I’m 16 and currently go to high school. My mother tends to nag on me and yell at me a lot since I enjoy spending my free time playing games. She does not enjoy the way I spend my time and calls me the word “addicted” when I do play. She has a boyfriend that I don’t like…because he moves my possessions without notifying me. And when I questioned him about it today he clearly told me he will respect it only for my mothers sake…I mean why can’t he just apologize to me and say he’s sorry? Now for the issue at school…. I […]
My head keeps on
I wonder if it could ever be turned off
“I must be dreaming”, I tell myself
So many times, and I’ve found out the truth
Nothing more… nothing else
Is it just me? Is it my fault?
Do I live in a different world?
No? And so why I feel that way?
Give me answers please
‘Cause I have no escape
I have no one in fact
Not even my cat wants me to scratch him in the back
And you still wonder why…
Did you notice those cuts in my arms?
Or that I am by myself most of the […]
Tomorrow is my judgement day
The day I’ll see if I will live
Because finals start on Wednesday
And I’ve given all I have to give
If I fail a final I fail the class
That will be the end if that
I’ll just commit suicide
And die
Tomorrow I find out if I can take the stress
That has been building up inside me
The last time finals came around
I wound up in The Oaks
Tomorrow i find out if my best friend is going to leave me
And never speak my name again
Once again I do know
I won’t be able to take […]
someone very close to me decided to tell the school i had a hitlist (which i didnt have) they found the pot i bought instead sent me to counseler after sduspending me and pressign charges so i decided to answer eveything truthfully and i showed my cuts and burns and they are now makeing me do counseling after trying to put me in a psych ward and i honestly cant take shit anymore they treat me like im some kind of fucking freak in a circus i want out i just cant fucking do this shit anymore
I am so sick of how people treat me. I’m always put down. I’m yelled at for things I didn’t do. I’m lied to all the time. I only have one person who truly cares. He is everything but I have never met him in real life. I have known him for 7 years though. He is amazing. He always knows what to say. But I want someone to actually care about me in my life. Someone that would see my wrist and cry instead of judge. I want someone to make me their first choice. I am sick of always being back up. I […]
We’re growing apart.
I feel trapped.
I hate talking about it but i know i should.
Can’t wait to cut, it was the only thing that got me through today.
I wish i could live inside my dreams, inside my head.
Then i would be happy.
Fuck this life.
Want to see my blood, because i don’t feel the pain. Alcohol.
Want to have fun.
When will i feel any better?
I want to die.
I’m sorry I’ve been gone for a while. From now on, I’m going to try be a more frequent user on here. I want to help people as much as I can before I go.
I hope everything is going well with everyone.
Why is that people ask you not to compare your life with others at times and then take a complete U-Turn and ask to look at others life at other times? World always tries to find a way to influence your life, your decisions, they always want you to live your life as it best suits them. The reason for my decision is not my hatred of this world, or hatred for life – on the contrary its quite opposite – I love this world, I love life. But unfortunately, I don’t enjoy it anymore, I live everyday as its a burden – with a […]
Dammit I hate my grandparents!! I gotta get the he’ll out. I don’t even care about Florida right now. I need a fuckin escape, suicide, drugs, anything. Fuck life fuck people (not you guys… Sorry) fuck me. I don’t know why I’m still here. I’m a burden, a waste, and worthless. They won’t let me forget that. Shit I need an escape.
I’m new to this website. I’ve been suicidal for a few months now. It’s gotten so bad in such a short amount of time, and it’s scaring me.
You see, I don’t want to die. I really don’t. But it’s the only way out. I can’t leave my town, because I’m only 14. My mom won’t home school me. I don’t have one friend. I kept telling people how I felt, and then people stopped caring all of a sudden. They just stopped talking to me, and they stopped asking what was wrong. I have literally–absolutely– no one. My parents yell when I get depressed. My […]
All of my energy is gone. I don’t even have enough to WANT to kill myself let alone do it. I just want to sit here and wait for the glorious day he decides to take my soul. Sometimes I even with there was a school shooting and I got shot, just so people would notice and maybe care. Just so I could leave this world. If anyone wants a listener, I will be here waiting to die. I’m sorry, but I give up.
I need help.
But you need to know my story first. My mom got married for the second time in 2007. Everything was fine he was really nice and he had his own daughter who was younger than me and my sister. After 2 years everything started getting worst I’m going to 9th grade and he starts acting werid he tryed to beat my sister and she went off on him and told my real dad and he had a gone crazy too. But after a couple months he started to coming inti my room at night and well, doing stuff to me. This happened […]
Feeling really alone and stupid right now took an overdose paracetomol 80 tablets yesterday hasnt done anything but vomited pretty much non stop until this morning. I feel same way I do after every other time I take an overdose happy in a way to be alive and I think about future but then that subsides and thoughts if hoplelesness and feeling like a waste of oxygen comes back I just know Im juggling and eventually obe of these overdose will be the end of me and I just wish I could be stronger
hi, i’m only new on this site and this is my first post, i am a teenager and i often feel depressed and i cut myself i planned out my suicide and the note i would leave for my family but i never actually decided to go ahead with it. i get really depressed and everything seems 2 bring me down even when i’m happy i’m down i hope some people can relate 2 this and understand it. its like when i cut myself i can release emotions and i know i sound crazy but i don’t know who to talk to i hide my marks from […]
“My name is unimportant. I am neither male, nor female. My age has no relevance to my grief.
Consider me a faceless representation of depression. An anonymous death seeker. A hopeless nobody.”
I’ve spent my life doing everything for everyone. I worked my ass off for ungrateful bosses. I threw my social life away to finish worthless years of schooling. I pushed away possible love interests to better the odds of my friends. My entire life has been a waste of time. A waste of space on this decaying, dying world. There is no hope for mankind, and just the same, there is […]
I have known for a long time that my death would be at my own hands. This has never been a passing whim. I can’t remember the last time I didn’t want to die. I suppose that makes me a coward because I can’t face life. My fear of suicide is only that I will be unsucessful. I am house bound and have very little access to means to end my life and no one will see it my way and help me. My biggest regret is that I had children. I should have been more carefull with birth control because no child deserves a […]
Stopped feeling suicidal and just feeling numb. Numb but happier then I have been for awhile. Not sure if is a good thing though as my thearpist keeps telling me it is better to feel things and deal with them. I dunno what to think apart from the fact is it not good I’m not thinking about death for a change???
I wrote this just sitting here, singing with my nieces and thinking of my girlfriend 🙂
When you smile at me
My heart skips a beat
Could this be
I’m actually happy?
Your eyes are a light green
Prettiest eyes I’ve ever seen!
With skin the color of cream
I could mistake you for a queen.
With lips a soft pink
Oh, is that a blush on your cheek?
The days are so meak
Without you here to keep.
But I’ll see you again
Kiss every inch of your cream skin
And lose myself in those eyes of light green.
Signed: RunningInTheDark
Tobias Curry
Preventing suicide is like lighting a theater on fire and then blocking the exits.
cant sleep, cant eat, when i sleep i have bad dreams about the mother of my daughter who im sure by this point is seing someone else…Or dream about myself in horrible situations,…Im so down I cant even be around the part of my family that i love without depressing them away…i wake up just needing to cry but can only dwell, and roll around in cold and hot sweats, thinking about dying or just hiding somewhere for a long long time until i can get my mind right again, my skin crawls with nerves.. i get so depressed around people that i keep getting looked at […]