordinary diaries where you will read what happened today and the extraordinary revelations that happened in the current time. What I actually write in there are my suicide notes from every time I am having an episode. Similar to today, I am currently experiencing one while writing this description. Since my phone is broken, I’ll just have to make this as my temporary Luna app. I guess no one will even take notice to this anyway. (There is an audio […]

1/4/2019 2 comments

This is it

by anonymousbuthere 1/3/2019

written by anonymousbuthere

Goodbye, world.

1/3/2019 8 comments

Sorry, Goodbye

by anonymousbuthere 1/3/2019

written by anonymousbuthere

I have a good life. I have parents, siblings, God, friends and love. But… I’m empty. I’m selfish. I try to pretend to be humble, but at the end of the day, I’m just trying to stand out. And I hate it. I’m inflicting pain on those who try to care for me. I give them troubles and tribulations. It’s not fair. I’m sorry; it’s all my fault. But everything will be ok now. Thank you for doing things that I never will deserve. Sorry for being weak, pathetic, anxious, self-absorbed, narcissistic, and pretentious. I love you endlessly. Sorry for being this way.

1/3/2019 0 comment

I really needed to vent before I take the leap tonight. And yes, all of the info below is quite true.

by BLUE EYED BLOND 1/1/2019

written by BLUE EYED BLOND

Birthday is 12/30/75. I’m 5’0″, giant blue eyes, with long blonde hair…I had major back surgery, so I now have screws, plates and nuts drilled into my lumbar spine. I don’t sleep, I barely eat, I can’t work–I can only stand, sit or lay down for very short periods of time. I am suddenly homeless, I have no family or friends, I have zero income because I’m waiting for social security disability and cannot work. I have no medical insurance, so I am currently off all my mental health meds.(6 of them).I have major depressive disorder, severe anxiety disorder, agoraphobia, and panic disorder. I suffer […]

1/1/2019 10 comments

My Time to Go

by Ready.able 12/22/2018

written by Ready.able

My last wish before going was to show I have some worth by getting straight A’s this semester. It’s pointless cause academically I’m screwed and have no future career I wish to pursue. Anyways, I’ve accomplished my final task and it feels great. It’s comforting knowing I was able to do something right with my stubborn determination even if it’s something small.

Now that that’s out of the way I just have to get through these last few weeks. It’s like a light at the end of a tunnel. I’ll be able to escape all of my problems and the crappy life that came with it. […]

12/22/2018 8 comments

End it

by Itscolourlife 12/8/2018

written by Itscolourlife

Im sick and tired
At times like this i miss you
I miss you so much

I collect all the pieces
Trying to make it into a nice picture
But its too sharp
But maybe not
Its just sharp for me

I want to be hurt by myself
I donr want to drag you in it
You have such a bright future
So you dont deserve person like me

I should end it
End it
End it
End it
End it

Its going to be my last time
When i meet you
I want to say
You know actually you are cool
And handsome when you are focused
And […]

12/8/2018 2 comments

Good Bye.

by AKidWithAName 12/4/2018

written by AKidWithAName

I have no excuse to stay alive anymore. I’ve lost the one person who meant something to me. I don’t have anyone else to fall back on. It’s my own fault for allowing myself to believe that I would actually get better. I can’t feel anything anymore. Everything is more fucked than usual. There’s no reason for me to put off doing it anymore. I think this might be a good bye. I wish the best for everyone.

12/4/2018 6 comments

Selfish.

by AKidWithAName 12/2/2018

written by AKidWithAName

I’m so confused. I don’t know what I’m supposed to do. I don’t know where I stand with anyone anymore. I keep fucking everything up for everyone. My brain’s so fucked and I don’t know why. Maybe I do. I don’t know. I don’t know if my parents actually care about me.

They used to beat the shit out of me. They don’t seem to really remember that. I don’t think they understood just how bad they hurt me when they did what they did. I’m sure they’d think I was a ***** if I ever told them that “they hurt my feelings”, which sounds so […]

12/2/2018 3 comments

I step out.. but my body keep trembling

by Itscolourlife 12/1/2018

written by Itscolourlife

I step out today
I finally step out today !!
It feels really weird..

I sit in the foodcourt balcony
And i can see people below me
Eating laughing crying

But i feel weird
My body keep trembling on its own..
Its like a nervous feeling
But idk what exactly..
My heart feels like im riding a scary rollercoaster
Its beating fast

My head start to hurt a little bit
My stomach feels weird

What is this??
WHAT IS THIS??

It feels so wrong
I try to take a deep breath..
But it wont disappear..

What is this…
Does anyone who have depression ever feel like this too?

12/1/2018 3 comments

“What is your dream..?” he asked

by Itscolourlife 11/30/2018

written by Itscolourlife

When he ask me
” What is your dream..? ”
I keep silence

And he said
” I just want to live right now.. at least ”
I keep silence

And when I finally say my thought
I say..
” Nothing ”

The time keep going for him
But the time already stop for me

I really want to say this
To you..
To the world..

” I want to fly and die beautifully surrounding by flower petals ”

It will be an unreachable dream
And like a gift
For me..

To you..
To whose birthday is 2 Dec
I dont want to hurt you
For the sake of the first love […]

11/30/2018 0 comment

A Hat in Time

by Itscolourlife 11/28/2018

written by Itscolourlife

I step out..
Im trying to step out today..
In my heart
I feel the burden
I feel sick
Thats why I want to step out
Finding the reason why Im still alive

No one there
For me.. so..
I step back
I open the door
With hesitation I lock it

Its okay
Im telling myself
Its okay
Im trying to smile
Smile
Instead the tears drop

Im asking
Why Im still here
Dying is so hard to do
Living is so hard to do
I realize
Im just leftover
Wilting by myself
Deep in the sea
Out of this world
Craving to breath the happy life

I crawl […]

11/28/2018 0 comment

It’s About Damn Time to Say Goodbye

by Hiccup 11/26/2018

written by Hiccup

For as long as I can remember, I’ve hated myself. I feel stupid and worthless, like I have no real place in this world. There’s something wrong with me because I always struggle so much to know what to say. I’m pathetic, too much of a coward to stand up for what I believe in and so unmotivated I won’t amount to anything. I’m so ashamed of myself, I’m nothing more than a bad mistake. Instead of continuing to be a mistake, I’ll go ahead and do something I should have done a long time ago: end my stupid existence. This will do so many […]

11/26/2018 8 comments

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