Rants

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i finally cried

  March 17th, 2011 by pshychotic_lette

Today i finally cried…………………..

Today i sat in a stall in the girls bathroom and cried, but i also raked my finger nails across my left wrist. It felt good but i dont think it helped but yes i did feel better for once i didnt draw blood which was a good thing for me. it felt good t finally cry, and even better when no one asked questions, becasue usually someone with tear stained cheeks draws some attention. i feel better though…….

and my best friend forgave me and i am truly glad!!!

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if i say i wont give up will you believe me?

  March 17th, 2011 by pshychotic_lette

I thought I have heard it all and seen it all. I hate my life sometimes, and I hate my family. But sometimes it is hard to say this.

Many times when I’m ready to give up, I tell my friends that I won’t even though they know it as well as I do that it’s a bold faced lie. When things get bad I always want to give up. But my friends try to encourage me to keep going. But even when the going gets tough, I’m always ready to throw in the towel.  How can I keep this up before I completely lose …

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1

Hell I am there

  March 17th, 2011 by Lost_Again

O god..I am there, thank you for finally giving me the courage..I have been wanting to do this for so long, welcome any pain then this one..A gay diabetic..20 years old..and yet to old to be raped, held a dying friend, beaten by my so called loved ones..Well this curse will be my savior as it plunges into my blood to release me of this..

Im so angry and so full of this..I HATE YOU, that goes to all my so called friend who laughed when I was rapped for being where I wasnt suppose to..my fault I guess..w/e…when he broke my arm the man who …

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i dont know why…:(

  March 16th, 2011 by pshychotic_lette

what else can i say? its the same nightmare over and over again. all the rage the fighting. the screaming……

recently my boyfriend of 6 months dumped me because i wasn’t talking to him all that much.i tried to explain to hiim why. but he wouldn’t listen, but we talked last night and i told that i was sorry…. being that i’m not very social in the first place. why won’t he listen? i have no idea. i honestly have gone a bit nuts because of this. I don’t know what to do. i miss him so much, we still talk but i still have this …

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4

Suffer

  March 14th, 2011 by RogueShadow1281

Let me rant on again…
I’m a 16 year old male from California. That should do you enough good, right?
This planet, this beautiful (or my image of the paradise it was portrayed as) earth inhabited by life. Also inhabited are evil, greedy humans. They are parasitic creatures that prey on this planet’s resources and each other. I fully understand that there are good people, who make you think different, but think about the majority of the people, the evil, vile creatures. These people deserve to suffer, but why not let them suffer without me. I would much rather be dead than to suffer, but I …

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Savior

  March 14th, 2011 by Lost_Again

I think I tried to deal, maybe it is testament to my failures..My curse will become my savior, as I look into this chambor, my savior is clear in this caliber, Thank You for trying.

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Sunday

  March 13th, 2011 by Deep abyss

It’s Sunday again. Everyone’s out having fun with their friends. They’re going out or staying at home chatting with others or playing games or whatever it is, happily. If not with their friends, with their lovers or are flirting or what not with others. Either with others, or busy doing things that they enjoy to do. Or just plain, gone out with family or anything.

Me… I’m sitting here all alone again in my room. I see no one. In this prision cell of mine’s for years now, all alone. I find no joy in anything I do. The sadness and loneliness, slowly sucks the life out …

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Bipolar

  March 13th, 2011 by RogueShadow1281

I think I might actually be chucking bipolar. I’m playin video games, and then I’m suddenly angry as fuck like right now and then I came down after a while everything ends up pissing me off. And to make matters fuckin worse my mind drifts often so I end up thinking about murdering his stupid ass and then I think about killing myself. Grrrr!!! I’m fuckin angry as fuck and the only thing I wanna do is airsoft but my dad doesn’t like weapons so he only likes using his fists to kick my ass but that’s all I wanna do other than video games. …

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Defeated

  March 12th, 2011 by Lost_Again

I look at my gun and I am so tired, Im 22…been feeling this way for so long, Ive tried everything and it does nothing..I really have no idea why I even registered, will someone care? Why should they? Will it mean something when they desert me like everyone has every done. I dont fear death…hence it adds to my confusion why I am here, if not fear it then why go? I have nothing to live for..just more blood and more pain.

Im tired of getting my ass kicked because I am gay.

Im tired of having no friend or friends to merely use me.

Im tired …

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Depression has won. Im throwing in the towel (thegirl.interrupted1989@gmail.com)

  March 12th, 2011 by the girl interrupted

For the past 6 years since I was 16, I’ve been depressed. Throughout high school, you wouldn’t think I was though. I looked happy. I should have been an actress. Little did people know that I was hospitalized for trying to kill myself at 16. I use to be one of the popular pretty girls in school and after high school, my depression got really severe. I’ve been thinking about killing myself for the past 3 years but it hasn’t got this bad til the past year or two. Everyday the thoughts get stronger. My feelings seem to …

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  March 10th, 2011 by kaigne

My best friend was murdered when I was in grade 7, December 25’th, 2007. I haven’t felt any emotion other than anger and sadness since that day. I’m known as the family failure or disgrace to my family, Atleast that’s what my dad calls me.I’ve thought about killing myself before but I felt like I had something to live for, until now. I was kicked out of my house because I miss too much school, there are people that care, but I can only name 2, and both of them live atleast an hour away, or provinces away. I have nowhere to go, nobody that …

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I can’t do this anymore

  March 10th, 2011 by foolycooly

I’ve been telling myself this for 7 years and I need a way out. Every year it just gets worse with more time passing by. I haven’t ever had anything or anyone to live for, no meaning whatsoever. I acknowledge that there are people in my life that care, but they’ve never really shown it in the ways I need them to and they definitely don’t understand how I’ve been feeling for so long. At this point I don’t care at all, I don’t feel anything, and I just want what’s best for myself to be free of this constant hell that I live in …

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So Why Do I Care?

  March 10th, 2011 by LostLove

I have lost my ability to feel, to have emotion, but yet I am afraid of the pain.
Why would I consider the affects of failing at suicide, if I plan on succeeding?
Maybe if I have brain damage, someone might care about me.
I wonder who might this affect, but I have no one.
I think some people might feel sad but not very long.
I doubt anyone would go into depression about me.
I use to think that if I die, my mom would be heart broken.
I use to think she cared about me, but she blamed me for ruining her life.
Maybe I did, maybe that’s why our …

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Month and a Half: anyone know a good way painless way to die? or any method? Please tell me.

  March 9th, 2011 by Deep abyss

Reading people wanting to die, it reminded me. I want to die. NOW. I can’t find a good painless way to go at it, but I’ll keep trying. I’ll go in a month and a half, with or without a good method. I’m sure people have seen me around here and never fully understood my whole story or hear some of it, but I’ll rant and tell a bit of it. I have mentioned my story in older posts, which no one probably read.

I’m sad and suicidal for so many reasons. Some of them can be considered so idiotic and stupid by others. But today, …

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Life…Slowly…Piecing…Back

  March 7th, 2011 by LonelyEyesOfLostness

So, I’m still in the same situation as I was before, but now I have a couple people helping me out and who knows maybe I will be ok, but eventually I know I will come to grips with what is staring me right in the face. DEATH. I will end up going before my time is up…unless I can convince myself otherwise, which I don’t see happening.

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You make me mad

  March 5th, 2011 by Rocky90

“You have your whole life ahead of you!”

“There is so much to live for!”

“Keep your head up!”

“Oh your husband is just stupid!”

Do you know what an ignorant thing to say that is?

To prolong the suffering of those who are broken by trying to talk them into continuing their lives is sadistic and selfish. You do it because you yourself are afraid of death and you don’t want to be faced with it, in any way. You’re extending their suffering for months at best and you know very well that they are going to off themselves in the end.

You’re creating internal conflicts for them by tempting …

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Stupid…

  March 5th, 2011 by Deep abyss

I was really stupid today. I tried to count on others and ask them for help. Of course, no one was really there for me. Like always, when I need them no one is there. I don’t even know why I bothered. Everyone’s a fake to me.  Always putting on fake masks. I have no one. I’m so stupid to believe otherwise.

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Lost

  March 3rd, 2011 by Payne

I am new to this and I don’t know if this will help me in some way, but I will try.

Where to begin? For 2+years I have felt this overwhelming depression.Every day I contemplate suicide.Every day I have to tell myself to just put one foot in front of the other. I honestly don’t know whats wrong with me anymore. I don’t even have a bad life.You could even say my life was the American dream. Big white house, suburban area, small developing town, nuclear family. My parents are employed and they make rather decent paychecks. I’m only 17. From what I gather I am …

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A living paradox

  March 3rd, 2011 by TheLostOne

I cannot tell you how many times ever since roughly around high school that I’ve had thoughts about killing myself. And yet, after all those thoughts, I’ve managed to stay alive to the age of 23 on March 17th. How I managed to stay alive for so long? Reminding myself that I have a purpose in this crazy world of ours. Yet after continuously reminding myself of that idea, I underwent possibly my worst breakdown that I’ve had for the longest time about a creative way to erase my existence because of a conversation with my parents, specifically my father, that I’ve heard dozens of …

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So angry…

  March 3rd, 2011 by fedupofsiteslikethis

This goes out to all those who encourage others to take their own life and not to those who are desperately seeking help.  To the latter, I am so sorry that life is so bad and that there seems like no other option is out there.  I can only hope that you can find some kind of peace and happiness eventually.

I have been on this site for a few days now just looking at different posts and have to say from a person who has lost a Son through suicide I am so sick of looking at all the crap on here.

So many people on …

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