Recently, I was drawn to search many times online, and speaking with God as a way to understand myself, and as a way to seek forgiveness and repentance for what I’ve done. I think most of us at any point in life do consider suicide as a way out. It seems straightforward, and quick. It also avoids us to confront our issues, our families, our friends, and many other thoughts that shape our existence.

Days and nights feel long. Darkness surrounds us squashing any sense of hope. I feel that. The worse is the shame, despair and anguish. The uncertainty of what another day brings to […]

My son he was always on the xbox and computer and he tried this new game called minecraft he went online and found this other kid called badflop he was freinds for a while until his freind decided to send hit hate mail and ban him from playing we didnt beleive him so he kept trying to stop it and it didnt work so he went to his freinds house punched them came homa and killed himself……

In loving memory of zachary smith 1999-2011 i love you zachary

I tried cutting but it hurts too much. Even though i know that’s the point. I still can’t do it but i want to. any ideas?

 I was eleven years old when it first occurred to me I could escape my problems by killing myself. The thought gave me immense comfort and a feeling of utter calm.  It still does and I am now in  my late thirties.  I know eventually I will do it and I have made all the necessary arrangements to avoid inconveniencing anyone. My parents would be devastated by my death, so I will not do it while they are still here. That would be much  too selfish.  I have no wish to cause anyone any pain.

 I have no children and my husband and I barely speak. The […]

I think despite the fact that my heart is healing. I am scared to confess what I’ve done to my family, and to look for forgiveness to the people I have hurt. I know it’s was right, and that I should do it regardless of the outcome. I’ve been praying for strength and wisdom almost every day. I hope that people understand. I am not perfect. I am flawed. I was selfish, but I don’t want to be that anymore. I want to live my life toward the good. It is a difficult objective, but I believe there’s enough hate and suffering already. I think […]

My friend committed suicide the other week. I had no clue. About a year before that i had suicidal thoughts but I never acted on them. I just bottled them up. I convinced myself that they weren’t there. But now that she committed suicide. She has rekindled everything. Its all i think about. But im too scared of the unknown. That there wont be anything after I die.

Plus i have two little sisters and I would hate to leave them like that. But i want to. Just to stop all the anxiety and suffering. I can’t tell anyone about these thoughts because they will send […]

Guinevere by Eli Young Band I don’t know why, but I feel like this reminds me of me, anyone else???

This is the beginning of the end as Churchill said. I have done the research and made all the right preparations. I wanted to post something anonimous but it’s hard these days it seems. Anyway I’m calm and ready. I feel only now what to write and how. Be nice if it was memerable but not likely. Never been much of a writter. Odd that at the end I feel no sadness, or fear, just rage at the price of my red wine. Not even that good. I know medical staff don’t understand, oh they have the facts and theories but only a bat knows […]

So… I lost another chance today. I was supposed to turn up at my teachers office at 9 am today. But, i got up late because my phone has no batteries so i couldn’t set the alarm. Still, i could have made it in 37 min, if only i hadn’t been staring into space so much. My teacher wanted me to write one of the essays he’d given us to do the subject before this one… One of them was supposed to be written in school with his supervision, and my remedial on that one was supposed to be today. The other THREE he wants […]

I’m 12, My dad cheated on my mum, and hasn’t talked to me for 11 months or so now,

i’ve been getting really suicidal, and have started cutting.. Only people closest to me know, and think it’s time for me to seek help, the thing is. I dont know how to tell my mum, it will only make her feel worst, Than what she is.

Somedays, I wake up, Wanting to end it, and not be here, like i’m doing everyone a favour and vanishing..I feel like someone’s came and cut me open, and let me wide open, I don’t know how someone so young, can hold […]

She has small kids that are unruly and destructive, a husband that cares more about playing video games than helping out around the house and then there is my mother who both helps and enables that dysfunctional family.

I am convinced if she were allowed to get the proper rest and had a hubby as a partner instead of as another child she wouldn’t feel this way. It takes all my strength to help her stay positive, but if I were her I’d want to die too. She just wants sleep and help around the house. How do I convince her to live when […]

I am not a cutter. I have never been suicidal. Life has always been about accomplishing the mission… but now there is her, or should I say and then there was her? Oh how I loved her. She was my great muse… my great love. After she left I fell into a bottle. The mission of my life quickly became this: Get fucked up and forget. The downward spiral has lasted about 8 months now. I am addicted to alcohol, drugs, and sex. The weight of my sins grows heavy on my shoulders. My legs are bowed, and my back is tired. Something has to give…

i dont mean to be but i just get upset and want to hurt myself it helps my lungs feel better and the stress go away i just i want to not feel this way the only way to feel batter is to do somthing destrive to yourself but somtimes it feels like my only way out. why dose cutting has to become so addtive i cave it about every day i just cant help it sometimes

today was thanks giving i wish i couldve gave something to thank god for… i mean today was actually a happy day and i dont feel sad but i know when this is all over im going to be sad again.what should i expect from life when i dont know what to do or what to expect from the things that happen in life…. right now i feel like just writing i guess but i want to know i should be motivated to help everyone around me.

I’ve been weak and I’ve been strong. 
I’ve been thru the fire and I’ve been thru the storm. 
Try to do right and I know I do wrong. 
Just be happy for me when my life is gone. 
Cause with no more hurt and no more tears,
 There will be no more pain and no more fears. 
No more people in my face that are not sincere. 
So smile for me when I’m no longer here.

This is my story. I will turn 30 years old on Xmas eve. My whole life, I’ve been both coddled and emotionally abused. My father alternated between impulsively flying off the handle when I fucked up (as evidenced by his extremely loud and caustic rants about how lazy and incompetent I am) and unreasonably shielding me from the natural consequences of my behaviors (e.g. paying off large amounts of overdraft fees when I mismanaged my money) . I joined the Marine Corps in September of 2000, got through bootcamp, and then got administratively separated because of depression and have been ashamed ever since. I recently […]

i though we were gonna be together forever. but since he cheated on me i don’t know right now. these cuts means nothing to you. but to me they mean the pain that u gave me, the pain which you made that in my heart.

I feel as if my heart is slowly nursing back to health. I still feel despair and sadness, but I must be strong. I have to do what’s right. Every time, I think about it. I feel as if God is protecting me, and guiding me to do what’s right. We cannot simply ignore our mistakes, and what we did. We need to be truthful, and try to fix things. Fix things because it is what is right, not because of any gain or benefit to us, except our repentance.

So you guys got to approve my comments? Wtf buy that time it mite be to late for somebody that didn’t get to read my comment…wtf

I feel as though someone has cut me open,
Ripped out my insides
And replaced it all with so much pain, hate and uncertanty…
The only thing i can be sure of
Is that i will NOT live through another year like this
Soon i will say Goodbye to me for one last time.