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Survival is sinister

  August 5th, 2010 by splinter

I have survived 2 very serious suicide attempts, first one was 6 years ago, the last one was 18 months ago (exit bag and overdose). I would love to say that things have improved for me since them but they have only worsened. Waking up in this hell once again after a long time preparing your death and building the courage to do it, well, is absolutely horrifying. I don’t see the world the way I’m supposed to, I only see hell, and for me, the fact that I survived my attempted escapes adds to the nightmare of being here. For the past 6 months …

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Learn how to choose Hajj Package

  August 5th, 2010 by fryderykaw80

Hajj packages range amongst different operators of tours. Every package deal is exclusive and you’ll positively get confused making an attempt to find probably the most preferrred and reasonably priced package. Normally, most Hajj packages will comprise of quite a lot of things.
This contains meals throughout all of your rites of Hajj, home and international return flights and lectures to enhance your understanding of Hajj. These lectures are often undertaken by people who are highly qualified and who have a lot of expertise in matters to do with Hajj and on most of the different associated subjects.

It does not matter which country you come from, …

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I survived only to face another day

  August 4th, 2010 by JennyA

Memories Regarding the events of Monday, October 26, 2009:

It just happened. I couldn’t take it any more. I’ve had 3 surgeries for 3 different things within 3 months… and with the intracranial pressure that won’t go away, it seems like my life has been stolen from me. Add that to surviving an abusive childhood where my father made sure I knew I was worthless and should never had existed, then going on to get married to someone I thought was a decent man only to find out that he was an abusive alcoholic… creating years of struggle to get my son and …

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I lost her.

  August 4th, 2010 by MrMiserable

I don’t really know where to begin.  I’ve read so many of these other stories.  And mine really sounds no different.  Then why even do this?  Maybe it will make me feel better.

I lost her somehow.  I don’t know if it was me.  I don’t know if it was the setting.  I don’t know if it was the people.  But I lost her.  And I can’t shake this awful feeling that I’ll never feel the same about anyone again.  But I hate her.  I fucking hate her, everything she’s done to me.  Every thing that she’s said to me.  Every time she made me feel …

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Suicide group?

  August 4th, 2010 by mailer9

I have been reading lots of postings on here, I see that many of you who are suicidal are suffering from similar issues, one being that your friends have let you down and that there is no-one that understands what you’re going through. 

Would it not help to have a group set up where you could all meet up and talk face to face? Maybe you will make friends with each other and your lives may improve – even is your lives didn’t improve, surely having others in your life that at least understand how you’re feeling can ease some of the pain?

I can’t help but …

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14 and different

  August 4th, 2010 by Smile Kid

I am only fourteen years old and I have been diagnosed with: slight neurotic behavior, depression, and border-line personality disorder. I have mild anger issues and suffer from mild to severe panic attacks. I have recently started seeing and hearing things out of the norm but can’t seem to tell my father. Sometimes I think I’m actually going crazy. I don’t know any other young teenager that suffers from any of these things. I feel so different. I am going into 9th grade on August 19th. In 5th-7th grade I had major social issues. It’s hard for me to make friends and keep relationships because …

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Are we entitled to be happy?

  August 4th, 2010 by Jenttar

Where do our expectations come from?  It’s those expectations that make us want to kill ourselves. We can only feel unhappiness if we have felt happy, or if we have had expectations of happiness.

If we have felt happy and now we are unhappy and due to that we want to kill ourselves, well, that is greedy and selfish isn’t it? I am a victim of this myself so I am not criticizing anyone. And also, isn’t it shortsighted? If we have been happy once or twice before, then how do we know we wont be happy again in the future? And why can we not …

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If suicide was easy, how many would do it?

  August 4th, 2010 by woody333

I feel pretty sure that the answer to this question is a gigantic number.  It is not just depressed people who are suicidal. Suicide, has always been linked to the depressed, or mentally disturbed, and it also has a label that describes them as not thinking straight.

The truth is, a vast number of people chose death over this life, and they are sane, intelligent, even successful people. 

Many people who do wish to die rather than to live here, often, do not, due to fear. The fear of it failing, of it hurting too much, of religious beliefs, and the fear of leaving behind all the …

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Suicide? don’t die yet (sharing some glimpses of Hope)

  August 4th, 2010 by niki

I’ve just happened to come across this site, and seen all the replies here,
and I can honestly totally relate with everything you all said here.
In fact, these are all the main reasons, or my main feelings, that I’ve browsed around & eventually found this place!

I hate the fact that:
1. The world is mostly run by the riches & powerful, but not necessarily the most genuine kind of people, ‘cuz there’re often just way too many dirty politics & trickery for one honest, genuine person (or leader) to cope for! and it can just becomes way too much to handle!
although I’m not saying that ALL riches …

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I’m 19 and I want to die,this is *Part*my story.

  August 4th, 2010 by Broken Dreams

I don’t know why I typeing this here right now or why I contuine to live in this world.

Their was once a user on this site named “mychoice” who taught me personally some amazing things.If any body cheaks this site I’m sure you’ll find a few posts by him.He had this one about money being the root of evil and how we as people want to enjoy this world but have to pay ticket sales just to do anything.As time past I begin to learn from him and left a few comments on his posts and eventully I think I angered him.The last post he …

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One more step.

  August 4th, 2010 by meliaming

That’s all it would take. One more step.

I don’t expect anyone to reply this, nor do I expect anyone to read this. I just want to vent out feelings I haven’t been able to tell anyone in my life right now.

It’s been a year since I last thought about suicide. Since then, I’ve moved to Australia for college and I’ve met so many new people. I thought this was to be my new start. A fresh beginning from the previous year where friends turned against me. Dispose of my jealous feelings I had towards even my close friends – start anew. I was right, for …

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Suicide note

  August 4th, 2010 by ShayyCee

Today all my hopes dies. My life was soo bad from the beginning. no freedom. My parents refused to take me away from the school I used to go to because they want too feel like they did everything they could do to help me in life. Today I got my subject selection form. Guess what? I got all the basic subjects.. I didnt get any of the subjects I wanted.. I know none of this sounds like a big deal but it is. Because I always try my best and at the end I dont get any result. Slowly my hop, faith and everything …

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please help!

  August 3rd, 2010 by Christina

oh wow not only does nobody help you in the world, i go onto online help chat people and nor do they help either, now i feel like this website nobody understands or cares either, im 2o years old and i’ve been depressed, suicidal, and hurt for 8 years now and i keep saying this but i mean it everytime, i cant take anymore i really cant but i feel that there is literally nobody that can help me so i honestly dont know what to do i want to kill myself but am still trying to figure out a good way to do it, …

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i feel low

  August 3rd, 2010 by nickynicky

I had so many friends at school, I was sporty and one of the best rugby players. family life was happy, i was content and I was strong. I was always caring, at times on my own even as 7 year old I remember crying for Africa and the hungry, I cried that one day my grandmother would die,I cried that one day my parents had to go, i cried for all the suffering people endure over the world. grans dead now, she died as my brother lay on his hospital bed, close to death. I always had this depth inside of me. When I …

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Ugh

  August 3rd, 2010 by HopelessLittleGirl

I want to strangle her. That’s how angry she makes me. Slowly suffocate her and unable the air to reach her lungs.I know I should think killing your own sister is wrong, but right now (and many, many times before) nothing made more sense.

That manipulative, fight causing, egocentric whore.

Once again today she had been taunting me nonstop. Not speaking a word to me unless it is to offense me or accuse me of things I didnt do.

Things she did.

Slut.

I refuse to cry. Even though I feel those annoying pricks that state presence of an upcoming waterfall. Crying is he sign of weakness. And besides that …

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I don’t know what to do…

  August 3rd, 2010 by love13

If  you ARE READING THIS THANK YOU. MY CAPS LOCK IS STUCK AND I AM WRITING THIS ON MY IPOD IF YOU WERE WONDERING. IM 13 AS WELL. I HAVE BEEN MOVED ACROSS THE COUNRTY AWAY FROM EVERYONE AND EVERYTHING I LOVE. I WAS SENSITIVE IN THE FIRST PLACE AND ALREADY GOIN THROUGH THINGS THIS LED ME TO DEPRESSION, SUICIDAL DEPRESSION. I HAVE A LOT MORE GOING ON THEN I CAN SAY, ONE THING IS I HAVE A VERY BAD CASE OF EPILEPSY AND TODAY I COULDN’T MOVE. THE ONLY PEOPLE WHO KNOW ABOUT MY SUICIDAL THOUGHTS ARE MY BROTHER AND MY TWO BEST FRIENDS …

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Help…

  August 3rd, 2010 by love13

If you have read my other one you will get this. And please comment to both you could really help. I am 13 years old an dI am seriously considering suicide and I am cutting myself, not my wrist but my arms. My brothe is the only one who knows in my family so I talk to him.  My thoughts are getting way worse and more serious. Thus I need someone to help me, mymom goes into denial everytime I try to tell her im depressed and calls my a drama queen but she has no idea how much pain im in and she has …

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The guts to do it.

  August 3rd, 2010 by LastTry

I won’t be melodramatic, or over dramatic. I’ll be truthful and to the point.

It really doesn’t motivate anyone to read “I’ve always wanted to die.” because I’m sure we thought of living a little longer every time, and that’s why we’re able to read this or write this.

I’m trying to stay strong through the things I’ve been through, looking up and looking for goals and keeping busy. In the end though, I find myself just lying about everything. Finding reasons that don’t exist reasons that are too petty, but then I guess saying that would show my jaded side or ugliness of my personality. Perhaps …

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All day…

  August 3rd, 2010 by jennyafrank

If someone comes to you and says to you that you’ve hurt them, no matter how small or insignificant it may seem to you, it is for whatever reason something that affected this person in such a way that they had to tell you.

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Too Much Too Young

  August 3rd, 2010 by Koojiru

So, for the 50billionth time in my 18 years I have a plan to kill myself, again.

You think that after having religious revolations, and beliving in Karma and re-encarnation I would have given up on suicide attepmts. No, it seems my inner deamons havent had enough of my heart and keep chewing.

Let me paint you a picture here, on a giant 5’3 canvis. Picture a woman sitting, wondering how shes going to “fix” this canvis before it grows to what it really is today. She holds her pain brush up to it, then dips it in mold green, vomit yellow and black. That woman was …

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