I am 16 years old, and alive. I came close to ending my own life a year ago. Practically out of nowhere, I went through a severe depression, and felt hopeless, worthless, and apatetic about my own existence. There were days where I couldn’t even make myself get out of bed. I would cry myself to sleep, and whenever I did wake up, I would go right back to sleep so I didn’t have to feel the pain. I couldn’t bring myself to tell anyone about what I was going through because I was embarassed, felt crazy, and still believed that I wanted to end […]
FUUUUUCK! I’ve really fucked up. I apologize to any youngins reading this. Damn it.
I wish I could kill myself.Â I am so afraid of doing it, especially not succeeding.Â I know what would happen if I don’t succeed and people find out.
I am tired of my life.Â Am 30 years old.Â I’ve lived a lie all my life.Â I think its the first time I even talk about it, but I like men.Â I have had this secret inside forever and have never done anything about it.Â I am engaged to be married in 2 months.Â She is a great woman.Â My professional life is a disaster.Â I haven’t been able to find a decent job since I […]
I try to downplay what I feel. Or I try to make it more than it’s worth. People know me to have so much depth, never giving me a break from their expectations. At least they’re starting to give up on me. I do martial arts, I sing, I dance, I write, I’m always obsessed with something, and I’m always depressed…. But, I never, ever cry.
People used to love saying “Let me pray for you” or “Jesus will help you” I used to hear that shit all the time until I told my teacher to fuck off. It’s actually kind of funny since she’s my […]
Music to sooth, de-stress and encourage to seek beauty for the depressed, traumatized, and self loathing alike. Try to keep pushing. I hope you enjoy. If you have a good sound systems kudos.
Ravel – Bolero: Best sound quality I could find on YT.
Zero 7 – Destiny:
Massive Attack – Teardrop
Sia – Numb:
Zero 7 – This World:
And lastly another well known classical piece by Prokofiev that is very inspiring Montagues and Capulets.
where to start? well I’m 29 yrs old and l I’ve been depressed for a long as I can remember. I tried to kill myself about 9 yrs ago, I hung myself until I blacked out, it was almost painless the pain only lasted less then a minute then I couldnt feel anything, but my wife cut me down and they rushed me to the hospital so I woke up in the hospital angry that I didnâ€™t succeed and now I was stuck going to a mental clinic for like 3 months taking pills that didn’t do anything to help, but at least I […]
so what im trying to say is think of the futuer and realize that you are hurting everyone around u and u do kill youre self you will never find out what you where put on earth for so from someone that has almost done it please dont you can come out of it and there is always someone willing to help
told her it was something i have thought about sine i was 13 and she realized she was hurting me more by yelling at me cause i went to the batroom with aknife and she came in to apollagize for yelling at me then she made me realize that it wouldnt just hurt her but it would hurt my 5 yearold daughter and my 2 yearold son and my parents and brother and sister but i keep thinking about what gods got in store for me when he let me live when i hit that colvert at 75mph and i knew i shouldent have servived […]
in my mouth and wanted to end my life but i didnt i even drove my car at 75mph and hit a colvert and servived at the age of 17 but now im 23 and married for3years with 2 kids and thinking agine if i should kill myself cause i have found that my wife has cheated on me at least 4 times and i feel my self growing mad and scared i might hurt her cause how my dad was i serched for hours today looking for the best way to kill my self and my wife had caught me looking at it and […]
high my name is tim ever since i was 13 ihave thought about comiting suicid when i was 13 i watched my dad about choke the life out of my mother and i had been through some big relationships and i found my self getting very mad from being cheated on and holding stuff in and growing very mad and i thought about killing my self because i seenmy self becoming like my dad and it scared me so i tookin drinking smoking dope and snorting coke or skying i dont know what they call it now and ive tasted a gun in
I’ll start with the simple details. I’m a 16 year old blond spanish/italian blooded atheist kid born in Denver with a very sex appealing look and brother of a famous person on MTV who knows most big stars from Jack White to Jimmy Page, and even all famous latin american stars worth being named.
I’ve had a recent interest in reading other people’s suicide stories because I admire fairy tales and stories like Romeo and Juliet with dreadful endings; explains the reason I’m here and had a sudden interest in writing my own story… and unlike others I’ll be very detailed and open minded when explaining […]
I’ve thought about death. I haven’t thought about killing myself yet but i’ve thought how it would be like after i die. I don’t want to kill myself but it feels like the only answer I’ve got. I’m not happy. I’ve tried smiling at everyone but it just seems like a waste of time. It does not make me happy. My grades have dropped . My friend s think I’m stupid. I’m useless. I love God but I don’t have the insurance’s that his there. What if my Gods not real. What if Jesus is not there? I feel terrible even thinking about these things. […]
“Come to me, all of you who are weary and carry heavy burdens, and I will give you rest.” – Jesus, Matthew 11:28
i donâ€™t have too much to say but iâ€™ll start off by mentioning that this post isnâ€™t at all for myself.
there are a lot of people who come to this site and write down their experiences/situations for others to read, but many of us here donâ€™t really receive help.
the only way things fall away from goodness is because of a lack of God. so basically what iâ€™m trying to say is that if you really want to make your life […]
This task is just too difficult to complete. I honestly see myself dying old and alone if I keep on living. I’m the youngest person in my immediate family. I Refuse to bare children and pass on my fucked up genes to some poor child that has no chance of being normal with me as a mother. Coming from a family that isn’t very close to begin with I would most definitely grow old and become one of those poor old people that society just throws away. I’m close to being there already at the age of 22. It’s just that my parents wont give […]
I am nothing, I have nothing to offer myself or anyone else. I am socially inept. I can’t imagine what would make me useful to myself, my family or society. I feel like a permanent outsider. I just want to be like everyone else. I have no idea how to do that. I just don’t know what to do. I feel paralyzed by the knowledge that everything I’ve done seems like the wrong thing. How do I do I hope that I might ever do the right thing?
When you tell people that you’re drunk, they tend to turn away. But I can’t keep doing this by myself… I’ve lost my friends, my son, everything. God, here comes the tears… I just can’t do it anymore. I’m drunk enough to post this, but sober enough to be honest. I need help, and I can’t do anything. I really think I’m drunk enough to kill myself. I can’t do it anymore. I can’t do it anymore. I can’t do it anymore. Please, someone help. I can’t do it.
I have been kicked out of school…there is no where to go, everyone think i’m the best…im the ideal person. How do i tell anyone what im going through? it so hard. i’m not perfect..im fat, im single, i don’t have anyone to call my own. I feel like dying is the only way out. does anyone agree with me? i feel like this is it… what do i do? I work so hard for everything. so hard and everything goes to waste…everthing…why?
I am fifty years old. Ten years ago I was diagnosed with breast cancer. It hasn’t come back. My husband started an affair a year after the diagnosis, and legally separated from me three years after that. We have two children, 11 and 14. We split custody. My husband is an excellent father and financially secure, though I am not. To make money I substitute teach, and I’m looking for a job as a full time teacher.
There was a time, before the cancer and the divorce and the financial crisis, when I was a happy, lively, outgoing person. I look at the future, and see […]
I don’t want to be anyone or anything. I don’t want anything out of life. The more I learn the more it seems that everything is just a thoughtless process. I don’t like coffee, or beer, or cigarettes, or art, or sports or social activities. I actually find these things so useless that they scare me. I try to research these things and find out why people do them. To try and not be scared. I research how to interact with people. I observe. People laughing, people hugging, people crying. And I try to imitate them. Try to be human. Try to find a […]
im tired, worn out, dont feel like going on. no one cares, they simply hide behind false smiles. i put on this facade everyday that im alright, but then i just sit and laugh as people go about their daily lives, seemingly care free. i was depressed, and sent to a rehab center, and there i was molested by a security guard, everyone thinks it only happens to girls, that B/S. i just want the nightmares to stop, for the pain to go away, and there is only one thing that can take it away. im just tired, i want this to be done. im […]