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Rest in Peace

  October 4th, 2010 by leonidas

i just want to escape from it all… escape my mind, my body, my life… i feel useless to all… as i feel the blade cutting through my veins, i can feel the the liquids dripping down my arm… i can almost smell the blood.. i can almost taste my tears running though my face… i can feel my eyes shutting down unwittingly. trying to stay awake as much as i can, so i can feel the pain that i have enflicted onto you.. now that this is happening you can lay to rest in peace!!

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i just want it to end!!

  October 4th, 2010 by leonidas

So this has been riding my ass for years now!! everyone tries to help me.. but i cant seem to shake it off!! i just want to feel like i belong… i lost my wife and son two years ago!! but since then i fell like a complete looser!! like i dont belong… like i shouldn’t even try!! its either financially, or communicative!! if that is even a word!! i love my ex and of course my son!! but since i moved to New Jersey from California… i really havent been there.. there… and since my family had noticed the distance between me and my …

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Too Tired.

  October 4th, 2010 by Kiyi

Just when I thought I was coming back up, back up from that deep dark hole, I realize that, no, I’m not. Now I’m even further down, and you know what? I don’t think I want back up anymore. Why bother. I’ll just be pushed back down, eventually. It’s so much easier down here. No pain, no sadness, no disappointment.

I’m not an idiot. I know how to end it as painlessly as possible, I’m just surprised I haven’t done it yet. Well, dehydration is my main route at the moment. Pretty sure if I really put some effort in, I’d be done in a week. …

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A day that changed my life

  October 4th, 2010 by markh12405

My name is mark, this is my story, i had to goto work early on a saturday monring, and my fiance of five years had the weekend off and wanted to drink. Since she wanted to drink i asked her to not invite alot of people, and dont spend much on beer, so she agreed. When i woke up in the moring our apartment was trashed, and she was passed out on the couch, so i just went to work. When i had returned from work i had questioned her about it and she got mad at me and got up and left, its like …

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Medical PROBLEMS

  October 4th, 2010 by tattoo400

 

Type 1 Diabetes (3-4 shots a day for life), Clear Cell Meningioma, Internal pain, constant mental anguish over what I was SUPPOSED to be and what I am not.
Sure the mental anguish is not a physical problem but it will be when it ends up being the driving force behind me making my exit from this bullshit life. The other problems are in fact my own body turning on itself (pancreas decided to attack itself when I was 15 and therefore left me a hardcore diabetic for life (I am a chicken shit about needles and

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Living with chronic pain

  October 4th, 2010 by Ornithopter

Hey SP,

I have lived with excruciating headaches for the past 5 years now.  I also have comorbidities that include chronic fatigue, mild social anxiety, and inherently – depression.  Its taken me YEARS to figure out the cause, have bounced between a dozen different doctors and have spent thousands of dollars, but have learned that its just really bad TMJ, or jaw clenching (when I sleep).

However, this problem is not easily solved.  I have tried almost everything to cure it.  Spent 2 grand on a custom nightguard from my dentist, acupuncture, therapy, meditation, TENS, physical therapy, craniosacral massage 2x a week, muscle relaxers.  My dad has …

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Please help

  October 4th, 2010 by Kerry

I’ve never really done this before but i feel asif i have no other way of letting my feelings out, i am 17 years old and recently for the past month or more i have been feeling asif i dont want to be here anymore i feel asif no one out there cares for me at all in the past i have tried suicide and almost worked one time i took an overdose. But recently i carnt trust no one i dont know what to do. 3 weeks ago i got raped, and drugs forced onto me and i couldnt do a think. i have …

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The balls to do it

  October 4th, 2010 by tattoo400

I wish offing ones self was easier! Even with my physical suffering as fuel for the suicide engine…….I still get nervous even just thinking about putting the bag over my head or pulling the trigger on my shotgun. I guess I am just waiting until the straw that broke the camels back finally drops and gives me the balls needed to leave this life behind. So far I have everything…(no religious worry’s, plenty of suicide methods, etc.) the only thing I don’t have yet is the balls to take that final breath.

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It’s nice to know…

  October 4th, 2010 by Darby

that there are other people like me out there. I wake up and try and get through the day as best I can, but I feel as though it’s all aiming towards nothing. My outlook on life is bleak – it sounds like generic “I’m depressed” shit.. but hey, I guess I’m another generically depressed person. Death is on my mind constantly, I feel like being alive is the most selfless thing I can possibly do, because I know I’m not alive because I want to be. I’m alive because I can’t bear the thought of hurting everyone, or someone I love having to find …

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Sic

  October 4th, 2010 by Jake

I know the other side of suicide. Three years ago my girlfriend hung herself in our garage. I can tell you that it was the most horrible, devastating experience of my life. I felt like a planet knocked out of orbit. I didn’t sleep for months….imagining what she’d experienced in the minutes before and after. It changed me.

Ironic that now I sit here debating my own life. I’ve debated killing myself since I was about 13 years old. I’m 40 now, and my life has been a series of extreme highs and lows. I always seem to end up in the low. Always.

Ill spare you …

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another day….another lie

  October 4th, 2010 by tattoo400

Living, breathing GHOST……life taken for cosmic balance…….

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Just need to let it out.

  October 4th, 2010 by cls

Wow. I don’t even know where to begin. This will be the first time that I’ve let out everything that’s been going on with me for the past few years. I hope what I say makes sense; I’ll do my best to make it as comprehendible as possible, but please bear with me because it’s a lot to let out, and I’ve never done anything like this.

To begin, I’m a Junior in Highschool. Female. Towards the second half of 8th grade, I became bulimic. I’m not sure how that happened. I was never overweight. I was thin, but not stick thin. I didn’t suffer from …

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do i hate everyone else? or do i just hate myself?

  October 4th, 2010 by hattie

i constantly find my self hating everyone around me. i pick everything apart until there is no body i like, and i turn myself into a very bitter person. but do i just hate them because they have somthing i dont have? do i just have such a gelous personality that if someone is better/more liked/prettier than me i hate them to pieces. i am a monster. oh my god!

at the moment 2 f my best friends barely talk to me because there so pre-occupied with this other girl they’ve both decided they love all of a sudden… she had no friends last year, and …

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IM NOT OK!

  October 4th, 2010 by Christina

Im just going to make it quick, i’ve been going through so much stuff for so long now, i do want to kill myself and all that i know how everyone feels so guess what im here! Theres so much of 9 years of stuff in my life that i’ve been through and it hasn’t stopped and till this very hour still hasn’t!

e-mail me anytime…

e-mail-mkafan12@yahoo.com

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Someone help me

  October 3rd, 2010 by loreildarksky

This might take a while, but it’s a lot I have to deal with (though I know it’s not as much as some people).

I’m a sophomore in high school, wondering if I should kill myself. I’ve tried before, but every time I failed, sometimes because I couldn’t do it fast enough before someone came in and stopped me.

I know I have so much going for me, but all of it is also the reason I want to die sometimes. I’m on the swim team, one of three things that I truly love. But sometimes everything else makes it too hard for me to even function …

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Gravity

  October 3rd, 2010 by Violet Blake

Something always brings me back to you. It never takes too long.No matter what I say or do I’ll still feel you here ’til the moment I’m gone.

You hold me without touch.
You keep me without chains.
I never wanted anything so much than to drown in your love and not feel your rain.

Set me free, leave me be. I don’t want to fall another moment into your gravity. Here I am and I stand so tall, just the way I’m supposed to be. But you’re on to me and all over me.

You loved me ’cause I’m fragile.
When I thought that I was strong.
But you touch me …

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I liked that Idea

  October 3rd, 2010 by unexpected unknown

I liked the idea the boy in the UK had. Doing it with someone else. I am in the USA. Someone email me if you are intrested! davidkdesigns@live.com

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Such Is Life

  October 3rd, 2010 by ryachu

Bad people don’t deserve to live. People who hurt others with no thought to the consequences don’t deserve to be happy. People who selfishly use others for their own personal gain are monsters. Hence my downward spiral into depression. But I’m too big of a ***** to ever really kill myself. Fucking pathetic.

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My time has come..

  October 3rd, 2010 by lawzy2

 

I have decided after a lot of thought that my time on this Earth is over, I am not in trouble or a manic depressive just someone who has made this decision through conscious thought. I know people will find this hard to understand and it will hurt a lot of my family and friends, but i am my own man and know what is best for me. I dont think of life or future or past no more, My decision to die was not agonising it was more comforting than a lot of people could understand i just want to go to sleep. I have heard …

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Everyone fears death.

  October 3rd, 2010 by clarasucks

Don’t even deny it. You could fear the pain, if it fails and you have more pain then before. Maybe you fear the afterlife? No afterlife? It’s a reason most people keep going. Everyday I think about an escape from school, from grades, from drugs, from my family. But then, I still feel that i’d miss so much. I’m 15, and I don’t feel like I can wait until i’m 18 to get out of this. It’s so confusing. I’ve tried to kill myself before and dealt with self injury since I was 12. I never realized how much of an affect it had on …

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