Ya know, it feels to me like no one gives a good rat’s ass what’s going on in my life. Guess what? 90% of the time, I’m fucking right. I used to be the pretty one, the sweet one, the one that would bend over backward to help a friend in need. Hell, even today, when I am visibally falling apart, I am the one everyone calls to lay down their burdens. Here’s a few examples: (1) About 3 months ago, a good friend of mine called me crying. Now mind you, this is a big, strong man. And he was having suicidal thought and had cut […]
Sometimes, it’s the small things that push you over the edge and make you look at suicide…First of all, the main thing that’s bugging me, my son got sick, and the doctors don’t know what’s going on with my baby. And I can’t help myself, much less him… So, he has lost 5lbs in 10 days, and I can’t get him to eat. Well, finally in the last couple of days, he has started feeling better. So, that’s one thing that has straightened up. I recently got out of a serious long-term relationship that ended well enough… And we are still roommates. The problem […]
everyday i think of shooting myself in the head. not as a bad thing. no it would be amazing. but one thought keeps me from doing it… what if hell was being born again? I cant go through all of this again that would be my hell.
I want to be free of the pain, the sufforing of having to breath every day. I want to die tonight.
I feel guilty about so many things…
I feel guilty because, even though I’m a horrible actress, I seem to have perfected the ‘art’ of pretending to be okay.
I feel guilty because my parents have had to waste so much money on me. Whether it was for therapy, or surgeries, or just fixing things I’ve messed up.
I feel guilty about lying to my friends and telling them “I’m fine”.
I feel guilty for putting my family anf friends through so much pain because I’m just to weak too fix myself.
I feel guilty because after my most recent attempt, I was laying in a hospital, barely lucid, with […]
Music blares into my ears
lost in a sea of thoughts
The waves crashing into each other
cutting sentences off midway through
I can’t breathe, and I hate swimming
I try to yell for help but all that comes out is a whisper
It’s unlikely anyone will hear it
surrounded by beach day fun
The reality is, I’m not too far from the shore
Treading on the edge of the shark net
I look capable
How does one get so far out – if not a good swimmer?
Alone, tired
I decide to sink to the bottom
Maybe I’ll find some sunken treasures
Maybe the […]
Today I qot In trouble In school,first day back and already I’m qettinq In my old ways.The dean told me your a child so what does It matter what you say.I’m seventeen and I know for a fact that I’ve been threw more shit then all the teachers there but don’t really let people know.The only thinq I’ve reallly told anyone on this site Is that I qot molested when I was little.Like I said before,I’d rather have qotten raped once then to qet molested countless times.I love Houston but I can’t help to feel like If I was born somewere else like North Carolina or […]
I am doing a project on how you can prevent  suicide and I am not allowed to add my emotions into the paper even though I have attempted suicide before. Please leave a comment on how you feel you can be helped. My cause is being funded please, I really want to help because I know how it feels to be in a hell hole or alone.
It makes you want to just lie there and let the waves of sad hopelessness wash over you and soon your face is damp with hot tears dribbling down your neck and this makes you even more upset because you hate being such a wreck and you wish you could be happy and normal but you can’t because your stupid feelings are dragging you into a vortex of self-hate where thoughts of death tantalize you at every moment and you’re seriously thinking of grabbing the bottle of nail  polish remover on your desk that says HIGHLY TOXIC on it and just chugging it all down […]
Alright my game is on…GO BIG BLUE..CATS, CATS, CATS..BLUE..WHITE..BLUE..WHITE!
Tonight I told my family about my suicidal thoughts, and I don’t know what to do or what to expect. I know I need help and I’m willing to try to get healthy, but what do I even say to them?
The one thing I want more is my own death. I am getting pretty tired of my life right now. My family. My friends. Everything. I have no life. So whats the point of stay here. I will never get better. If I get help I still wont get better. Really I could never channge my mind. I feel like crying but tears wont get me any further in life. I know everything I do wont get me far in life. The one thing that is holding me back is Andre. If I wasnt dating him I would had ended my life. Why cannt he […]
You get sent to be put on medication if youre depressed or attempt suicide. Sent to a hospital.
But what should stop you, if you want to die, you want to die. Its your life, its your choice.
Like what college to go to, what car to buy, any decision you make. YOU make it. I understand that no one can really stop you from doing it, but they try.
Why would they, shouldnt they just understand that you’re unhappy?
You wouldn’t wanting me telling you you should do something that makes you feel bad.
Hi
This is my first time using this site, but I found it Sunday when I was feeling suicidal and when goggling how much of an medication would for sure kill me. But, as I began to read some of the stories I have calmed down and decided not to do it (for now anyways)
But back to the story. Today I was having a pretty crappy day at school, so I decided to go to tje snack machine to buy a honeybun. As my honeybun was coming out it stopped half way. So, on a whim I pressed the numbers again and my honeybun […]
I have finally figured out why I felt the way I did for so long. Why I was always depressed, why I considered taking my life so many times that I completely lost the fear of it, why I was in so much pain for the longest part of my teen years.
It is with mixed emotions that I can say I know what happened to me that made my life so miserable. It is very painful to know that today I can do nothing to help myself, for what happened in the past cannot be fixed or amended.
All I can say is that when I […]
My life may not be going how I planned it, but it is going exactly how God planned it.
i don’t know why bu listening to piano calms me down. here’s a good song. and i happen to hate twilight. but i love this song. i hope to be this good at piano one day
enjoy 🙂
Dear depressed-Taylor,
I hope I’m not interrupting your busy schedule or anything. I needed to tell you something important. So shut off the music and listen. The simple fact is, I miss you. I miss your smile. I miss your laugh. God, I miss that goofy laugh. Remember how contagious it was? Remember when you were a kid and you would get into these terrible fits of laughter that practically landed you on the floor? I miss that. Everything used to make you laugh. Now you hardly ever laugh. I miss your stupid jokes. I miss how […]
Is it selfish for one to take their own life and bring an end to their pain?
Or is it selfish for others to force that person to live their life, always in pain and not enjoying any moment of it?
Hey, I saw your previous post where you were looking for me. I responded (eventually), but you never responded back. I just wantted to check in and make sure everything’s okay.