Rants

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more_hate_life

October 20th, 2009by katherineendsitnow

Today I called my college and dropped out of one of my classes. I talked with my parents about this and they fully support my decision. After my dad and I talked about this, he took me off to the side and told me, “You seem to be going down hill again… Do you want to talk about it?”
I said, “No. You just wouldn’t understand.”
Then my dad said, “Please talk to me Katie.”
I turned and look at him and said, “Justin (my boyfriend of 7years) and I are on a …

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No More

October 13th, 2009by steveagain

I saw her today. It sparked too much. I’m going to die tonight.

If not tonight, then tomorrow night. Or the night after. But I’m killing myself. With rope.

My story will never be finished now and I have her to blame for it.

Don’t try, people. Just don’t.

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Diana

September 27th, 2009by erased_orion

You asked me once if my wounds healed.

They do, but only on the outside. I wonder if you’ve realized that on your own. I can’t find it in me to tell you that, and i don’t know why.

I would like them to, really. I want to stop…but i can’t do it on my own. I guess it’s because i’m such a weakling, huh?

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It Doesn’t Make Sense

September 11th, 2009by steveagain2

How is it that couples can be so freaking happy while I’m all alone?

I see everyone with someone else. And they’re so happy. And they don’t even care that I’m not.

I sound like I’m 13 going through teen angst, I know, but this is ridiculous. I’ll never find love, I know that. I’ve known that for a while now. But why can’t they stop and see how much that fact is killing me?

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Someone help me

September 3rd, 2009by TJ

Okay, so I’m starting a new thread because I was hijacking someone elses with my problems and that’s not fair at all, I feel really bad about doing that. I’m sorry.

I basically wrote my story in a comment so I’ll just paste it here and explain a little more.

Such a long story.. I was so desperate last night. I still am and I don’t know what to do. I’m 20 years old, still living at home and I don’t have a job. My biological dad killed himself as did my uncle, we were very close. My mom, who has been married to another man for …

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I probably can take it… I just don’t want to

September 2nd, 2009by lostforlife

I am a shy eighteen year old girl, and have been a victim of bullying for the past nine years.

It first started when I was in the 5th grade and had moved to a new school.  I was allocated a new friend to help me find my feet, but instead I had someone who would emotionally abuse me for the next three years.  I told my mom in the 7th grade – she said she was mad at my “friend”, but she never did anything about it.  All she could say was, “It’s a phase; it’ll pass.”  I never told her about the other girl …

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Financial Loss Causes Much Grief

September 1st, 2009by Jason80

After a few months I grew tired of feeling sorry for myself so I started developing a website to help myself keep busy in my spare time, but to also inform others of the dangers of spending money foolishly without thinking. Econochristian.com is my website. As you can see, I somehow discovered a path to religion when all of humanity seemed to have failed me. I guess this happens quite often, but it does help to rely on a religion with many followers to help you get back on your feet.

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I’m so alone

August 31st, 2009by whitbread

I am depressed and sad and I’ve tried everything, and I don’t think I can go on. I have tried meds, therapy, doctors, yoga, everything. i get thirty seconds of peace each morning immediately after I wake. Then it’s like someone turns on the radio in my head and it’s a constant rant of hopelessness and hurt. 

One of the frustrating parts is hardly anybody knows the truth, and I have nobody to talk to.  My dad was a world champion sales rep because he was a true expert in how to make people feel good and feel comfortable. He was born with the touch. I learned it from him. I am also an expert at …

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August 31st, 2009by liveinlight

this is to hard . why make it so difficult

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Endless Future

August 27th, 2009by Thexter

I don’t really believe my story is one of suicide. It’s more a story of depression, if it’s even that. I don’t really know what I feel most of the time, and I tend to revert to sadness. Often I find myself pondering reasons I have to be sad.

I have never been beaten by my parents, never been horribly embarrased by my peers, I have friends who I hang out with consistently, I have a good job, I am a smart young man, I have tutors in life, I have good health. So really there is no reason to be sad, right?

If that is true …

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This is it.

August 27th, 2009by peterjames711

I’ve had it with life. I’ve tried and tried to make it work but time and time again, it’s failed me. It’s taken me almost 6 years to graduate college, I have A.d.d, I have a father whom is almost never around and when he is, he’s nothing more than an arrogant asshole. He thinks he can just buy my affection because he’s an executive. Well he’s wrong. My mother suffers from a severe anxiety disorder and is constantly taking it out on me and my sisters. I am broke with no job, no girlfriend. My 17yr old sister has more money than I do …

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Crazy.

August 25th, 2009by courtney.

I know I’m going to end up doing it one day. I always find a reason to wait, seems the longer I wait the more crazy I become. I feel completely fucked in the head. Always having internal battles with myself. Feeling so happy and normal one day to going into a comatose state the next day. If anything I wish I could just be numb.neutral.

Anything but crazy.

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I’m Not Perfect

August 20th, 2009by stormeynight

I’m not perfect and I’m the first one to say that. I cry when people don’t look and I always end up falling in love with people only to be told in a mild sense that I don’t deserve them. It’s always the same. Yes I am 23 and I have never been kissed by a guy or told that they love me or anything because everytime I try to get close to them. I get talked badly about like I AM NOT supposed to love anyone ever. I’m a *****, I’m a whore skank slut whatever. In a way I’m at fault. I lock …

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It’s been a while…

August 17th, 2009by erased_orion

It’s been a while since i’ve been here….i wonder if that’s a good thing or not. Still, im glad there’s some place i can vent all of this.

Really, i don’t know what’s wrong with me. I want there to be a name for this feeling…Im not sure what i should do next.

I still cut. I don’t know why they just set it aside….im trying to ask for help, really i am. It took a lot for me to take that step and ask, but all they did is ignore it and act like it doesnt matter if i disappeared from the face of the planet. …

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At least here noone actually knows me..

August 15th, 2009by Spinni

[I WARN YOU NOW THIS IS LONG]

I’ll explain the tite in a minute. I’ve researched about suicide, understood all the facts. Yet I’m a hypocryte. I apoligise for that but here’s how I am: I’ll use as much logic and try to keep polite to get my point across if I’m trying to make or keep someone reletivy happy. But when it comes to myself. I can’t help but be as pesstimistic as possible.

Now about the title- One thing I heard that helps is getting your problems out. But I don’t trust some people and others I don’t want to worry. So I post it …

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Parasites

August 15th, 2009by disconnect

Humanity and civilization are complete parasites. Little viruses destroying the Earth. I can’t live in this world.  I can’t find any sort of “reason” or “goal” to live. To make money? To work and slave to “live”? To repeat everything, over and over in the same boring routine. I hurt everyone I love. Everyone leaves everyone, no point in even starting to get to know someone. Everything will ALWAYS fall apart. And i see no matter to living to be consistenetly dissatisfied and hurt. Living a life miserably is no way to live.

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Rejected.

August 11th, 2009by Jess66

I feel rejected. The other night I got into a huge fight with my parents, they were screaming about how they have known I “have problems” for 3 years now and then kicked me out (I don’t have a car) so they told me to go walk, I walked to the streets for two hours and alone and crying, because I felt like they didn’t love me. And it sucks becuase I didn’t have any one else to tell who I felt would give a shit. But there’s one person whom is so extremely nice and caring but, I hate burdening them with my problems all …

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it will never be OK…

August 11th, 2009by neverbeok

It will never be ok…

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dead end

August 8th, 2009by cocoabean15

my life is over. i want it to be over. i know that im not alone in all of this but no one understands. i hate having to go to bed at night wondering if ill get raped or if my nightmares will come back. i hate looking at myself in the mirror; looking at all the cuts and bruises. im tired of harming myself, but it feels so good. its the only thing i feel yet im tired of feeling it. i cant wait until this feeling passes. but that means ill be dead. maybe God will forgive me or an angel will catch …

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It’s the bills

August 6th, 2009by KJ

If I could just make some progress on my bills.  I’m an homest man I never stiff anyone, but since I lost my job two years ago I’ve had to live on a small pension, (thank God for that) and I just slip farther behind.  I’m 55.  I’ll never be able to pay them off.  I hide the hurt from everyone but sometimes it comes back so badly that it’s almost unbearable.  I never, ever,  thought that at this stage of my life when I should be looking forward to my “golden years”, I’m instead living in a rented apartment, struggling to get by, with …

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