My first time posting here. I explain with words, tears, music, etc, and I’m just met with either silence or surface level positivity. Even in suicide/depressed-focust support groups online, I still feel like an outsider in my own pain. I still feel like an alien to those who are supposed to be feeling just like I do right now. How fucked am I if other depressed people don’t even understand what I’m going through? “But have you tried this?” I’ve tried a million things a million times. I’m not depressed or suicidal for the common reasons most people can relate to. I reach out, and […]
Feeling super heavy lately.
I gave my best at an interview where they said big things promised a higher position, hyped me up and then just… vanished. No updates, no feedback. It’s like being left on read but professionally.
To make it worse, I helped a friend with the same task he didn’t get that role but ended up getting placed in one of their sister concerns. Now he’s casually sharing his news, not even realizing how tough this is for me to hear.
Maybe I’m overthinking… but damn, it stings. Feeling heavy. I imagined about this […]
I’ve been worrying more about AI recently. I had vaguely assumed that it would eventually take over the work I do, whenever someone eventually gets round to training it for that specific purpose. That now seems like a virtual certainty, even if the technology is somehow frozen at current levels. It makes me think it’s probably not even worth the effort to invest in courses to improve or look for ways to find new clients.
But it also seems like people are expecting exponential growth in the next five years. As in AIs coding and training ever more intelligent AIs, to the point where they become […]
https://www.visualcapitalist.com/suicide-in-america-a-closer-look-at-the-statistics
Link
https://www.visualcapitalist.com/americas-happiest-states-in-2024/
Hawaii is ranked #1 at 68.7
-first, it’s kinda sad that 68.7 is THE highest #
-second, it’s pretty sad that 90% of the states score between 40-55%
-only 3 states scored above 60%
I really want to move to HI- BUT- it is super expensive all over HI so…idk.
I’m so tired of being stateside.
@heartless- were you looking into MI or MN? MN shows it being much happier than MI.
Why do you keep living?
Why do you want to die?
Hello, you beautiful human.
I have just registered on this website, maybe five minutes ago. If you’re reading this, it might mean you’re curious to see what people write when they’re at their lowest, or maybe you are one of those individuals writing poems, diary entries, or just short messages for people to read. And, either way, I want you to know that you’re loved. No matter who you are, how old you are or what your situation is, you’re loved. By family, friends, strangers who liked your style when you passed by them on the street, or me. There will always be someone thinking about […]
From a scale of 1-10, with
1= the worst/crappiest to
10= the best/most awesome
Today I’m going to fly to the moon. I’m traveling there to see how things are in a flowers greenhouse. Then I’m coming back to a space station.
Nothing good can come from a night out drinking. Some years ago I was driving back from the pub not particularly inebriated but not sober either. My passenger was inebriated. Just as we turned onto our road, he lived a couple of doors down, he said ” Careful, watch that dog” and tried to grab the steering wheel off me. ” Relax the fuck, that’s not a dog, that’s a kid, that’s your kid” I said. ” Is it, it is, what the fuck is his mother doing letting him out at one in the morning” he said. Nothing good can come from a night […]
Me…I feel like dying
Hi. How is everyone. Just posting since I have started feeling as disconnected as a wire to a tv. I just don’t know how to explain that.
GRRRRRRRRRRR
-_-
“Deaths of Despair” has more than doubled in the US over the past 20 years. Hell- Look at from 2014-2021 – in only a 7yr span- the rates skyrocketed. WTF happened in 2014?
I mean on the one hand- depression has FINALLY gotten more attention- and bc so many more “normal” ppl are getting it now, the stigma- while still very much there- isn’t as bad as it was 10 years ago, or 20 years ago, or 30 years ago. The stigma with depression was as bad as say someone being gay back in the 80s. The stigma decreased a lot […]
Me- some unopened drinks and frozen bacon from 6/24. Yes, a whole year ago lol
You?
I’m a bad person, I’m selfish, and I am disappointed in the person I’ve become
Im twisted, ungrateful, and stupid
I accomplished a life goal at 30, and now I feel empty.
I’m chasing a feeling of love that is not needed
If you rule out what actually seems meaningful… if it seems impossible, or so unlikely that it’s not worth pursuing… and you don’t want to kill yourself, because you’re terrified of death… then what’s left?
I think it’s a kind of stasis. I want to just sleep, endlessly. A peaceful sleep of contented dreams, rather than what I experience currently. To just drift through time, till the end of time.
I suppose maybe it’s the kind of experience you get on some drugs, but without the addiction, come down etc. If I had the technology to be in a near-permanent state of artificially induced peace, that would […]
Been living on my own the past 2 months now, there’s good and bad.
Finances are always the problem though.
I’m terrible with money, but I really don’t buy that much. Most of the money I make goes to bills and food.
I’ve been keeping up with the important bills for the most part, but have an empty fridge. Been sacrificing food quality for cheap meals to make sure I can keep up with bills.
Don’t know if I’ll ever retire. I have no kids, no wife or gf, not sure what I’d even leave for future generations. I’m nowhere near buying […]
What percent of America is depressed?
“Approximately 8.3% of U.S. adults experience a major depressive episode each year. This translates to about 21 million adults. The prevalence of depression is higher in females (10.3%) than males (6.2%). Additionally, depression affects a larger percentage of younger adults aged 18-25 (18.6%).
The prevalence of depression varies by state, with West Virginia having the highest reported prevalence (27.5%) and Hawaii having the lowest (12.7%). Depression is also more common in those with lower incomes, with over 20% of those with family incomes below the poverty level experiencing depression.”
–only 20%?
These are the most depressed states in the U.S.:
1.West Virginia (29%)