I am like deathly allergic to penicilin and amoxicillin, and I found some in my house. I’m going to take them plus around 400 ibprofen. Let’s see how this goes

Does anyone live in Louisiana ?

Life does suck day in and day out. That’s just how it goes. Unfortunately, (and I know I say that a lot) we don’t really have a lot of control over it. Shit happens and you may get depressed… You may cut. You may even think about taking your own life away just so you don’t have to deal with anymore of it. But think, that boyfriend or girlfriend who just cheated on you, that boss that just fired you, or those damn teenagers who bully you whether it’s all the time or just once, can always fuck off and get lost. Stay strong guys.

Full-alert here, if you are going to try to bash me, insult me, or talk me out of this, please leave this thread. I am not asking for your judgement or opinions. You are not me, you have not lived my life, and so you have no right to decide what I should do with it Second warning, this is a very long post. Please bear with me.

Okay, after getting that point across, I was wondering the certain fatality doses for prescription medications. I am trying to garner as much information from people as possible, so if you know any other websites/forums where I won’t […]

Most days, I don’t think I’m addicted to cutting. I can get by without it, but then sometimes, I can’t breathe or think until I let the blood flow. Does anyone else feel like that? We don’t have enough alcohol in our house for me to have an addiction (my mom only drinks wine) but I never want to hang out with my friends unless we can drink or smoke.

Why are people so unfriendly to me? Do I give off some vibe that says don’t talk to me? My roommate gives me dirty looks. I will call her Sandra from here on out. I am not sure if this is just how her face normally looks or what but she never says hi or good morning to me, I want to say those things to her but the looks she gives me make me stay silent. I live on campus this semester, it has only been a few days but it has been very hard. I feel like I am constantly sick to […]

Heaven has called yet another angel
I can’t believe you are gone, but you are loved. You were always happy with such a beautiful and angelic smile. You had the most amazing personality and I will remember all of the hugs.
Rest in peace
Rebecca Larson
You were a angel on earth but now you’ve earned your wings <3

Phew!…
I had a talk with my mom the last night…It’s just great the way I take the conversation to the point I want it to be…I told her that dead people are better left forgotten, she agreed, she remembered her father…they weren’t very close and he died, those memories hurt her…
I’ve been doing my best to make my suicide the less painful to her…
I gotta do this now, I planned for months, I better get calm and don’t take any longer…
I dunno how the things got to this point…
Hush!
No more talking, let’s get this shit done.

• I’m really annoyed, I can’t take this any longer I just can deal with another person telling me there problem when I have 10 billion of my own already , I was called fat today, and ignored flicked off and all this shit but that’s part of a new environment rigt ? Well I hate this new environment , everyone is way different from me, our cultures way different they’re high class I’m middle which to them , is low. And it’s like i literally moved into that one movie of highschool with the mean cheerleaders and weird shit but seriously what the fuck. […]

So, I’m about to return to school in a few days, and I’m supposed to contact my counselor upon arrival to set up our first appointment of the semester. But I’m torn. You see, I’ve already gone way over the “limit” of visits supposed to be available to students, so I am beginning to feel like I have no right to continue going. Plus, it’s been almost a year of consistent visits, and at this point, I feel like I just talk in circles, but my level of depression remains consistent, even despite changes I make in my life. I am trying so hard, but […]

Is is wrong to want to hurt him the way he hurt me?
Is it wrong to want to take it all from him so he is left with nothing?
All the years, all my time, all my efforts.
All the pain, all the fears,
he took away, only to bring worse ones near.
My heart says i still love him.
My heart won’t let me hurt him.
But my mind, it’s going crazy.
How can I hurt him anyway?
I’m so confused and angry.
But not at him.
I’m angry at me.
I let this all happen.
I can’t hurt him..
And my heart, […]

What rule did my most recent post violate for it to be deleted? I’m pretty sure it was flagged by people who have a motive in disrupting something they dislike from someone they dislike… Its fine though… The room will still come to fruition… Flagging my post just shows you’re (not the sp admins) worried about me doing so and you’re trying to prevent it… Ah well nice try though…

Feeling so guilty over the fact that I’m going to disappoint my parents(have to break some bad news) yet again! it’s killing me inside and now is making me think to kill myself physically too! I was doing about okay when this piece of news dropped on me.. its my life story..when things are about to go okay there will be something to kill off any progress..

hate my life and truly want to see the end.. life is not worth living

I feel like I’m about to break up, it’s just too much in my head. I wanna die and leave, fast. Please.

I’ve been away from SP for a long time and I deleted all my posts the last time I was around a long time ago and decided to be strong and not think about sucide. I’ve been strong and managed to stay strong although life throws increasingly amounts of shit at me. Last month before the new year I went out with my old time friends, yes, I had even managed to talk again to my friends and make new ones. Things were hooking […]

it’s not a big problem, sorry.  And I would have discuss it in a chat, but hey, it’s blocked here at my work.

Why on earth do I always feel so stupid, disappointed and empty when I ask someone to see me, and they can’t ? Really ? My mind knows it’s not personnal, but I can’t help the feelings.  I rarely am courageous enough to offer activities to people, and when I do, it’s always like this. Well, maybe not always, but you know what I mean…

Throughout my life I’ve been a relatively happy and carefree guy and I am not depressed, I have realised I have to do this. I’ve come here for a bit of solace before I do what I need to do; my name is James Redding (or at least my pseudonym) and I am 22 years old. I am engaged to the girl I’ve loved since I was 17 and have almost completed my dream degree, a masters in. Chinese. I assume you’re curious as to why I’m even contemplating this then? I say ‘this’ because typing the word itself brings me to tears, im staring […]

Hi there, fellow SP’ers!

We all woke up today, started a new day, and have been breathing up to this very moment, that you’re (hopefully) reading this. Keep it that way. I’ll try to.

I’m new here, had thought of joining the blog for some time now, after reading post after post and seeing how everyone supports and helps each other on here, and today I finally joined. So, you there reading this, just accept my gratitude for you being a part of this, because every person that has felt the way I do knows how to appreciate how big this is.

I’ll try to keep writing regularly. […]

23 year-old Evelyn McHale jumped from the 83rd floor of the Empire State Building and landed on a United Nations limousine, 1947.

I considered doing this when I was 14.  My father, his sister, and some cousins have committed suicide.  I wanted to many times.  I’m not suffering now, but periodically still have a bout with depression, which I think is partly chemical.    I’ve included some of the posts attached to the photo when I found it.

pjch Jeremy

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This picture of a […]

maybe it does matter
that im broken
and sometimes very lonely

maybe it does matter
that i want to die
and sometimes i think i deserve to

maybe it does matter
that when i say im fine that its a lie
and in reality im so far from fine

maybe it does matter
that some people care about me
and others just hate me

maybe it does matter
that i should live
and not die

maybe it does matter…
but who knows?
maybe it doesn’t.
maybe it doesn’t matter that im broken
that im alone
that i want to die
that im not fine
that people care about me
that […]

I need help. I can’t do this anymore. I’m sick of life. I don’t want to live. It’s like I’m screaming and no one can hear me. I am so depressed. I have people at school who hate me. This one boy I have liked for ages said to me that if I’m happy he’ll go out with me, I’ve got no chance now.. I need a reason to be happy, a reason to smile, a reason to enjoy life, a reason to wake up on a morning, but so far I can’t find a reason.. Please can someone help me, it’s my only hope, […]