The pain of losing my daughter seems to hang on and on. It’s unbearable at moments and I would give up my life to be with her again. I’ve contemplated taking my life to be with her and that thought occurs to me at moments when the pain is breath taking. When will these moments go away? Will I ever be free of this feeling of living in moments of pain.
I woke up this morning tired. I woke up yesturday tired. Ive been so tired lately its like my meds arent kicking in like they are suppose to. Im tired of taking the medication but I know what will happen if I stop taking them. Some times I think all I have to do is stay off the medication and I wont be so tired. Im tired of taking sh*t from people. Its like they got nothing better to do but to make me more depressed. Im tired of living but know that its to hard to kill myself without something happening and some how […]
I was 12 when my fathr died and 20 when my mum as well, Working in a school I look after my little brother, I love someone and get civil marriage making 6 years from now but we still live separately until religious ceremony, he is a nicve person but never take decision he never care and don’t even mind with anythings. I got in love with a boy who is a cousin of mind I havn’t left my husband waiting to choose the better i don’t retain any private relationship with him or my husband.But the second one makwe my life a hell, He […]
R.I.P Cory
sept 13, like pac.
i ain’t known you for long, but i’ma miss you, still. tell pac i said hi man
R.I.P Cory
I was looking after my cousin (5) and he was really sad (Long story) so he was playing with the blinds(curtains) cords he wrapped it around his neck and tried to hang himself but it failed atrociously and he just fell on to the ground. I asked “Where did you see that?” then he replied (Get ready to be disgusted by us) “I saw you, sissy, bro, mummy, daddy, your mummy, your daddy and Aunty October do it when you were sad”
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I was over-joyed and a bit disappointed at the same time to know that I wasn’t the only messed up one in the family… I don’t […]
The nights alone scare me. The anxiety mounts by the hour, and all I can think about is hurting myself. I want to be anywhere but here–alone in my apartment with no one to talk to and nothing to do.
The desire to end my life right now is crushing. I don’t know if I’ll make it.
I’m tired of fighting the fight. I’m tired of the no’s. I’m tired of having to stay well everyday. I’m tired of feeling alone.
I’m tired of being told we cant help you. I’m tired of no health insurance. I’m tired of having to pay for my med’s. I’m tired of not
being able to get the proper med’s. I’m tired of people telling me it’s a choice but when in fact it’s a disease. I’m tired of people
judging me. I’m tired of my children’s hurt looks and their own pain. I’m tired of being in pain morning,noon and night. I’m tired
of grieving over my daughter. I’m […]
I FEEL LIKE KILLING MYSELF RIGHT NOW !
I am so fucking unappreciative
If I’ve ever hurt you, I hope you can forgive me and understand I never intended to hurt anyone. I have only treated people the way they would treat me, so if I did you wrong, Im sorry. If you can’t forgive me, I understand, I know I’m just a bad person, I wish I was better person.
Your born alone, and you die alone. I get that now.
Never show your true pain, I understand now that showing your hurt will lose you the people who matter most.
You think that people, or the ones that love you most will understand you but they don’t.
I’ve learnt that […]
not gonna say names but someone on this website told me I was childish and fake for saying that I romance about suicide. I came to this site because I thought people could help me, but I guess not. I’m better off dead anyway. Good luck to you all. Bye.
Back, and relapsed, and disgusted with the sudden boom of attention seekers on this website. It sucks. Zomg meh bf dumped meh, meh live is ova guyzzz. c u on the ova side lulzzzzz.
Anyway, I came here to vent, and vent I must. I’m tired. Insomnia’s back, fuck yes. I love my insomnia. It’s like, so great. Atleast I have crappy Pokemon-epic-fail-White to keep me occupied with it’s trashy trashiness. Heh. The day’s not so good either. I either go out and have to run around for five hours looking for a friend who’s millimeters away from topping herself, and find her drunk and in […]
“I have decided that suicide is completely out of the question. I refused to end the suffering of others. No, i must contemplate homicide and end the suffering of one…Me!!!”
I want to kill my self with a knife in to my heart how long tell i die im 49 years old and sick of my life
Dear Mom,
  Why? Why did yew do it, was it really worth it? This tore me too shreds, and yew don’t realize this. I asked yew why, yew said to “go away.” No one wants yew do go away. Yew say yer fine, but deep inside yew know yew aren’t. This was not yer answer; do yew understand how hard it is to wake up at 1:15 in the morning at the age of 13, with yew passed out at the end of my bed? I tried and tried to wake yew up, at first yew was unresponisive; but yew finally woke up. Tears flooded […]
since ,y mom killed herself i dont feel right like im broken. she was always nice but depressed too. se told me before she died, that she never wanted children cuz she knew shed kill herself and didnt want to leave a family behind. im next to die the next to leave a family behind. bye
I close my eyes just to see your face, remembering the sound of your laugh/Such a beautiful life, brought to such a terrible end/There’s no use trying to pretend, I know now what has to be done/Can you ever forgive me? I try to speak to you in my dreams/But you can’t hear my voice, above your scream/I can’t escape these feelings of remorse,/I can’t heed their advice, to stay the course/My sense of direction always pointing to self rejection/It all gets better with time, oh it’s such a lie/I can’t hide the pain streaming out of my eyes/I try to take a step in […]
Im trying to be a good person.
Im trying not to do something that will ease my pain.
Im trying to be patient.
Im trying to ignor.
Im trying.