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Suicidal Survivors

For those who have survived suicide.

How I felt last night

by Shaynax 8/2/2013

written by Shaynax

I don’t really talk much about my suicide attempt but when I do, I get choked up and cry. She didnâ€™t know much about it but today, at her house she happened to be looking through my blog and read what I wrote on my day back from the hospital. I couldnâ€™t even look at her. She held me as I cried, and she did nothing but hold me for a while. I donâ€™t know how she does it. How she can be around me, someone so broken and torn between life and death all the time, and still manage to fucking smile. How she […]

8/2/2013 0 comment

My Never Ending Story

by JilliannLeigh 8/2/2013

written by JilliannLeigh

My names Jillian, i’m 15 years old, and here’s my story, i decided to share the truth.
My first school ever was Green Way Elementary, the first day of school was OK, until i started showing up at school looking all gross and ugly… It’s because when i was younger i lived with my parents, but then they split up because things weren’t working out for them, i seen them fight all the time, i stayed with my dad for a bit because my mom moved away with her girlfriend, while i was staying with my dad he liked to have friends over and drink […]

8/2/2013 5 comments

What IS the point?

by Drake 8/1/2013

written by Drake

This is my second post. today hadn’t been that good. I’ve been floating in and out of sadness and depression. I’ve begun considering going to see a psychiatrist for my problems; hopefully they’ll be able to answer some of my questions because… I don’t understand this…

Each night I go to sleep, hoping I won’t wake up. During the night I wake and watch the shadows drift around me and beg God to never let it end, to just let those shadows stay forever and take me away into the darkness. Then when the sun rises I’m still breathing and I curse my own being. Getting […]

8/1/2013 4 comments

Someone PLEASE help!! Please help me…

by fractal_death 8/1/2013

written by fractal_death

Hello, kind and compassionate people.Â I am speaking to you.Â If you are someone who is just going to tell me, “No, don’t do it…” or “Jesus/God/Allah loves you and wants you to live…” blah blah blah, then I am NOT speaking to you.

I genuinely want to die.Â I have wanted it since the age of 12 when I tried to stick a chef’s knife in my gut thinking that would do it.Â I tried again at 19 by ingesting a bunch of sleeping pills.Â I am 39 now and my situation is much worse.Â I have chronic pain in my back and neck from […]

8/1/2013 5 comments

We’re Just One Big Broken Family

by Dez 8/1/2013

written by Dez

I’ve only been on here for a few days but I already feel at home here.

I don’t know most of you, but I consider each and everyone of you as family.

In our family we’re accepted no matter how weird we are. We’re here for each other no matter what. No matter what your problem is there are people here who understand and who want to help. I really admire that in us.

We might all be broken and on the verge of death, but that’s okay. We’re all here to be repaired and to try and strive for the best.

You’re not alone in this world.

This website […]

8/1/2013 42 comments

Admitting it. And hoping someone is listening…

by Drake 7/31/2013

written by Drake

This is the first time I’ve ever publically posted/said that I am in as much pain as I am. I’ve hidden it for years, even when I was a young teen. When I was little I thought everybody had bad days like mine: times when the world looked grey, when even speaking was difficult, when my soul felt sucked from me. I’m too afraid to truly come out and tell anyone around me how I really feel. They’ll all just say “Just put on a smile and look on the bright side” or “It’ll be okay, just buck up”. Can’t anyone see that I can’t […]

7/31/2013 8 comments

More pieces to my story ..

by angeleyez 7/31/2013

written by angeleyez

This is my story from the startÂ http://suicideproject.org/2013/07/my-story-161/Â please reaad that first before continuing down so you will understand the bits that i’ve missed out.

So you have read the beginnings and the main depth of what happened in my child/teen life. Heres some that i have missed out like my eating disorder , suicide attempt and the visions and self harm.

Im going to start off with the visions i get when i have anxiety attacks or panic attacks i haven’t told anyone what i hear, see or feeling during these episodes. Not even my psychiatrist. Well i get flash backs of the that night i got […]

7/31/2013 1 comment

A life of someone living with Depression, Anxiety and Autism

by oliviadee 7/31/2013

written by oliviadee

I can’t exactly say when it started because I don’t know, my life has just been full of bad events snowballing until I finally released it all.

From a very young age I felt alienated from everyone, I felt that nobody was like me.

It didn’t help that I had a young mother, she had me at 14, Â because I felt that she wasn’t approachable. Also, she was often getting into new relationships which involved a lot of men. I found it very hard ad still find it very hard, to connect with new people so this was an issue for the first 5 years of my […]

7/31/2013 7 comments

i just dont know how to feel

by greenparksgirl 7/31/2013

written by greenparksgirl

Hi. My name is Ashley.

I’ve been struggling with depression since I was 9 years old. I’m 19 now.

I recently got the diagnosis of Emotionally Unstable Personality Disorder with a behavioural disorder due to drug and alcohol use at a young age.

Just over a month ago I gave up. I tried to commit suicide in the past but I never did it right, so naturally nobody took me seriously when I told them how I was feeling. This time was different. My lungs gave out, they had to do my breathing manually. When I woke up they sectioned me. I was put into my local mental […]

7/31/2013 6 comments

Here We Go

by LostInTheWorldOfHate 7/31/2013

written by LostInTheWorldOfHate

Well, I don’t know how to exactly go about this. I’ve never told exactly what happened to me to a lot of people….but I guess I can start now. This may be long to some people and for that, I am sorry. If you don’t want a sad story about a dying girl, I would move on. Well….here we go.

I was raised in a small town in the midwest. I’ve gone to the same schools my whole life. My life was good. Everyone’s is for awhile. Then, something changed. 6th grade changed everything.

I had always been bullied. By a girl here and there, a boy […]

7/31/2013 4 comments

scars – how to cope?

by wallflower123 7/27/2013

written by wallflower123

New to this, but have experiences I would like to share and would also like any advice from others.

I have large scars on my leg from top of my thigh to the knee, some very long and wide. On my left arm I have scars on both sides of my arm including my wrist. I have been in this situation for six years. I use to live in small towns where scars were more acceptable so I showed off my arm with ease and didn’t have any issues. I moved to a city a few years ago and have found peoples reactions more of an […]

7/27/2013 2 comments

Coming Down..

by UndeadArmy 7/23/2013

written by UndeadArmy

One day i sat in my room and had my music up, i thought i had locked my door and shut it, but it wasnt shut all the way… Well as i had a knife to my neck and my suicide note on my chest, my .. friend David comes in he coaches the knife away from me and when i dropped it i fell into his arms and cried and couldnt stop.. We talked about why i was trying to do it, many reasons.

Till this day, i owe him my life.. Thank you..<3

7/23/2013 2 comments

Remember, It takes one friend to save a life..

by UndeadArmy 7/23/2013

written by UndeadArmy

i see nothing at all, no happines
When i tried to commit suicide i was serious about it. I locked my door turned my music on loud and ignored the knocks. Well i laid down my tools of trade, a bottle of vodka, to hide my shame, a razor at the wrist nothing would be missed. I.. I took a drink then grabbed my razor as i sat over a towel and just cut my thighs to hell i could barely walk after.. I called […]

7/23/2013 6 comments

suicide survivor

by hopelesshappiness 7/22/2013

written by hopelesshappiness

suicide is a seven letter word that controlled my life along side depression and anxiety that i still struggle with. im here to tell you that there is a light at the end of the tunnel and you have a purpose. i felt that i had nothing else to live for until i made a list. it sounds simple but make a list of all the things you want to do and see in life and i promise you itll give you hope. read it everyday or everyday or when you feel like you dont want to be here. its small but it might help […]

7/22/2013 9 comments

My self harm story

by PrincessBrooke 7/22/2013

written by PrincessBrooke

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=C08Ini72mZw

Thats my story.. please subscribe gonna post more videos soon

7/22/2013 0 comment

Hello Aggain

by PrincessBrooke 7/22/2013

written by PrincessBrooke

Well Hi again, many of you may remember me as BrooklynBoxx.. and once again I am asking you for your guys favor. I’m 15, as my of you know. But on January 26, 2013 I met and fell in love with a 21 year old. I know many of you may find this risky, coming from my past. But he was there after every failed suicide attempted. He got me to throw away razors. And talked me out of suicide. On the 15th of July […]

7/22/2013 3 comments

Late at Night

by whoslaughingnow 7/22/2013

written by whoslaughingnow

You see that girl who smiles brightÂ

She’s not the same late at night

Her smile slowley fades awayÂ

When shes sure everyones gone awayÂ

Tears gather in her eyes

She doesnt care, she lets them slide

Pain burning deep inside

Leaving her no bright side

She uses the razor to help her out

To help her make it thorugh the night

The blood runs down her armÂ

Leaving a deadly trace of self-harmÂ

But the pains only gone for nowÂ

It won’t stop it’s made it’s vowÂ

But now she’s all done for todayÂ

And she’ll wear her bright smile just like any other day

7/22/2013 0 comment

I hung myself this morning

by MaxBlaise 7/22/2013

written by MaxBlaise

For a long time now I’ve been subconsciously planning my suicide. My main reason for this is this ever growing sensation of “weltschmerz” – feeling the pain of the world and the uselessness of existence and living.
I have a good job that pays well. I am married to a woman that loves me, I have two beautiful and adorable children and still these aren’t good enough reasons for me to keep on living.

For as long that I can remember, I’ve been trying to live life, but never really knowing how. On the outside I’m am successful, but on the inside there is only this […]

7/22/2013 4 comments

i dont even know.

by JKburnett 7/22/2013

written by JKburnett

I don’t have to much screwed up in my life but i still feel like i serve no purpose and every time i think about it i know that there’s gonna be someone whos happy that im gone. but every time i think this i remember my life a year ago. at that time i was on so much bullshit. I judged people on how they looked and i just walked around acting like i knew everything and just didn’t care and didn’t see and deep meaning in life and just treated it like something that was a joke. then the week of my birthday […]

7/22/2013 0 comment

Why not now, Cant it all just be over..

by digikrypt 7/22/2013

written by digikrypt

I have been trying to get out of this body for years specifically from the age of 7 to 20 (current age)

I have tried suicide multiple times including cutting my wrist and taking loads of tylenol around 200 and then drowned that with hydrogen proxide but I did not leave, I did not even cross over. I mean what the fuck this was one I was around 16 and I am 20 now still wishing to just cross over but I realize now my family would be very sad and down the very same path that I have always seeked.

The only coping mechanism I really […]

7/22/2013 1 comment

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