Even after i told my friends about my problems the showed little care exept for 3 people. And i thank them with all of my heart. But even if it made me feel alittle better. I still want to die, so do day just to see if anyone truely cared about me. I send a text saying “if i died would u cry? would u care?”. i had 4 responses. But only to the 1st question. “YES” “mabey” “of course” and Â r u asking this? To those people who resoponded i thank you again. because that one word saved my life today. And i may […]
I was just wondering… maybe this has been specifically discussed before on a different thread (before I joined), or maybe there’s an unspoken rule of not talking about this… but since the subtitle of this site is “Tell Your Suicide Story with Others”, is anyone open to listing the method(s) they chose to end it all?
Obviously since we’re reading this, the method was not completely carried out, but I was just curious if anyone wanted to list the method(s) they chose (or perhaps are thinking about), kinda like a survey of everyone’s plan(s). Or am I way out of line here […]
ThisÂ thought just suddenly occur to me.
For those of you who feel so much apathy and hopeless & pessimistic with how our current world is, and that you somehow feel hopeless & helpless to do anything about it, in other words, you feel that you just can’t “change the world”, the current fucked-up state/condition of the world we’re living in, no matter how much you’re aching for it,..butÂ honestly, has it ever occur to youÂ all that, even by posting and discussing in this website, has already created a CHANGE, even though it started only a little, and as an “idea”. But like the premise of the […]
There are two things I hope and I wish to say, and share,Â with all my deepest heart and sincerity to all of you here:
First, is that I’m a musician/composer,..
and after finding this website (about last week) accidentally, and then reading all the posts & comments, and mostly they’re just so strikingly similar, in such a honest, very sincere, real,..and even beautiful ways,..I have thus vow and swear today, that I will do my BEST, using my whatever utmost talents & passion in Music,…to create and compose a song, specially dedicated to all of you here.
Please give me around one month, at the very least, […]
I’m sorry, I don’t mean to be provocative but I’ve given this a lot of thought over the years. This earth is of course hell (or something like that), that cannot be denied, it is riddled with bad things happening constantly, some of it seeps through your TV and it just washes over you. You see it, yet you do nothing. Â Oh, you might feel upset by it but the act of feeling upset does not qualify you as a good person in itself. I too see it, and I do nothing, what can we do? Really, what can we do? Â We can’t do anything […]
I first took an overdose at the age of 14 , although there was a boy involved in my unhappiness at that time, deep inside, I knew it was more than that, although I was too young to be able to understand it fully. My parents didn’t know I took the overdose, they just thought I was sick for a couple of days, but my mum knew I was upset about the boy at that time. She told me that I am young and boys will come and go blah blah and I have a whole life ahead of me. To which I replied that […]
I’ve been planning to kill myself but also in the process I’ve been trying to find a reason to stay alive. I’m struggling.
Today, for the first time in ages I switched on the TV and I don’t know if I’ve finally gone mental but all the faces on the TV just seem ridiculous, I have noticed that even people’s facial expressions are fake these days. Then earlier I was googling something and came across a yahoo answers question link, I ended up just out of boredom just looking at other questions (this was the first time I had been on this site). The questions I […]
I was wondering if anyone has seen the movie “Numb” with Matthew Perry. Although he has a different disorder than the ones I have, I thought it was comforting watching him struggle as I have with life – feeling numb, feeling disconnected with the world, not understanding why, part of him wanting things to just go back to “normal” but feeling frustrated that it never can.
I just thought it was interesting to see life fall apart to an otherwise quite intelligent man and how he had to try to live a somewhat “fake” life because people just didn’t understand what it was like to […]
It appears long time ago that I have slipped through the cracks of life.Â It seems though I am watching everything from a glass window with no interaction with others.Â I am 29 years old and I honestly do know what to do anymore.Â I have had long term friends just shove me aside like I am a pile of feces waiting to me turned to dust.Â I told all my friends they mean the world to me and that wasn’t enough. My last friend said “We are married and no longer have any time for you.”Â I no longer have any friends.Â Â I sit […]
I can see that slowly, more and more people are beginning to see the truth, or at least seek the truth. Many are now really feeling that there is a deep and irreversible dark world at work here on earth. I am not talking about religion.
I have posted a link at the bottom of this post, it is a 3 hour talk about what is happening to mankind. Some may say that this is a conspiracy theory, but everything in this speech IS proven and CAN be seen by anyone. The control that we are all under here on earth is so great that you […]
Trying to explain the things I carnt say
Getting it rite but in the wrong way
Trying to free the love we sheared
Spiralling out control going no where
Bleeding hearts going no where
Ripped out – left limp on the floor
Breathless feeling – endless pain
Dieing slowly – was it a game
Bright lights and angels every where
A sudden realisation this isnâ€™t fair
I had a dream that was far away
Now im in heaven a place to stay
Love is a word that captures your soul
Should live with you till you get old
If it should break and darkness falls
The strong live – the weak ones fall
Tools â€¹ the suicide project â€” WordPress.
Tears fall from my eyes,
As your tiny hands fall from mine.
A few days is all we had with you,
It seemed a full life time.
I dreamed how weâ€™d played,
In the sun-snow and rain.
How you would grow into a man,
Making me proud everyday.
The dull sound of the alarm,
As doctors come rushing in.
Angels flying above you,
Heavenly children sing.
I see you leave your body,
And glance down at me.
Thereâ€™s a sudden realisation,
No pain-your totally free.
Now my son in heaven,
Safe as safe can be.
Heavenly tears are falling,
From him-two-you-to me .
my name is peter im from leeds in westyorkshire united kingdom im 44 yrs old and need help
i suffer with post traumatic childhood stress syndrome
explosive personallity dissorder
I wont write pages to explain what happened all i will say is from the agess of 10/16 i was sexually abused and have only now found the strenth to talk to the police about it.. ive tryed so many times to die thinking if i was dead the pain would stop but then i wake up in hospital and it starts all over again
ive never been able to keep a relationship going for to long and im […]
Kind of struggling just now with feelings and am just not sure what to do. I have Complex PTSD and this week has brought new challenges since being diagnosed a few months ago. Not sure of next steps…
I am a Christian who has turned into an agnostic (and up to this day, I still honestly can’t find a single valid, reasonable reason to go back into ‘pure’ Christianity again,..though I’m always remain open-minded),
and from my own observations & experiences, & also seeing others, I can tell you this:
God, whatever It is, usually means HOPE.
People need hope, to keep living in this world. otherwise, he’ll find many & any kind of reason to end his/her life (because he/she feels NO hope anymore).
It’s that simple.
Now although I’m very much still questioning whether God is a “He (Him)” (and why does it […]
I have to tell you that I feel you all who wants 2012 to really come true (no matter how much “B.S” you might think about this. we’re talking about FEELING here, not THINKING scientifically or whatever!).
Seriously, when Iâ€™m just fucking tired with whatâ€™s happening in this so-called â€œreal worldâ€ and all its â€˜uglyâ€™ hypocrisy, backstabbing, cheats, tricks, lies & more lies, pain, and how â€˜hopelessâ€™ humanity in general might seem,..it becomes VERY easy for me to hope, even PRAY for 2012 to really come,
for the comet or meteor to come and wipes like 3/4th of the Earth or whatever, to make these goddamn […]
Unlike most posts on here, I have no real problems that I can talk of. My life is pretty good actually and I see good and beauty everywhere, but I do also see the bad. I laugh a lot, pretty much everyday I can see the funny side to most things. I am also deeply compassionate and can cry at a sad advert!Â
But I have been suicical for most of my life. I have tried it a couple of times but made mistakes. I have studied a certain method well and have ensured that on my final attempt that I will succeed.Â
I read the posts […]
You know I’m kind of wondering why four months have gone by since I broke up with my ex and yet I still feel like this…but I think I worked it out tonight…I didn’t just lose my gf I lost my best friend…I mean sure I have other people I call friends but I’m just not close to any of them…can’t talk to them or confide in them for so many reasons…and being in uni I have years to go before moving out and having my own independence or the chance of a new life becomes any sort of a reality…
Basically I just needed to […]
I dont know why I stayed
Stayed your friend
I needed something/someone
You loved me and I loved you
But my love is diffrent
You found someone else
I hated you
I cut myself
You left her
8 years on the same has happened
I still love you
But you love her
You will still be my friend no matter what you say
But I cat have you if you have her
If you have her I have to go
This pain is killing me
You say you are my friend why do you not txt me?
Cos you are not really my friend
Hi. My name is Philip Yarbrough, age 19. I suppose I should share some things with you all. I live in a very rural community, full of people that are unkind, cruel, and spiteful. I moved here when I was 15. Ever since I’ve moved here I have been treated like an outsider. I was beaten repeatedly in highschool for just being the new kid. I guess, wouldn’t been so bad if the wanted my money or something besides giving me pain. I did fight back once, threating to kill them and I was nearly arrested. Something that should have happened to those kids, but […]