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I Know This Isn’t Normal

by OnePeacefulDisaster 1/21/2016

written by OnePeacefulDisaster

I know that what I’m feeling isn’t normal anymore. I look around and all I see are happy face in such an unfamiliar town. I desperately want to go home, but I don’t want to disappoint my parents just because I felt unhappy. I hear laughter,gossip, and everyone going out and having a great time. Everyone says college is suppose to be exciting, fun, full of endless friendships and adventure. So far all it’s been for me is crying, sadness, and an overwhelming feeling to be home.

I’ve caved into my depression when I’m here at school, I welcome it like the only friend I have. […]

1/21/2016 4 comments

Assisted suicide

by NiDDA 1/21/2016

written by NiDDA

I had a conversation today that inspired this post.

Imagine the sick people who need organs to survive, they WANT to survive, they WANT to LIVE. If they had a method, I mean doctors, to kill patients without damaging the needed body parts or organs, they could give them to the sick, they could give them their desired LIFE. Instead of this they let people die from hanging, ODing etc. MISERABLY and MEANINGLESSLY. I know that there are certain states of mind when some can’t tell the difference between reality and their own imagination, but then leave those out of this chance. There are a shitload […]

1/21/2016 10 comments

I made a mistake

by Lawli 1/20/2016

written by Lawli

So tonight I was bored and everyone on a forums I hang out on was logged of so I went down to our living room and sat with my parents; that was the mistake.

The result was my Dad being sexist and complaining and dissing people constantly, both parent complaining and looking down on me and my brother. They both started lecturing us and they never say anything good about anyone. My head ended up getting messed up and I started to panic so I left, trying to act casual. I felt so stuffed after that I ended up cutting myself and even more than usual, […]

1/20/2016 3 comments

It’s 5am again

by Dungeon 1/19/2016

written by Dungeon

It’s 5am , don’t want to sleep. My life is a jungle I shouldn’t have traversed and I’m stuck in the quicksand of my own errors. Things will not change for me. I will eventually be swallowed and surrounded by warm shadows. I want nothing, I want to be nothing. There’s almost nothing left of me. I switch from being numb to being in pain until once again I feel nothing, a maelstrom that I will never escape. Maybe it’s time I got off this ride.
There may be no doors for this Dungeon, but there’s still a way out.

1/19/2016 0 comment

How Crazy Am I?

by conflictedcollegekid 1/18/2016

written by conflictedcollegekid

I need to know how crazy I am. I cut, burn, choke myself, abuse prescription and over the counter pills, and sometimes drive with my eyes closed to see if anything will happen. Sometimes I don’t think any of this is a big deal. I’ve grown to live like this almost constantly for the past year. Other times, I find myself sobbing, wondering what I’ve become. Is this a lot of self harm compared with others? I don’t know where I stand compared with other self harmers/suicide contemplators. I don’t know if I’m alone in this level of self hatred, or if there are others […]

1/18/2016 8 comments

Unbearable Loneliness

by GerbzBaby 1/16/2016

written by GerbzBaby

Everyday is the same never f*cking ending routine. I get up, eat, go to work, come home and lay around until my body succumbs to drowsiness. I do nothing in my free time anymore. My passion for art is completely dead and my friends never invite me to do anything. They don’t text me or even come close to asking if they want to hang out with a loser like me. I feel alone. I feel uncared for. I feel unappreciated. I’m rotting from the inside out. Why the hell was i born if I was meant to suffer? If I was meant to hate […]

1/16/2016 3 comments

Dying inside

by endlessregret 1/16/2016

written by endlessregret

I’m going to kill myself. The world would be better without me. Who would miss me? I could count the people on one hand? Suicide is not selfish. It is in fact selfish of the people around me to not let me let kill myself. I should have done this years ago. I live alone. It would take days for anyone to notice. No one would check. He wouldn’t give two shits. He’s moved on. You were unimportant to him. You really are unimportant to several people. The only people who might care are mom and dad. Everyone else will move on. That’s what people […]

1/16/2016 5 comments

They say….

by nonexistingsoul 1/15/2016

written by nonexistingsoul

“Hang in there” they say. “It will be alright” they say. “be positive” they say. “Talk to god” they say. “Don’t be so over dramatic” they say. “You’ll get through this” they say.

“I’m through” I say. “Enough” I say. “I don’t want it anymore” I say. “I can’t take it anymore” I say. “I’m done” I say….

1/15/2016 2 comments

Ruined..

by nonexistingsoul 1/15/2016

written by nonexistingsoul

You people ruined me… and I let myself be ruined….

1/15/2016 2 comments

I feel like a robot…

by Lawli 1/15/2016

written by Lawli

It feels like my depression isn’t as bad, but it’s only because I feel so emotionless now. I can barley have a conversation with someone, I’m not interested in having a conversation with anyone. My mind feels blank but my head is full.

I have been like this for a couple of days. I have been depressed for a long time but now I finally feel so empty, a lot of the time I’m just staring mid air thinking about nothing. I have no interest in anything and most things just seem boring to me now. I just feel so hopeless, purposeless, like nothing.

1/15/2016 5 comments

Not enough

by anotherperson 1/14/2016

written by anotherperson

So it has been awhile since i was last on here. I found someone who made me forget about my shit life and for awhile i forgot about wanting to end my life. I have been through some messed up stuff but i have always put on a smile and played my role as the good daughter, the dependable best friend, the happy coworker, etc. But this person i fell in love with broke all of those masks. I cant hide behind anything anymore. I cant pretend that i give a shit about anything any more. Why would he want me? Im no good for […]

1/14/2016 2 comments

All Alone

by CasPeR-3z8ed 1/14/2016

written by CasPeR-3z8ed

So many things that should probably be said;

I don’t even know where to begin; and, i’m just really not the type to dwell…But nonetheless they need be.

Maybe i’m just to stupid to; not… to; dwell. (Anyway, how’r all you stars?)…*Dizzy ;{P

You know? I used to want to be in the military…but now, all my naive suppositions are more or less confirmed… and this capitalism shit is kind of resonating as well…(there’s just a level of living that people need to go on) With this and that, I’ve never been against hard work, I’ve just always come to the point that it never pays off…(Never learned from […]

1/14/2016 2 comments

zx

by Dungeon 1/14/2016

written by Dungeon

I never want to leave my house but I can’t stand being here. I am a living contradiction. I don’t know who I am anymore. I’m constantly dreaming that I get some lucky break and will be able to live my life one way or another but I’m not delusional, I obviously know that can’t and won’t happen. I know it’s my fault and I should’ve just done what needed to be done, but I don’t want to live in the first place the only reason I’m alive is so I don’t hurt my family. But now I’m just a disaster to them. I hate […]

1/14/2016 9 comments

Early morning rant.

by Still wandering 1/13/2016

written by Still wandering

It’s 4.15 am. Had horrible nightmares and awake since then. It’s been hours and it’s been years. I can’t sleep properly.

I won’t say all 365 days are like this. I guess, I have okayiesh days also, I won’t say good or wonderful because 2015 was the wrost year of my life.

I was a failure in 2015 at many tasks, two of them were, giving lot of happiness to my soul mate and ending this miseryful life. But I guess these two tasks can’t be completed at once. I failed lots of times at killing myself. In 2015 I was too close to finish the task […]

1/13/2016 7 comments

Just done.

by SkareKrow 1/12/2016

written by SkareKrow

I was just delt a bad hand where everything is a struggle for me. I just don’t see the good in life. I trained myself cognitive behaviors and programmed myself to continue to thrive to be productive against my own negative thinking. I have excelled in going outside my box but It’s so exhausting and Im still not happy. Still not any further than I was. There’s nothing wrong with me hating life as long as I’m productive in society. That’s what all the doctors preach right? I’m done pretending, I’m done putting up a fake face. I just want to be in a room […]

1/12/2016 3 comments

Shame

by nextime1988 1/11/2016

written by nextime1988

It started a few years ago when all my friends were graduating, getting their first jobs, or starting a Master Degrees. And where was i??

Well 4 years into something i should have finished in 3 i still had half of my subjects to finish, it ended up taking 3 more years ( 7 total) to do so.

I started to taking side toutoring classes for some subjects and which made me feel guilty because those services are not cheap and i was putting even more wight on my parent’s shoulders.

With all this i felt so ashamed i didn’t want to show my face around, i started […]

1/11/2016 3 comments

I hate my life

by chrixtivn 1/11/2016

written by chrixtivn

Every time I try to do things right something comes up. I take 2 steps forward and 4 backwards like literally. My love life is horrible I got played and used so many times it’s not even funny. My hospital bills and student loans are ridiculous and I didn’t even get to finish school. All I ever wanted is to be happy I’m 25 and I haven’t yet to be happy.

1/11/2016 2 comments

Sick and tired of loving someone…

by ppprx 1/9/2016

written by ppprx

She’s the reason why I’m happy and at the same time she’s also the reason why I get depressed. She inspires me to do my best in everything and at the same time she’s the reason why I feel uninspired to do anything. I know it sounds weird.

I feel like I’m a third wheel to a relationship that should obviously work out and yet nothing’s happening. I’m stuck to be some girl’s friend while she and my guy friend are all head over heels each other but they aren’t even together. It fucking sucks to think that since they aren’t even together, what I should […]

1/9/2016 5 comments

Hopeless

by suicideroom 1/9/2016

written by suicideroom

Let me start from the beginning. (I’m now revising this and this definitely did not go in the order I thought it would)
I don’t want to reveal my identity too much so i’ll play this safe and call myself Kai.
I’m seventeen years old, eighteen in March. I’m a transgender boy (born female) and i’m gay. My mom’s side of the family is one of the biggest group of unsupportive close minded people you will ever meet. Ever since I was young, I knew i felt different than my siblings and cousins. My family tries to look like your average apple pie and a […]

1/9/2016 5 comments

I don’t know

by Misfit27 1/9/2016

written by Misfit27

Uhhh, hey. Been a while since I posted here. I’ve been reading alot on SP though. I’ve decided to make a post now because I did say to Shepard I would try and be more active. Beware, if you’re reading this, it will likely be quite a lengthy post.

Well, as I type this, my family and I are currently driving towards Christchurch (city in New Zealand). Surprisingly, I’ve enjoyed the drive. It’s been good to get out and go somewhere this holidays, because so far, all I’ve done is work, play video games and hate myself. How exciting.

There’s actually something I really did want to […]

1/9/2016 2 comments

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