I shouldve tried harder last night. I wake up this morning, I find out that I failed every assignment I handed in. I officially have failed highschool. I’ll have to retake all of sophomore year. My girlfriend got ridiculed about me n I about her, so she hasn’t even looked at me today. My best friend tried to kill herself n is back in the hospital. My two other friends both were gone today. I got blamed for shit I didn’t do and I got a detention. I destroyed my hip flexor so that ends my track career. My parents destroyed my piece n my […]

The tiniest things can make people happy… so I decided to make a list of some of the things that make me happy. The list could go on forever, but I have school tomorrow and don’t have time for that 🙂

Things that make me happy:

-          Bubbles in pizza crust

-          Making others smile

-          Baking

-          Loose Pants

-          Running in the rain

-          The smell and feel of clean sheets

-          Listening to the “I love you” of people on the phone with their parents or spouse.

-          Running into the exact person you needed to see, just because they remind you not to give up.

-          The feeling of the sun […]

Your smile has been on our minds. Your positive attitude and incredible sense of humor is forever embedded in our hearts. Even people who barely knew you are deeply touched by your actions. You lost hope like many of us do. Maybe life kicked you  down one too many times.  Maybe you couldn’t find help in any of your friends. You’re heart was torn and you couldn’t mend it, but there was hope for you. You were a ray of sunshine among us. I hope you finally found peace. I hope our escape mended your heart and you can finally be happy. I […]

This is my first time posting lol.. So..Thursday I brought alcohol to school & my “friends” snitched on me. They also snitched on how I was planning on getting high on Friday night & how I cut myself..There’s soo many things I could say as to why I think “my life sucks” but there’s no use;p Keep in mind I’m only 14 lmao..but anyone wanna talk?

You left me, James. Not even a text or a message to say you were ending it. I know I wasn’t the best friend I could have been… should have been… But I wish you’d at least tried. I would have tried to help, even though I was so far away. Maybe I could have talked you out of it for a little while… maybe it would have been long enough for you to realize that maybe suicide wasn’t the thing for you. You could have had so much.

I feel so selfish, sitting here and thinking as I write this, that maybe all the […]

Hi.

I just wanted to know what kind of “forum” this is.

How are the people here? Is it serious?

Regards.

highs n lows are friggin unreal!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! NO wonder i get sick of …shyte!

to ANYONE around me that i have an incurable disease??? THEY THINK that if i change my ‘habits’ it will cure me? DUMBASSES!! NO MATTER how many links i send to them to help them understand, they STILL THINK, that the disease is all up to me, and that i can make the ‘changes’ necessary to turm it around!! once again…DUMBASSES!!! SELFISH DUMBASSES!!!!!

Hello,

I found this site really randomly but here is my story ….

So ive just turned 20, im no longer a teenager anymore 🙁 when i was 18 my mum had problems with money, was always upset because of it i didnt really no what to do, so i turned to prostitution i only done it to help my mum with money troubles, i done it for a little while!

I met this girl while doing it she done it as well she seemed really nice we became really good friends, i was friends with her for over a year, everytime i wanted to stop escorting (nice […]

It’s coming up on the big day and for a little while I was actually able to forget about it…found meaning in painting again, in witnessing my younger siblings’ awesome potential and magical ability to just be happy. A beautiful couple weeks without any physical pain. Then everything rushed back in. Can’t paint, can’t write, can’t cook, can barely open doors. Nobody knows what it is and nothing has helped. Undiagnosable pain in my hands since I was 16.  Nothing makes me feel as hopeless as this. Not knowing that I will never find love with a girl, never have babies or finish school, never […]

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xVPvzX-AeSM

Just love that song,

I don’t like to say that things in my life are bad. Because bad is such an arbitrary word. Bad to one person can hold an entirley different meaning to another person… So what is bad really? Then, there’s so many components to the things that I DO truley believe are bad… which leads me to question if it’s really bad at all?

That being said, I don’t know if things are bad. The things I am about to expond upon are the events that I am trying to base my opinion off of… the events that foster my emotions. I’m not saying that I’ve had it bad or good. I’m […]

you have free tickets! might as well stay for the whole show.

If you don’t stay for the whole show, you won’t know what could have been.

I try everyday to understand why nobody cares, if a friend was in pain, I would be there no matter what. I don’t understand i’m not perfect & have made mistakes in my life, but when will I stop being punished. Everything that made me want to wake up every day has been taken from me forever, I think i’m a decent person, I don’t hurt people, when I say your my friend or I love you, I meant it & I would be there for that person but no one is there for me. I am in so much pain, i’m tired of crying […]

There are quite a few posts with the same or similar stories… I am writing very slowly because I am not sure whether I should.  But I probably am searching for consolation, which is an intelligent thing to do, I guess. I have not yet attempted suicide but I think of it too much. I do cut myself sometimes. And that is when someone hurts me really badly again and again… and again. Ironic that instead of trying to heal, I hurt myself even more…

It is because of love, that has always been only depressive for me. I have never had a boyfriend. I have […]

“And I swear at that moment, we were infinite”

Is my favorite quote from my favorite book Perks of being a wallflower.

I must have read that book a thousand times, it always use to help me when I felt down, and I had a lot of favorite quotes from the book, that’s my absolute favorite, because I think we’ve all felt infinite at one point or another.

One time I felt like that, is on Halloween when I was really little and I was trick or treating, and I saw the moon and it was big and full and I couldn’t stop staring at it because I thought it […]

No one wants to be friends with a person that has hideous scars, or wears long sleeves all the time, or that enjoys rainy, gloomy days like me. My depression kills people. But i wouldnt be so depressed if I had friends. Someone that actually understands my pain..nobody wants to be friends with a girl that prefers the color black or that wants to stay in and watch movies. Nobody wants to be friends with that girl..that sits alone at the lunch table..waiting to breathe..waiting for someone to ask if the seat across from her is taken. No one wants to be friends with the girl […]

I guess the good thing about not caring is it makes everything easier. I dont really care about my mom maybe getting upset when I die. That used to be the only reason why I havent tried to kill myself yet. But I really couldnt care less anymore. I always was the black sheep of the family anyway.

I really need to do this. I’m gonna do this.

I feel so screwed up, I don’t know what’s wrong with me. I’ve had a cutting problem for years now, I can’t get a hold of it. I recently started dating someone and I still can’t stop. It just upsets him, I get patronized for it. Whenever I’m in a situation where I have no one to talk to and I have overwhelming emotions, it’s always what I turn to. I don’t know what to do anymore, I feel like I can’t take it anymore. I feel like a burden talking about my feelings, they must sound so trivial and whiny. If I keep it […]

I just had one, simply because someone else posted something moronic on their facebook. Some bible quote:

Ye are the salt of the earth: but if the salt have lost his savour, wherewith shall it be salted? it is thenceforth good for nothing, but to be cast out, and to be trodden under foot of men

My thoughts were like this; that is right, I am trash, I am going to be trodden upon, because I have no savour, and I can’t fight for myself, I’m horrible and pathetic and damaged, with no morals, no motivation, no drive.

Its like pearls before swine, and I am swine. A […]