I guess I thought going back to school was going to make me feel better. I thought it’d make my depression and anxiety go away and I’d be instantly better..but it didn’t. I’m still depressed and miserable, I still feel useless. I just want to be gone. The things that made me happy don’t even make me happy anymore. They’re just nice distractions, because when I really think about it, I’m not happy. I literally have no one. I just feel like a burden to my family. I know, there’s people on here that’s problems are far more worse than my own, and even now […]
Rants
Stick and Stones are hard on bones when thrown with an angry heart, words can sting like anything but silence breaks the heart…
        My Name is Sean Shadoes, then I was eleven I was sent to a place called Wasatch canyon rehab after attempting suicide, I had cuts on my arms and legs and a gun shot wound through my chest
         When I was Ten my life became hard to control, I felt that I had no other options but to get away, people (including my Parents) told me that I was worthless and unnecessary and I believed them and acted upon the thought that I didn’t matter and was worthless and unnecessary, I never talked unless spoken […]
All my life I’ve always put up a front. Its become my defense mechanism. I can’t bare the real me. Everyone knows me as the happy, hyper girl who’s kind to everyone, and always has the right advice for any situation. I don’t know exactly when i started cutting, but it started as a ploy to catch my parents attention; show them how much i was really suffering. I was adopted, my birth mom was a drug addict and she drank and did drugs while pregnant with both me and my sister. My birth dad abused me. I have 2 siblings I’ve never met. My […]
I just want to die. I don’t care about life.
Heartbreak hurts. It’s the worst feeling in the world. Whenever I feel scared or embarassed I just want to run to my ex but she doesn’t love me so I hide. Today something embarassing happened and I wanted her to make me feel ok, but I can’t.
Everyone says that I should just move on an find someone else. I want to but I don’t, I want her to love me and be with me but I don’t want to feel the pain anymore. I just want to let it go.
Like I said, I […]
http://www.youtube.com/user/OnisionSpeaks?feature=watch
He has some pretty good videos on reasons for people to live.
Especially geared towards the younger generation. Was listening to one of the many ASMR videos I enjoy and one of the posters had a video that asked the question of do people want to live forever.
This guy was cross referenced in the side panel. I thought that it may help some people on this site. He puts a light side to things.
or it certainly seems and feels like I will.
I have had mental health problems for years now and I have always actively tried to help myself. I have always sought help and have been medicated for a long time. I think it was hard because I was never ill enough for it to be noticed by anyone but ill enough for it to interfere with my life daily.
I just hate myself. Every time I close my eyes, my mind is screaming for me to end it. I just cant do it any more and I have no other choice. I have never visualised myself being […]
This only applies to my own perception and not to anyone else’s. Do not want to be accused of trying to play the should game.
Seems everything is built around taking suffering and moving on. And those who choose not to are referred to as weak. I disagree. Sometimes people just get tired of the pain and the pleasure that does come is not enough.
No positive thinking or positive action will save one from all malevolence, and as ridiculous as that may sound to many people, I’d prefer a life free from any trouble.
Most trouble has no point and the ones that teach lessons are only […]
i suffer from depression and lately i don’t know whats wrong with me but ive been so emotional and sometimes i think it would be better if i wasn’t here anymore. I have friends and everything but sometimes they dont seem like friends if that makes sense maybe im over reacting but i feel alone and i have no one to talk to so i geuss im just venting. I miss someone i was close with she not long ago passed away and all the time i wish it was me instead of her why am i here and why do the good people always […]
I’m only 13, but I’m smart enough to see the truth. The world has gone to shit, and there’s nothing I can do about it.
My life has been one big downhill fall. I don’t mean to sound whiney or “emo”, but I can’t help it. I completely seclude myself, so I don’t have to deal with the idiots of the world. Homeschool is stressing me out, but I’m terrified to go to normal school. I pick my nails and skin, and continue because the pain is the only feeling I ever have other than apathy and melancholy. My parents don’t understand, my brother doesn’t […]
I always think back to when I tried to kill myself last year, OD-ing, and now I really wish I did it. Here’s some reasons why.
1. My family would finally wake up and face reality that everything is NOT “alright”
2. I would be in a better place than alive and my friends wouldn’t care
3. I wouldn’t always have my suicidal thoughts or this “illness”
4. People would actually think about me
5. At least one person would remember me
After thinking about that, I think of other reasons to why I’m alive.
1. My family sometimes cares enough about me to actually remember me from time to time.
2. Â I […]
I don’t know what to do, when my ex and I were still together, she told me that i was a liar… How could I be if I had never spoken untrue words. When I thought telling her a certain something, no matter the consequences. I still told her faithfully. I was over at a friends house, whom my ex didn’t trust around me only because she thought that I would cheat on her, I still told her where I was. And once she told me that she was furious with me. I walked to her house, in my worst allergy, the Sun. Through out […]
hi so this is my frist time posting somthing…u have no idea how relieved i am to realize im not the only one :)…this week just well sucked is the only pg word i can think of. I love drama, random fact. Not the dumb guy high school crap drama but threater being on stage being able to be someone else if only for a second. It was my escape my happy place. Im a senior and i was in drama my freshman and sophmore yr…then ididnt get into 3rd yr..our final was our play, ironicly i played a dead woman(of natural causes). 3 people […]
i am a mixed raced 16 year old, who is handsome good hearted popular everything a teenager would want i have. i have allways been a happy child allways smiling allways making people laff and just being a burst of energy. but for the past 4 months i have been sad feeling alone and stressed like and outcast anything people say effects me people are allways judging me, and thinking i am something i am not i never get taken seriously, anything i say i want to be people laff and tell me i will never be i allways to dumb to fat to different and i am sick of […]
No not at the self harming but what happens if i die. I’m always afraid i might regret it after it’s already been done. I’m afraid i’m going to hurt people but then again, i don’t think anyone cares. I try my best to get rid of these horrible thoughts but at the end of the day i always realized it’s going to flood my mind and i’m afraid that one of these days i might actually do it. Sorry if it’s not a story but i just felt the need to get that out.
So…I’m 20 year old girl who is feeling like a loser for her whole life.
I fail at college which my parents and I pay a lot of money for. I just don’t feel like studying. Even when I find the will to do that, it disappears quickly and rarely returns. Â I find studying boring and unefficient. I fail at being a college student.
This is just what was been worrying me recently. My whole life is some kind of a sick joke someone got me into and I have the feeling that everyone around me laugh at me behind my back. I’m just miserable.
So I think […]
I’m not sure if I don’t want to kill myself because I finally have a better life, for right now, or if I’m just to numb to feel sorry for myself.
For my art class I had to paint something with emotion… It took me about two days to think of something to paint since I’m almost completely emotionless.
In every painting I have it has a heart somewhere incorporated in it. I’m not sure why but I always paint hearts. I guess it’s because I’m always looking for love. I don’t know, I just always feel empty, like I’m missing something. I’ve never had this feeling before, not […]
Death, Just one simple word that can change everything.
I clearly have no idea what is wrong with me. I have been diagnosed with severe anxiety disorder and adjustment disorder..slightly bipolar on the side. What is wrong with me? I am 25, a loving family and boyfriend, but it always feels that I am lacking something on the inside. Why is it?
My family is very close knit. Very orthodox in some issues and very protective, which i think is good to some point. My relationship with my boyfriend [of 5 years] is somehow confusing. Though he keeps telling me he loves me, he also keeps on blaming me for everything wrong with his life, […]