This Post Will Be Relatively Different Then My Last, For It Is Not About Me, But About Ronan.

I Have Known Ronan For 2 Months. I Met Him On A Sight Called Imvu, And He Is The Closest Friend I Have, The Best Person I Have Ever Met On The Internet And The Best Person I Have Ever Met In General. No Doubt In My Mind That We Met By Fate, I Hadn’t Been On In Months, I Entered A Random Chat And He Came Into That Chat Shortly After. His Friend Summer Followed Him In And We Had Started Talking. After A Week We Had […]

you have nothing left to lose.

I’m a 36 year old male. I’ve never been married, i don’t have any kids.

all i have to my name is a laptop and a few cloths…

I’m non violent, i don’t use/abuse alcohol or drugs…

I’ve recently moved to a new city/town in search of work and a better life…

i have found nether…

I starve… i ask for help from family…they won’t…

wasted $16,000 on a half assed education…

i don’t have a dime to my name…my credit is fucked…

i rely on the generosity of my friends but i’m becoming a burden…

i HATE being a burden to anyone…

I’m sooo lost and all i think […]

Cameron,

I fell in love with you the moment your eyes saw mine. Shivers played at me when you were close. Your beautiful black hair, and those dark grey blue eyes. Tall, freckles, always in my favorite color. Black. You were perfect. Perfect for me. But…I apparently wasn’t perfect for you…I know we talked once…maybe twice…but the sound of your voice made me want to cry tears of happiness…

Ugh, wow. Sounding like a total stalker now. Great.

Whatever. Not like you know who I am. You wouldn’t remember me. Yknow, the girl always glancing at you. The shy girl wearing your favorite color. Black. The girl […]

To Reneigh Burley, your email is not working and you need to change it to something like gmail so I can get in touch.

If anyone needs me for help or anything, I’m here for anyone.

My email is brl.cents@gmail.com

i just got into, once again, another shouting match with my parents.

my mother decided to ***** about how i’m always the needy one, and how i make her life so difficult.

funny.

they don’t realize how much i do to make their lives easy.

i go to school everyday, get extremely high grades without complaining. I dont waste their time telling them my problems. i dont tell them how i cut and starve and try to kill myself, or try to waste their money on inpatient or therapy. i dont bother them with the fact that all my friends left me, because they’d rather believe the BS my […]

Every morning I wake up, deciding whether or not I am going to attend school this day.

Severely  struggling with attendance, and having high expectations on my shoulders.

I hate it when people except so much of me, and won’t just let me live my life…

Why do others even bother to put effort into me? I don’t attend those days at schools and it hurts them… 🙁

I am a gaming addict who rather plays games all days then attends school?

Why am I such a useless piece of S? Others manage to attend but I can’t… Wow I’m pathetic.

I deserve O% empathy and O% kindness, I’m the ruler […]

Dear Monster,

you’ve broken my heart

run your teeth across my chest

and feasted on the sweet meat inside

I’m sending you the pieces, what is left

I must begin now, before the venom spreads

and paralyses me completely,

as good Monster venom should.

I must look under my bed and inside the closet and

beg it was all a dream…

 

I’ve got no fight in me, no desire; oh please make it go away…

It’s been 5 months since the horrible break up with my almost fiance and I felt like I was finally ready to give relationships another try. This guy has been great to me through the past year and we’re like siblings. We decided to take it to the next level.

That was three weeks ago. He was so sweet and amazing before, but now suddenly his family is too busy for him to make time for me and he wont let me visit. He dumped me with the stupid  “you’re too good for me” line. He knew how much he meant to me. He was the […]

Hello, I am Scott Hildreth, the Author of Broken People. At the age of thirteen, my uncle committed suicide. I hated him for it. At the age of twenty one, my girlfriend committed suicide. I spent a lifetime carrying a poem that she left me in my wallet. Additionally, I carried guilt. Crushing guilt. I felt awful, guilty, and no longer trusted people.

A few years ago, a close friend committed suicide. Then, I decided it was my turn.

I didn’t succeed.

This year, I met a girl who needed help. A suicidal bulimic teen.

I wrote a very uplifting and deep book that has touched the hearts of […]

This isn’t going to be a long post…but if anyone else is dating a sociopath and is having difficult getting out, or if you have advice..please text me, I’m trying to get all the help and gain all the strength I can. <3

605-484-5094

you see that title? thats a quote i picked that quote of the internet because it sounds mostly like me….

It hurts because its true i am that lonely person when i was in school people who didnt know anything about me would look at me and i would seem the hyper one in that class i was happy and thats because i wanted people to see me like the happy one and the hyper and crazy one yeah it worked it was a good way to not show anybody i was most of all trying to keep everyone smiling whenever my friend is down i […]

I’m holding a knife,is this the very end?
I’d like it to be better,I’d like to die beautifully ,but I don’t even have enough strengh to wear better clothes,to makeup,well…Farewell boys.I won’t be happy but I won’t suffer any longer at least.My last post so I wish you a good and long life.

Not Exactly Sure How To Start These. I’m Just Gonna Wing It.

From The Time I Was In Kindergarden I Was Bullied. Pushed Around, Bothered. No One Really Ever Left Me Alone. It Wasn’t Until 4th Grade It Started Getting Bad. I Started Getting In Trouble In School, I Owed 6,000 Hours Of Community Service By The Time I Had Finished 5th Grade. The Beginning Of 6th My Life Started Going Downhill Fast, My Parents Got Divorced, Week To Week With Mom And Dad. I Was Severely Unwanted At My Dad’s House. My Aunt Lived Next Door And My Uncle Lived Across The Street, I Couldn’t […]

I am on seaside with my family.Only my mom saw my cuts on legs and arms but she didnt tell father,i told her not to.Because i promised her that i stopped self harm.And i did stop but the will is still here.I ignore it.I have bf ,and fisrt time in life i think love does exist.I love him,he loves me,our love is strong,he keeps me alive,he is giving me reason to live .He kisses scars on my skin,he try really hard to help me.

But today i snapped.I just broke.I run to the sea ,jump in in,and tried to drown myself .Nobody was watching,i could do […]

Dear sp, don’t comfort me, I’ve done something terrible. I let my family influence me once again. I’m leaving this place – not killing myself, just leaving my family. Im different maybe than all of you. I think you’re nicer than me.  whatever I ever wrote on here was sincere, from my heart, but it’s not enough. I’m weak. Everyone has been so caring and helpful.

The one part of myself I thought was ok is gone.

I’m just a fuck up. I just absolutely fucking hate myself.

Well here goes nothing. the car is started and I’m taking the easy way. full tank of gas and airtight garage. I really loved life. I did. I had all the promise and every opportunity in front of me. But couldn’t stay away from drugs. been clean 3 years but a felon with a history of abuse is just a piece of societal garbage. I really am justired of failing.  I’m fucking scared. But I’m done. I hope I get another chance to do it right. I won’t waste it. What a pathetic way to go out, I just am not strong enough to  do […]

what is it with parents/ loved ones and guilt trips..

they always cut me so deep..

I feel like such a piece of shit afterwards..

I realize I screwed up, but..

after one guilt trip, especially from my mother..

I just want to disappear forever..

death.. is fine, don’t care..

then I get angry.. but that gets me nowhere..

guilt trips, so cheap and piercing..

simple words that destroy my day..

suicidal thoughts flood my soul..

and the fight in my mind continues once more..

and so, in the end, the person who so adamantly doesn’t want me to kill myself..

is the very same […]

It’s the ultimate revenge, the ultimate statement upon this sick, delusional, worthless farce known as humanity. Life is so very overrated. Everything we think we know is bullshit. Everything is a delusion. Dreams. Success. Love. Charity. Compassion. These are all illusions that hide the craving for disease and evil humanity promotes and chases. To end one’s life is the ultimate finger in the face of all these delusional lemmings. To end one’s life is the ultimate statement of awareness. It tells the universe that you see through the lies, see through the bullshit, and no longer want to drink the Kool-Aid anymore. It is only […]

I’ve always thought about killing myself. It’s been the one consistent character trait I’ve had since I was three, and I don’t know why I feel this way. Today at work, I realized that suicide seems to be the only way for me to go. I don’t know when, where, or why, but it’s all I have. I don’t have friends, I have people that I call friends, but I don’t have the emotional fortitude to have any real emotion for anyone. That is relatively new, it started when I was seventeen. Now here I am, 21, on a suicide blog. I don’t want to […]

Went to that place I haven’t been in years. Not since that thing happened. I found a locked box I vaguely recognized. As luck (or misfortune) would have it, my foot kicked something that went ringing across the floor… a small brass key.

Chunks of my brain lit up with warning signals, heart rate went crazy and I started sweating like a slug. But the idiot that I am, I opened it anyway.

There was only one other person in the world who could have interpreted what I found inside. Now there’s only me. There’s no point in writing what I found, because it wouldn’t make sense […]