I don’t know what to say. There’s nothing here for me, and i’m in the way.
Is it so wrong that now I just wanna save a life? Instead of moaning and complain on how I wanna die I rather help someone instead. I wanna help a dying person even if it means I’m losing mines. Really? I wanna do right than do wrong. Be remember of the girl who saved a person’s life instead of killing herself. The last deed she done before leaving this horrible horrible world. Say my final goodbyes before I have one of my organs taken away from me. I don’t need it. I really don’t want to give my body to science nor be an […]
Hello.
I loved one man for 5 years. I was ready to kill for him…
I have MDD. When my depression became uncontrollable and I wanted to talk to someone or cry almost constantly, I started to take antidepressants. I tried to talk to doctor, but she only maked me feel worse… Then I found strong antidepressants and tranquilizers by myself.
I know that dose was much more than I needed… But I couldn’t control myself. I only wanted to shut up and swallow my problems, not to cry in front of him, not to disturb him with my fucked up mind…
Two weeks later I was hospitalized with overdose… […]
It’s been over 10 years since I first wanted to die. Six years since I wanted to kill myself. I recall how annoyed I first was, when someone said, “That’s the same thing!” I stand to my word and still say, “No it isn’t.”
I remember the first time I tried to consciously commit suicide. Times before that I hadn’t really realised what I was doing. But this time, I knew completely. It was three days before my 13th birthday. I felt so finished with life. I asked the air, “What’s the point of life?” Maybe there isn’t one. Maybe that’s why people say, “Perhaps the […]
anybody out there i understand exactly how u feel. I come from an abusive but religious home. my father has been physically and emotional abusive my mother who in turn takes it out on me maybe it makes her feel better. my older brother just got released from jail for murdering one of our neighbours 11yrs ago. i was raped at age 19, got pregnant a few months later then aborted my child( i regret it since but now dat i think abt it, i wasnt in a fit state of mind then so i’m hoping God forgives me someday). i quit my job coz […]
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I’m not sure what to make of this feeling. It’s taken a hold over me and I can’t stop it. This weight that I feel, it drags me down. Into emptiness, into blackness. I feel no pain. I take no breaths. I bleed no blood. I’m not alive. I feel nothing. All of this is true, so why does it hurt so bad? I’m the exception to every rule. My life is slow and disappointing. They say nothing gold can stay. I’m not sure I was ever gold, but I was certainly better than this. I go back to house where it all started, just […]
You’re right that life isn’t fair. Because people are self-absorbed, yes. Because people are selfish, yes. We’re born into a world that we know, as soon as we become enough aware we know, we have to leave sooner or later.
And we spend that time trying to fill it with as many positive experiences as possible. That’s all we really want, isn’t it? Our day in the sun?
Well, we didn’t make the sun. I’m not religious, but I’m sure as hell we didn’t make the sun. Or the ocean. Or the mountains. Or the sky. You’re right; you didn’t choose to come into the world. You […]
I’m 22 years old. I work in television, I work very long hours and I find my job very stressful. In January of this year on my birthday I got a phone call informing me that my two best friends were in a car crash. They both died. I have no family to speak of and no real friends that will listen. I’ve been struggling for a long time with this.
I’ve always been a shy person. I find it very difficult to share my feelings with other people. This hits me extra hard since a little over four years ago the only girlfriend I’ve ever […]
I think ever since I was in elementary I have been depressed. I also think that is when I thought about suicide. I don’t think I knew back them what suicide was, but I knew that I just didn’t want to be here any more. I’ve never gone through with it, but it has always been there in the back of my mind. I also didn’t think that liking both boys and girls was a natural thing to do. At least that is what The Lady kept saying whenever I heard her talk about the subject. I do love her, but I cannot stand all […]
I am a lesbian vegetarian wannabee wiccan, anoerixic, bulemic, drug addict. I am 17, but I feel much older as if I’ve been here too long. I am human and IÂ feel selfishness. I live in a fatasy, even while going to seep, i dream about being someone ese. Someone I’m trying to write about. Write about her power and no one will ever hear that story because even if I do not kill myself now, or soon, I refuse to be alive for long.
I am not supposed to be here. I do not fit in anywhere. Not with my parents. Not with my friends or […]
All that I write is the truth.
I wanted to know if anyone has ever felt the way I am feeling right now. When suicide is discussed (generally speaking) it is talked about with intense sadness (ussually on the part of the person thinking about it). For me, when I think (have not talked to anyone) about suicide (something I have been doing alot, lately) I have feelings of peace.  I take comfort in the knowledge that the idea of suicide has become, for me, a release of the obligation I have to get up out of bed each day and live my life. My life is not bad, not good, but old. […]
    How are you suppose to feel when your  “friends” turn their backs on you? When you don’t understand why people are talking behind your back and threatening you to your face…
   It all started the end of my 5th grade year. My “best friends” started picking on me and taunting me and saying they were gonna cut off my hair and push me down the stairs. I didn’t understand it. I thought maybe I had did something wrong. I would get kicked in the face on the bus and jumped in the kiddie closets. I was scared to tell because i really thought they […]
  i’ve ruined everything. I don’t want to live. it’s to hard. i fuck up everything, my life, other peoples. my life and others would be better if i could stop being a fucking ***** and just kill myself like i’ve wanted to for moths now. i’ve tried closing myself off but it dosen’t work. i try not being around people who make me feel weak and worthless but their everywhere!
Don’t You Dare think for a minute that people actually care
They will shrug you off the second you ask for help
Don’t You Dare trust people as they beg you for your trust
They will give away all your secrets in the blink of an eye
Don’t  You Dare believe any of the “sorrys” people give you
They don’t really mean it
Don’t You Dare be naive in the world
      Its a cruel horrible place
Don’t You Dare try to fit in with everyone else
When they find your flaw they will turn on you
Don’t You Dare go along with the shit people put you through
You don’t need it
Don’t You Dare pretend to be happy when your […]
Okay, so I can’t take it anymore. I first tried committing suicide when I was about 6 or 7 by tying a cowboy belt round my neck and pulling. I had been getting bullied and molested by my older sister. I always got bullied at school and at home from as young as I can remember to when I left school. Once I got to university I thought life would be different, but it turns out I’m just a complete fuck up, and after two attempts at my degrees and various ill health problems I crashed and burned out of education.
I’ve always been a […]
Now I sit alone at the library. The question keeps running through my head “Were is there to go when you can’t go home?”
 I had been getting better. The seroquel, miracle pills, had been working. Yeah I wasn’t normal, not even close, but they helped. While they do nothing in the way of suicidal fanticies they had helped my be less violent, less angry, less of bitchy me.
That time is gone. They stopped working. I’m not weak. I’m not the kind of person who sits and cries. I don’t feel the need to whine about it’s not fair. I’m just… pissed.
So I’m stuck here. Waiting and […]
It was a month yesterday since I last saw or heard from my ex. I have been in bad shape mentally and emotionally since. My thoughts are erratic and it’s just difficult to function when the future I thought I had with this guy left when he did. I have family and people saying the usual things like, get over him, it’s time to stop crying, consider it a new beginning, blah, blah, blah. No one actually realizes how much damage this has done to me. I’ve got no friends, lost them while I was with him. I’ve tried pen pal sites, social networking sites, […]
Last night i called my friend and we were talking and i was saying how i didn’t wanna mess up for tomorrow and she read me a bible verse about starting over every day …….
“Don’t worry about tomorrow for tomorrow will bring its own worries”
(or something like that)
But anyways I thought well OK maybe that’s true, So i stopped worrying yesterday and did what i wanted and now I’m stuck with the consequences, I’m hungover and i have like 15 new cuts on my legs. They hurt so bad i cant really walk and now i realize, and i will keep realizing until they heal, […]
I’ve been diagnosed with psychosis.
People are constantly trying  to help me, but nothing seems to help.
I’m sick of all the pain I’ve had.
But every time i try to end it, I keep waking up afterwards.
I’ts like God saying; i’ts not your time yet.
But I want it to be…