You told me you would always be there for me. You told me you were my best friend. Do you not realize you are my only friend? We haven’t spoken a meaningful word to each other in weeks, or was it months? I can’t remember anymore. The only thing I know is that it feels like the only person in my life, the person I live with, never seems to be anywhere close to me. I haven’t talked to anyone in a long time. No one wants to hear my boring pointless shit. I don’t blame you. I just can’t believe you rolled your eyes […]
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Hello, Ladies and Gentlemen.
How do you do? I’ve read many suicide notes and just registered an account to publish my own suicide note. Where do I start from? I guess from the beginning, eh. Well, I turned 22 this year on the November the 6th. Been severely depressed since 2. I had severe trauma and most likely resulted in brain damage which my parents aren’t telling me about. I have an intermediate stutter and I noticed I have a learning disability and throughout colleges and schools. I’ve been severely bullied on and off basis to the point I had to use deadly force and also been […]
A lot of the reason I don’t get along with my parents I think is just the generation gap. We were raised in very different times therefore we have different views and opinions on just about everything. And some of the problems are because they are stubborn and up-tight, but I just had the realization that most of it is my fault. I am a generally nice person. I go out of my way to do things for others, i sacrifice for my friends and family, but when it comes to my parents, I feel I am a totally different person. Almost every interaction I […]
I’m a 17 year old girl in my senior year of high school. I don’t do terribly in school, but i also don’t do great. I’m kind of mediocre at everything I do. I’m also kind of a pot head. I don’t get along great with my parents, we have really different views on everything. I have always had a good amount of friends, but recently started drifting from a lot of them. I have one best friend, and she is sort of my only friend at the moment. Don’t get me wrong, I love her like a sister, and she is a really good […]
“There’s no way you are depressed, you look so active and talkative.”
“You’ve got a whole life ahead, you have a good life so I can’t find a reason why would you be in so much pain.”
These are the words that have been told by my parents for countless times.
I’m 22 years old girl in the eastern region who’s studying in the medical field. On the outside, I used to be a happy-go-lucky, active and energetic person, but deeply I knew that I worry a lot and have a turbulent mind. I always get easily surprised and overwhelmed and my heart […]
A friend once told me that even when you think you’re alone, you’re not because there’s just such a vast number of people on Earth there’s bound to be someone experiencing the same thing as you. Perhaps not everything, but different people around the world experience different things you do as well. Thus, I know the following probably doesn’t happen to just me, but sometimes it seems that way, especially after reading all the stories on here.
It seems everyone wants to die because of a problem in their life. Debt, marriage, parents, school, friends, you name it. And I understand that, I’m not here to […]
I am coughing up blood. I don’t know why or how, seeing as I haven’t even really attempted suicide in awhile, but here I am coughing and vomiting blood. It’s not that I ate too much; I hardly ate anything. Maybe my body is finally ready to die. I didn’t even have to do anything. If I had known that just giving my body time to really fuck itself over would fuck me up this bad, I would’ve stopped attempting suicide years ago. Hell, maybe there is a God. Well, as much as I’d love to tell my parents that I’m really fucked right now, […]
i wish harry potter was real , i wish fantastic beasts were real , i wish magic was real , i wish magic really exist , i wish wizards were real really exist
by niki
written by niki
i wish harry potter was real really exist , i wish fantastic beasts were real really exist , i wish magic was real really exist , i wish magic really exist , i wish wizards were real really exist
because reality is boring , mundane , and limiting limited
because real world is boring , mundane , and limited limiting
because real life is boring , mundane , & limited limiting !
reality is all about MONEY !
real-life is all about Money !
real-world is all about Money !
Life is boring , mundane ,
movies is better than reality real life real world !
novels is […]
Today a friend asked me what was my ten year plan.
Plan? I said. For a moment I didn’t’ t understand.
I mean how could I? I don’t even have a plan to get through the day,
Let alone a year, much less ten.
She asked as if it were the most normal of things to have dreams and hopes
And goals and a vision of the future.
I guess unless you are already living in hell it’s easy to dream
But to me dreams are an illusion, an empty black hole.
Hopes, goals, dreams are far too ambitious concepts for me.
I already struggle […]
I have two people in my life that I love with all my heart. One as a friend and one as a romantic interest.
I cannot put in words how strong my love for them is.
But they barely notice me. I don’t think they even remember my name. Yes, I’m really insignificant in their lives.
But whenever I see my romantic interest with someone that can make them happy in that sense…
I feel happy for them, but it hurts so much.
So much.
I love you both so much, why can’t I tell you? Oh yes, I’m scared you will stop talking to me. Even if we barely talk.
It hurts […]
im 21 years old and I don’t know what I feel anymore. When I was 12 I used to cut myself I was going through a tough time at home but I managed to sort out my head. Lately the past few months me and my boyfriend of two years haven’t been seeing eye to eye and me and my dad are constantly arguing. My job pays nothing and my family are always on my back to find something else but they don’t know how hard it is! I have five brothers and sisters so you can imagine the pressure of growing up and having […]
A few Christmases ago, my mother connected the speakers of the family computer to an iTunes radio station that played Christmas-themed jazz 24/7. This was back when I used to sit at the desktop computer playing games and whatnot all the time, meaning that the music played right beside me. I’ve always enjoyed the genre, so I didn’t mind it.
What I didn’t realise is the atmosphere which that music created. It was depressing, the weather was depressing, my life of being on the computer incessantly was depressing; it was just a sad but unique ambience. I remember the songs distantly rocking in the air around […]
I know next to nothing of the things I supposedly love, but I kind of know more of stupid shit I don’t care about.
I’m so bad at the things I love, it’s frustrating. I’m a terrible writer, a terrible illustrator, I don’t know different types of materials for doing certain things. But I fucking know how to integrate and calculate probability, but I’m not even good at it.
Fuck my life, why can’t I just die already? I’m such a failure. I’m a fucking failure, stuck in a point where I can’t do anything.
When the uniform arrives, I’m doing it. No fucking regrets, just end this […]
I seem like I’m bulletproof, and no amount of lead from their mouths will ever hurt me. But what’s on the outside isn’t what matters to me, my insides take their words, and accepts them, because I am them.
What’s the point living if you cannot achieve anything you have been wanting to do forever?
i have been failing my whole life and i have never been able to achieve anything, i’m always at best mediocre cant never feel like i have accomplished anything.
i got sick of the feeling i have been feeling for 10 years now, and talked with psychologist and i got told that after my birth i had blood clot in my main blood vessel that comes straight from heart to brain and my brain didnt get nearly any blood before that surgery, and that has made my life this way. a […]
This is ridiculous. I wasn’t supposed to live to write another post.
Things were going swiftly. I was adjusting the rope, everyone was asleep, and it was pitch black outside; the perfect tableau.
However, I guess that it just took me too long to get the knot and the rope’s position on my neck correct, because I suddenly saw my next door neighbour’s garage light turn on! He was definitely outside. One of the bedrooms in the house behind mine randomly had its light on too.
Of course, I panicked, threw the towel that was supposed to be wrapped around my neck away, turned the rope still tied to […]
I am worthless. No, I am beneath worthless. I am less than useless; I cause more pain and suffering to every human being I know. I am the epitome of selfishness and greed. I am no more than the rotting flesh on my body. Not only am I a disgrace and utter disappointment; I am worse than that.
I have turned people against one another. I lied. I vowed to make peace, but instead, hypocrisy and cowardice tightened their grip around my throat. If only they would grip it tight enough to strangle me. Instead, I am living in this constantly shrinking reality.
I keep seeing […]
Lately, I’ve been having more and more social difficulties, namely with names (no pun intended) and overall conviction.
Typically, in an interaction, saying a participant’s name will have to happen at least once, but I can’t do it. I can’t say nor even type a person’s name, and if someone does it to me, I become extremely uncomfortable. It would be so much easier to call people numbers or something, kind of like the fact that I use Emoji in place of names on my mobile phone.
Along with that, I also have issues with conviction, instead displaying uncertainty by involuntarily adding, “I think” or, “Or whatever” to […]